Allison
I will never be who you want me to be, Allison. So if your help means getting me to a point where someday I'll that I'm sorry for doing what I was taught to do and being good at it, then no you can't help. The only thing I do regret is that I spent my entire life following the teachings and revering a man who didn't give a shit about me or the principles he drilled into my head, so you let me know what you mean by help.