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Tweak says, "I couldn't sit down for a week"

Diana Meade (darknesswithin) wrote in momadness_net,
@ 2021-08-15 21:08:00

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[Bucky]
How do you let go of your first kill?

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	who_is_bucky 2021-08-16 01:12 am UTC (link)
	What? ~~Where the hell did that come from?~~ (Reply to this) (Thread)

	darknesswithin 2021-08-16 01:15 am UTC (link)
	... I'm sorry. Is this a bad time? I shouldn't have brought it up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	who_is_bucky 2021-08-16 01:18 am UTC (link)
	No, it's just a strange question. Why are you asking? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darknesswithin 2021-08-16 01:31 am UTC (link)
	Me and my sister killed someone. Before here. Just before. He needed to be stopped. But I can see the look on his face, in his eyes... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	who_is_bucky 2021-08-16 02:00 am UTC (link)
	Oh. ...Yeah...yeah, you don't really forget that... What was he doing? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darknesswithin 2021-08-16 02:08 am UTC (link)
	Genocide. He was killing all light magic users. Using his daughters to do it... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	who_is_bucky 2021-08-16 02:12 am UTC (link)
	So you stopped him to save lives? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darknesswithin 2021-08-16 02:20 am UTC (link)
	Everyone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

who_is_bucky
2021-08-16 02:23 am UTC (link)

Then you did the right thing.

...

My first kill was when I was older than you. It was during the war. I was a sniper and as much as we train to point and shoot, it's a totally different thing when you have that guy in your crosshairs.

He was just a kid. Probably around your age. Blond hair- green eyes. I know cause I went looking for his body after the battle.

You never forget it. And you don't let go of it. You just learn to live with it.

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	darknesswithin 2021-08-16 02:29 am UTC (link)
	He was my biological father. He used us as pawns, my mother as a pawn, her circle, my friends... They never look evil. Not at first. Every action has an equal opposite reaction. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	who_is_bucky 2021-08-16 02:35 am UTC (link)
	It gets a little easier. Especially when it's for a good cause. But taking a life changes you... I'm sorry, Diana. I wish you never had to do that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darknesswithin 2021-08-16 02:39 am UTC (link)
	So it's like mourning. Thanks Bucky. I really mean it. I've just been trying to... I don't know, figure all of this out. Everything's wrapped together. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	who_is_bucky 2021-08-16 03:12 am UTC (link)
	Wrapped together? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darknesswithin 2021-08-16 03:18 am UTC (link)
	I already told Stephen everything, but... Blackwell's death, my dad's death, the death of Cassie's mom, her grandma, Nick, the witch hunters... There's so much more that happened last year. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	who_is_bucky 2021-08-16 03:25 am UTC (link)
	All in a year? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darknesswithin 2021-08-16 03:28 am UTC (link)
	Just about. Dad died three months ago, the same day we killed Blackwell. I was pulled here three before I was pulled here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	who_is_bucky 2021-08-16 03:29 am UTC (link)
	That's a lot... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	darknesswithin 2021-08-16 03:30 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. (Reply to this) (Parent)