Ivy McNeil (spiritcold) wrote in mountzenithnet, @ 2020-10-14 16:44:00 |
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Entry tags: | #day 055, ivy |
Ivy - 1:02pm [private]
1. What's something that you know you do differently than most people?
I don't really know. I live my life differently than most? When I get tired of a place I move... I like to keep moving...
2. Who in this experiment makes you feel safe?
I mean, mostly everyone. It seems like everyone here looks out for each other.
3. Who in this experiment makes you feel unsafe?
Nobody.
4. What goals have you set in the past that you haven't achieved?
Too many to really name. I had wanted to go to Rome.
5. Where do you wish you were right now?
Rome.
6. Thinking back to the best day of your life, how do you think those feelings could be recreated?
My mom would have to be alive for that to happen so I don't think it's worth explaining it.
7. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
I would say 95%.
8. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
Doing the right thing although I don't always think before I do something. It is what it is.
9. How do you feel you've changed since becoming part of this experiment? (This question is not required for Harper.)
I don't know. I guess I've become more accepting of strange things.
10. How are your fears related to your childhood?
This is way too deep a question for me to answer without a therapist helping me unpack it all.
11. Do you ever replay something, like an embarrassing moment or words left unsaid, in your head? What is it?
Sure, who doesn't? One time, I was leaving a temp job and I was saying goodbye to one of the men who worked there. I shook his hand and instead of saying "it was nice getting to know you" I said "it was nice getting to blow you". So that was fun and pops into my head every now and then.
12. How do you deal with hurt and pain?
With a lot of breathing.
13. Is it easier for you to love or to hate?
Love.
14. What do you do when you feel afraid?
Try to find a way to overcome it. Or just scream.
15. If you could bring back one person that was part of this experiment but has since been removed, who would it be, and why? (This question is not required for Harper.)
Oh, I don't know. I think everyone I've become friends with is still here.
16. What are three things you like about yourself?
My patience. That I can be spontaneous. Never letting myself get tied down in one place.
17. What are three things you don't like about yourself?
That I did something to find myself here. Not putting myself out there more since I've been here. That I haven't had sex in a really long time and this place isn't helping.
18. Do you believe in a higher power?
Not really.
19. What makes you special?
I don't consider myself special.
20. How do you feel in this moment?
Fine.