DEREK.
You're telling me because a stupid device made you, it wouldn't let you avoid telling the truth anyway, it wouldn't let you lie. You're saying that you've felt like this for a long time but you're just telling me now? After I made a complete idiot out of myself because I thought our concert was some... amazing date from this really sweet, phenomenal guy and you went out of your way to tell me that you had no interest in anything more than a platonic friendship, you're telling me now? This started because you 'might as well' be honest or the network would make you, it started because it wouldn't let you lie... that's not forthcoming, Derek, that's literally the opposite of forthcoming. I never called you a jerk, don't turn this around and talk to me like I'm being cold and refusing to understand after I've been lied to for so long, I'm angry. And fuck, Derek, I'm allowed to be angry!
I love you too, but I was sitting here believing that I was the only one and that's the worst feeling, Derek. I'm in a strange place and I don't have a Lydia, I don't have a pack, I just have you and I fell in love with you and I thought that I was stupid. I thought that you couldn't love me because if you did you would just tell me, you wouldn't let me believe that I was alone in this. You could have just told me that you were scared, I'm scared too, but I'd rather be scared then feel completely alone and abandoned in this place, because that's how I feel.
It's so lonely here, Derek. It's lonely and I'm scared and I don't want to go back home because at least I have you here, and you're the most important person to me I have, friend or more, you've always been the most important person I have. You can't hide things from me anymore, I have no one else, I only have you, and when the only person you have in the whole world is hiding things from you, things about you, it hurts. It really, really hurts...
You're the only thing I've ever known that I would pick over finding the person who killed dad. The only thing, I know that staying here means I'll never be able to do that, but I don't want to go home. I want to stay here with you.