"I know that logically. I've just been having trouble knowing it psychologically."
Thomas reached an arm out so wrap around his son's shoulders. "And in an effort to try this...talking thing-" He sighed heavily before finally saying, "I'm scared too. I don't- I don't want to die that way. And it's selfish, but I sort of thought dying now would save me a lot of pain. But it's not fair to cause all of you pain just to save me some."