Harper Layne (vintageheart) wrote in mountzenithnet, @ 2020-10-15 23:35:00 |
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Entry tags: | #day 055, harper |
#6984RCO5 : 8:00AM [PRIVATE]
1. What's something that you know you do differently than most people?
...almost everything. I was raised in an unusual way.
2. Who in this experiment makes you feel safe?
Oliver and Edwin.
3. Who in this experiment makes you feel unsafe?
I haven't met anyone like that yet.
4. What goals have you set in the past that you haven't achieved?
I didn't do too great a job running away.
5. Where do you wish you were right now?
I don't know. New Orleans maybe? I'm scared of being on my own but the thought was exciting too.
6. Thinking back to the best day of your life, how do you think those feelings could be recreated?
I've had some good days but I don't know if I could pick one day as the very best.
7. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
Not much at all. When I tried to get away from the compound was the first time I ever tried to control it.
8. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
Both. I had to be. He'd get so mad if we didn't do the right things right if that makes any sense.
9. How do you feel you've changed since becoming part of this experiment? (This question is not required for Harper.)
10. How are your fears related to your childhood?
I don't understand the question. My childhood wasn't really scary most of the time.
11. Do you ever replay something, like an embarrassing moment or words left unsaid, in your head? What is it?
Words left unsaid, all the time. It's things I would've said to Lucas or to my dad mostly.
12. How do you deal with hurt and pain?
Hide it. We weren't allowed to show negative feelings like that.
13. Is it easier for you to love or to hate?
I want to love but a lot of people make that hard. I still think it's easier than hating.
14. What do you do when you feel afraid?
I pretend I'm complying even if I don't feel like I am inside. That was always my go to.
15. If you could bring back one person that was part of this experiment but has since been removed, who would it be, and why? (This question is not required for Harper.)
16. What are three things you like about yourself?
I'm interested in other people, I try to be a good person and I guess my hair?
17. What are three things you don't like about yourself?
That I don't know how to do so many things most people do, that I didn't ever tell my dad to get stuffed, all my freckles.
18. Do you believe in a higher power?
Yes.
19. What makes you special?
Nothing.
20. How do you feel in this moment?
Okay. It isn't bad here.