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Tweak says, "Baby Got Back!"

mm_j (mm_j) wrote in morningstar_mnr,
@ 2010-05-05 21:22:00

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elspeth, niles

Niles and Elspeth, her apartment, Wednesday Night.
Niles was drunk. So drunk he could hardly stand up, and as always, he found himself at Elspeth's door.
He couldn't blame her for her - father. She didn't even know. She hadn't asked for any of this, and he knew that. But fuck, he was so ANGRY. Angry at their situation, angry at the hopelessness of it all, and maybe a little angry at her for making him love her enough to get into this mess.

He knocked on the door, his forehead resting against the wood and his hand sliding up and down the smooth surface as he waited.

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	manorplayer_m 2010-05-06 02:37 am UTC (link)
	She froze a little bit, then looked at him with narrow eyes. Not pulling away. Not yet. "What?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mm_j 2010-05-06 02:39 am UTC (link)
	"I said I heard that you like to go out and get drunk too," he said as he leaned back and crossed his arms. "So what if I'm drunk?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	manorplayer_m 2010-05-06 02:45 am UTC (link)
	"I do not," she said carefully, now pulling away, "like to go out and get drunk." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mm_j 2010-05-06 02:49 am UTC (link)
	His eyes narrowed. "Don't lie to me," he said plainly. "I've never lied to you." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

manorplayer_m
2010-05-06 02:53 am UTC (link)

She blinked, lips parting in disbelief. "Lie...lie to you? What the..."

Anger twisted and turned inside her, and she bit back bitterness.

"You make it sound like I'm an alcoholic or something." She lifted her chin, arms crossing.

It was true she had, in her lifetime, gone out and had something to drink. More often she'd done her drinking by herself, or in places where nobody knew her, but yes, there had been times she'd been a bit more indiscreet than was her norm. It didn't make her a...drunk.

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	mm_j 2010-05-06 02:56 am UTC (link)
	"I didn't say you were a fucking alcoholic," he said in a dangerously quiet voice. "I said that you liked to get drunk too. I've heard. From people that wouldn't lie to me. The pot can't be pissy with the kettle for being black." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	manorplayer_m 2010-05-06 03:01 am UTC (link)
	"You've been talking about me?" she said, backing up a step, his words like a needle in every one of her sensitive spots. "With who? Why? Why would anyone..." She again bit back her words, heat flooding over her. Dismay and distaste and shame. "It's been months and months, anyway," she added in a low voice. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mm_j 2010-05-06 03:02 am UTC (link)
	"Of course I talk about you," he said with a shake of his head. "I love you. I'm fucking crazy about you. Why wouldn't I? Christ, you have no idea. None." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	manorplayer_m 2010-05-06 03:04 am UTC (link)
	"I love you too," she said after a moment, though it didn't taste any better to say that than anything else she'd said tonight. "Why are you angry about that?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mm_j 2010-05-06 03:09 am UTC (link)
	"You have no idea," he repeated, just because it was the only thing beating around in his head. She had no idea who or what her father was. No idea what he'd done just to stay with her. "Is it worth it? Would you give up everything to stay with me? Do you love me that much?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	manorplayer_m 2010-05-06 03:10 am UTC (link)
	She didn't understand this, but moved closer to him anyway, to take his face in her hands. She looked into his eyes. "Niles, I love you. I don't have anything to give up, because you're everything I could ever want." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mm_j 2010-05-06 03:16 am UTC (link)
	"How do you know?" he said, gripping her wrists to keep her hands on him because he needed her there. "How do you know?" Niles had never been one to feel things - clearly. It was such a huge sacrifice. Something that couldn't be taken back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	manorplayer_m 2010-05-06 03:19 am UTC (link)
	"How does anyone know?" She asked quietly, wincing only slightly at his grip. "What's going on with you? What is this?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mm_j 2010-05-06 03:29 am UTC (link)
	He wanted to tell her everything. He wanted to admit that he was afraid. He had every reason to be, didn't he? What was there to be afraid of, if not the devil himself? But he just couldn't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	manorplayer_m 2010-05-06 03:41 am UTC (link)
	"Was it something I did?" She asked, wracking her brain to think of what she might've done. She hadn't called him back right away the last time. Was that it? She'd been busy with work, not paying him enough attention? Her heart sank. Was she screwing this up? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mm_j 2010-05-06 03:45 am UTC (link)
	"Christ," he muttered, alcohol taking the smooth talking that he usually possessed away from him. "No. No. Not you. You don't even know. It's me. Me," he said, shaking his head. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	manorplayer_m 2010-05-06 03:47 am UTC (link)
	"What's you?" She said, confused. "I thought everything was going well..." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mm_j 2010-05-06 03:55 am UTC (link)
	"It is going well," he said with a soft shake of his head. "It is. Me and you, we're... I've never had anything like it. Ever." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	manorplayer_m 2010-05-06 03:59 am UTC (link)
	"So then..." she moved closer to press against him. "What's wrong?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mm_j 2010-05-06 04:08 am UTC (link)
	He hated this. Well, not this with her. But the outside stuff. The stuff that slowly turned him into a headcase. "It's just hard for me sometimes, that's all," he said after a moment, hands going to her waist. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	manorplayer_m 2010-05-06 04:12 am UTC (link)
	"So you got drunk?" She smiled a very tiny bit. "Or was that just a coincidence?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mm_j 2010-05-06 04:21 am UTC (link)
	"Coincidence. Both. I dunno. There was a party at the Lamb or something," he said and rested his forehead against hers. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	manorplayer_m 2010-05-06 04:24 am UTC (link)
	She sighed, still upset and confused. "How about I get you some water or something?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	mm_j 2010-05-06 04:31 am UTC (link)
	His hands went to her hips again, tugging her close. "How about you stay right here with me?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	manorplayer_m 2010-05-06 04:36 am UTC (link)
	She didn't say anything, but didn't move away. She pressed closer to him, her head on his shoulder. She put her hand over his heart, beating in his chest. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)