It just... it sucks because he's been like the only person I talked to these days. Everyone of our other friends are like married or have careers and stuff, and nobody really talked to either of us. I mean, they'd talk to me when we were around each other, but we weren't like-- close. He was the one I'd call, and he'd come to me when everything was going wrong. I just feel like it's too late to go back to where we were before it happened. It's like I'm losing my best friend and my crush all in one shot, you know?