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Zoe (history_repeats) wrote in nevermore_logs,
@ 2012-10-28 00:02:00

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greed, zoe hansen

WHO: Greed & Zoe
WHEN: Sunday, after Church
WHERE: Lust's apartment
WHAT: Just friends being friendly..
WARNING: Possibly more deals.

Zoe was in a good mood on her way to see Greed. After all the paranoia and fire of the past week, things seemed almost normal. Well, as normal as spending time with a sin could be. She hadn't heard from Patience and wasn't too broken up about it. She'd noticed that she was happier with Greed when people didn't ask questions or try to make her see sense or reality. They just weren't nearly as much fun. It was harmless. They were just hanging out. That was all.

She was still a little uncomfortable about his sister's posh apartment but apparently it was the only 'safe' place to meet for now. She wasn't going to overthink it. For now. She knocked on the door.

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history_repeats
2012-10-30 01:20 am UTC (link)

Which was one of the things Zoe was scared of... her expiry date. With Greed, she didn't know how long he'd cherish her. He liked her today. But tomorrow was another matter.

She was starting to calm down in his embrace but jumped when he copped a feel. She looked at him with wide eyes and her mouth open but then she laughed a little actually supremely thankful for the break in the tension. She didn't want to talk about those things anymore. It made them real. It made her face them and she didn't want to. "Well it was going to be till you ruined it. I was going to kiss you but now..."

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	better_than 2012-10-30 01:23 am UTC (link)
	"I've been wanting to do that for ages..." he said through a gritted smile. "Not disappointed, I've got to say." She had curves that could derail a bus, but good God---now he was just grinning stupidly. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

history_repeats
2012-10-30 01:29 am UTC (link)

Zoe rolled her eyes, "You're an ass." but she grinned a little at that look on his face. She couldn't imagine what it'd be like if he ever saw her completely naked and got to touch her rear. She started laughing at the thought, her cheeks getting a hint of pink to them. She didn't bother explaining it and shook her head, grabbing his hand, "Come on.. I want to show you something." because she had brought something she wanted to show him. She actually wanted to show Patience but he was being weird lately.

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	better_than 2012-10-30 01:32 am UTC (link)
	"No. I have a great ass. There is a difference." He pointed his finger at her, stealing a kiss even though she didn't want one. "Did you bring me a present?" he said giddy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

history_repeats
2012-10-30 01:39 am UTC (link)

Zoe leaned back and looked at his butt, she shrugged and teasingly said, "Meh." then wrinkled her nose, "Don't do that. I'm annoyed with you." she said in reference to his kiss. "You can't kiss and grab the ass of people that are annoyed with you." it just wasn't done. And wasn't fair.

She grabbed her bag, "Um... not really. I don't think you'll care too much actually but I wanted to show you so.. well.. suck it." she smiled.

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better_than
2012-10-30 01:43 am UTC (link)

"Mmmm. Sin. I take what I want. Which is more often than not your lips." And everything else he wasn't allowed to have yet. "Next time you lock yourself in the bathroom I'm coming in with a chainsaw." Horror flick style.

As she sifted through her stuff he eyed her curiously. "What is it?" he practically loomed over her, ready to reach for the bag and just dump it's contents out. Then she wouldn't be searching.

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history_repeats
2012-10-30 01:52 am UTC (link)

Zoe pulled out a book from her bag and set it down next to her, idly saying, "Next time I lock myself in the bathroom, I'm going out the window." she smiled as she pulled out a second book, this one much older and more worn. She held the book in her lap and looked at him, "And taking what you want, including my lips, doesn't make you a Sin. It makes you an asshole."

She patted the spot on the sofa next to her for him to sit down. "Stop acting like a serial killer." chainsaws and looming. Worst ~~boy~~friend ever.

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	better_than 2012-10-30 03:44 am UTC (link)
	"I'm boarding that shit up with duct tape." He took a seat still eying her back like it was lunch, curious to what it was she wanted to show him. "Would a serial killer have this face?" he teased. Though, in her defense he had killed before just not in a repetitive fashion. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	history_repeats 2012-10-30 03:47 am UTC (link)
	She gave him a big smile, "Yes. He would." She seemed excited to share this with him despite the awkwardness of just a few minutes ago. She had a gleam in her eye as she held the books to her chest and asked, "Have you ever heard of 'the looking glass self'?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	better_than 2012-10-30 05:01 am UTC (link)
	Greed stopped a moment as if she were talking a foreign language. "Refresh my memory." She was a book worm, he'd started to gather that by the collection in her room and the spill earlier. She seemed excited though, which made him excited. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

history_repeats
2012-10-30 05:15 am UTC (link)

Zoe grinned because she was pretty sure he had no idea what she was talking about. She showed him the newer looking book, "This is a book about you." the cover reading An Early History of Greed and Avarice. "In it, it talks about a lot of things but part of it is how greed can be good in small doses." she pinched her fingers together to indicate small, "I mean it ruins people but it can inspire them too." she was starting to ramble but couldn't help it, she looked at him, "Patience keeps painting you as this horrible guy, Christians are taught to be wary of you, hell thinks you're the greatest thing ever, society thinks you're bad, captialism thinks you're good.." she smiled softly at him, "I have my own opinions about you too.. it gets confusing." she shook her head, "The point is that this," she put her hand on the history book, "Reminded me of one of my favorite books," she held up the old worn copy whose title was The Looking Glass Self. She quoted from the book, "I am not what I think I am and I am not what you think I am; I am what I think that you think I am." she was pretty sure that was confusing but she didn't want to get too ahead of herself. But she wanted him to understand the concept she was trying to explain.

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better_than
2012-10-30 05:35 am UTC (link)

"Uh huh." That last bit rolled around in his head a few times. The fact that she was spending so much time to learn about him was--well it was disgustingly cute. He'd told her before he'd never seen himself outside of all the versions of himself that he'd used to achieve what he wanted. People forgot that even an ounce of greed could be used to achieve goals, to achieve the good things in life. It was probably that in part that made him as bouncy as he was.

"So I'm bad but I'm good. That's what you're trying to tell me?" She was painting a whole new side of himself just by believing what she did.

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history_repeats
2012-10-30 05:50 am UTC (link)

Zoe's eyes were shining as she shook her head, "No. Better than that."

She gestured with her hands, "What it means is that... like.." she looked off trying to find an example and then said, "When everyone tells a kid he's stupid... he believes it. He could be the smartest kid in the world but because society tells him he's stupid, he'll never realize his true potential. Albert Einstein was considered a moron by his teachers, he didn't speak till he was four years old. And he was brilliant. He didn't listen to what they said he was.. he became what he believed he was."

She continued, "We use society as a mirror to see ourselves. If people think we're bad, then we believe it and become it. Because we can't see ourselves we need a mirro. But mirrors are flawed. There is no mirror that ever shows the exact truth. There will always be a slight bend, a contour, a trick of the light. So when you look in the mirror, you'll never see the whole picture, it'll always be a slightly warped version of what's there. Same thing happens with who we are." she smiled at him, "It means that no matter how many people tell you who or what you are, they can all be wrong because the mirror lies. The only person who knows who you truly are is yourself." and she poked his chest.

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better_than
2012-10-30 06:04 am UTC (link)

She was going around and around but it made sense. At least she seemed to, she sounded like she did. His head bobbed around in a circular pattern as she spoke. "Yeah. So, I'm really this fabulous person you're trying to convince is fabulous?" He gave her a grin. Yes, he'd told Wrath right this girl by far was someone to hang on to. "And you wonder why I have you in my personal safe." When she talked like she did, like this, it really did make him feel like a real boy.

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history_repeats
2012-10-30 06:18 am UTC (link)

Zoe chuckled, "No.. I don't need to convince you you're a fabulous person. You need to believe it yourself." she smiled, "You always say that you show sides to people depending on what you want, right? You use that person as a mirror to see what they think and then you become it to get what you want."

She turned a little so she could face him, "I'm saying.. what if.." she raised her hands and covered his eyes, "..there's no mirror to look into?" just dark, nothing looking back to cloud his mannerisms or personality, he was just with himself. Whoever that might be.

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better_than
2012-10-30 01:13 pm UTC (link)

He wasn't sure he believed her. He knew what he did to get what he wanted. She'd seen those sides before. Good and bad. There was still so much he hadn't shown her yet. "I use people to get what I want." He was repeating again what he'd already told her. She looked at him though so hopefully. He paused with his mouth open to speak and he remembered what Wrath told him...

Humans were anomalies themselves, he was a result of that imperfection. His personalities worked according to what situation he was in. But with Zoe...it was like he didn't have to pretend. "I..." He shook his head, "I don't know."

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history_repeats
2012-10-30 02:39 pm UTC (link)

Zoe kept his eyes covered for another moment and then lowered her hands. She sighed a little, "When I first learned this theory, it made me realize that I didn't know either. I.. think I still don't. I just know that when people try to push me into some box of what they think I should be, I don't have to be in it. But sometimes.. it's just easier to be in the box." she glanced at him not knowing if he understood that. How when you didn't know who you were or what you wanted it was just easier to take on someone else's expectations for yourself. Easier to fit a mold than to break it and make your own.

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	better_than 2012-10-30 09:35 pm UTC (link)
	She had hope in him. It was a a completely different world for him. Somehow they saw a little of themselves in each other. That was a connection Greed had wanted to obtain for a long time. Now was not the time to fumble, but as a Sin he was bound to twist it. He was determined. "That's impressive. Not even Charity puts that much hope in me." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	history_repeats 2012-10-30 10:03 pm UTC (link)
	Zoe shrugged and smiled a little, "I think we all need someone to believe in us before we can believe in ourselves. So. I believe in you. Now you gotta stop looking in the mirror." he needed to rely on himself to figure out who he was. Not her, or his siblings, or hell, or society. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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