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Laura Moon ([info]spitandviolets) wrote in [info]mirage_rpg,
@ 2009-01-24 23:41:00

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Entry tags:arrival, complete, day 30, l lawliet, laura moon

Who: Laura and L
What: Arrival
When: Day 30, Sunset
Where: Forest's edge
Rating: PG-13 for adult implications in Laura's past
Status: Complete


Death hurt Laura. She was not talking about the act of dying; that had actually been exceptionally easy. Really, one moment her head had been in Robbie's lap, it occurred to her that oh my God, I'm going to die, and the whole nasty ordeal was over. She didn't even remember going to the hospital, though she knew that she did not die at the scene of the crash. She had waited, for some strange reason, until Wednesday morning. So, a more accurate statement would be that undeath hurt Laura. There was a constant, parching thirst in every cell of her body; there was a complete absence of heat in her frame. She had been such a warm person in life that she would murder for even a fraction of it. In a way, she had murdered for it. Blood, hitting her icy flesh, imbued her with a bit of warmth until it went cold. And in death she had learned that people were so easy to kill once you weren't so prejudiced about the whole thing. It was like they were taunting her as she was able to feel the blood pumping through the veins of the living. There was also the matter of decomposing. While she was not exactly dead, she was certainly not alive, and her body was subject to the laws of nature that affected any body. The maggots in her lungs created a nasty cough, and she felt things moving deep inside her now and then. Really, the whole mess was quite disgusting, and it was almost painful - if she could feel pain.

Death was not as painful as drinking from Urd's Spring had been. The Norns had given her the water than nourished the tree of life, and she honestly thought that she was dying again. It had frozen her insides cold, and it felt like liquid ice, if one could imagine that as anything other than water. Though she had thought it impossible, she had blacked out. When she had awoken, though, the side effects were remarkable. While the water had not restored her life, it had restored her death. Months had been shaved off of her decomposition and decay. For the first few hours, she had possessed breath, blood, and warmth. She was not alive, but she was less dead, and there was a certain mental clarity that had come to her. She knew where she must go, what she must do, and she left Ash Farm (as well as her poor Puppy, her only love) to fulfill her destiny.

Destiny, however, seemed to be wanting to throw another wrench in the works. As of late, Laura had taken to traveling under cover of the forest. While she looked, most times, like a sickly living person, she hated passing for alive. What she really wanted was to be alive. Her second largest desire was warmth, and she wasn't sure what she would do to find it. She had learned what being unfaithful to her husband could cause, but there wasn't much that could hurt her anymore. Karma was a bitch. The forest got denser as she traveled through it, which seemed odd to her as she should have been approaching a highway. She needed to hitchhike in order to get where she was going. An eerie feeling came over her as she walked. Faintly able to see the sky, she noted that it was getting lighter, not darker. Where was the storm that she had seen on the horizon? Why did it seem that the light was coming from the opposite direction? No stranger to strange events, she did her best to ignore these anomalies at first. The trees thinned, however, and she found that she was out of the forest much, much sooner than anticipated.

Before her, a ways off but easily visible, was a set of buildings that looked more at home in Indiana than West Virginia. This turn of events was wholly illogical. Why was there a log cabin? And why was it suddenly beautiful out? She thought she had been heading towards the eye of the storm, the site of the last battle. Where was this place? And if she had gotten turned around, where was her Puppy? Noticing that the sun was beating down on her from a low angle, warming the ice that was her flesh, she stepped back into the shade of the trees. Inconvenient. Laura preferred to avoid daylight almost entirely, and avoiding people was also a preference. She closed her eyes, reaching out, trying to sense what sort of population she was dealing with. Maybe this was one of those hippie communes from the sixties that had never gotten the memo that the Age of Aquarius was over. She felt them, and for a moment her ability to sense them was trying to sort itself out, but their lives washed over her, covered her like a blanket. Stuck between the proverbial rock and hard place, between being lost and being surrounded by an ocean of the living, was an ocean of sun, no matter how faint. Hopefully she'd have time to wait for darkness before deciding what to do. Lost in her thoughts, the typically alert Laura Moon was completely oblivious to the world around her. This was one of those moments when action was required, one of those places that she always hated to find herself.



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[info]meticulous_soul
2009-01-25 09:42 am UTC (link)
L was not far off; the sun was setting, and he was armed with star maps and a red light, prepared to watch the first stars rise in the east. He knew that it would be different from earth, that was obvious, but he wanted to see if he could locate a celestial pole here and attempt to determine their latitude. When things got rough, confusing, or illogical, L's solution was usually to get busy. He was not the type to fret; all the young man knew, for a fact, was that he was on a different planet, and that he would have to adjust his logic to fit this world's rules.

He'd learned some things, about the other inhabitants, mostly assorted facts that lacked coherency. He knew a few names, and congratulated himself on the fact that he had yet to reveal his. There was safety in secrecy and stupidity, and as long as he had the appearance of those things it was likely that no one would single him out or try to hurt him. He seldom spoke off the journal network, and stayed away from people because the rules of social interaction were far over L's head. He thought and communicated differently from other adults, in part due to his intelligence, but mostly because of his autistic tendencies. Though he was all of twenty-five years old, many placed him at up to ten years younger simply because of his childlike posture and mannerisms.

Hunched over the star chart, L tilted his head upward. He'd heard a sound nearby, soft footfalls, and could see a woman standing a short distance away from him. She appeared young, but in the growing dusk, L couldn't determine much more from her appearance.

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[info]spitandviolets
2009-01-25 11:58 pm UTC (link)
Laura's head snapped up and had she been in a more advanced state of decay probably would have snapped due to the violent jerk of her neck. She could feel it, like a light in the darkness. How had she been so careless as to miss it only moments before? There was a human being nearby; not just nearby but practically on top of her. His aura burned like a lantern in her mind, a thought that actually made her curious. Most people were faint, like flickering candle flames. Shadow burned with the intensity of a bonfire. This individual was fairly strong in life force, however, and she could not just ignore that such an alive individual nearby. People like that caught her attention. People like that had purpose, had motive, had drive, all of the things of which she'd been stripped.

Her eyes began to scan the area, and with little effort they fell upon the hunched figure. Interesting, she thought, to meet someone in the middle of nowhere who seemed to be stargazing. Maybe she wasn't really lost after all. She caught the fact that he had noticed her, so it seemed that there was no walking away. At least night was closing in. As much as she hated it, she could at least pass for a living person at night. Perhaps, with his help, she could figure out where she was and how she could get to where she needed to be. It was worth the interaction, though she really tended to avoid people, especially since that gas station job had fallen through. Bastards.

Laura reached into her purse and pulled out a package of clove cigarettes and a lighter. If she was lost, she'd have to ration them carefully. Though they didn't do much for her, it was a habit that reached beyond the grave - why stop now? What, was it going to kill her? Ha. She lit the black death-stick and put her supplies away. Moving slowly, cautiously, and stopping a few feet from him as not to get in his way, she took a long drag on the cigarette. She held the smoke inside of her, wishing that she felt something other than a distant pressure, then exhaled in a slow stream.

"What are you doing?" she asked, her voice flat and expressionless. The fair, dark haired woman didn't even sound bored or disinterested. Her tonal quality was blank, making a question sound very odd. It was hard to peg if she was interested or asking simply as a formality. For a stranger, though, her question was incredibly blunt and straightforward. There were no hellos, no how-do-you-dos.

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[info]meticulous_soul
2009-01-26 11:14 am UTC (link)
L had glanced quickly away, hoping that the woman would simply walk away. He was not skilled, with people in general, but it seemed like he was a special kind of clueless with women in particular. There were so many little things that could be so easily mistaken, so many possible pitfalls and missteps, that L tended to be extraordinarily wary of even attempting communication, at least of the casual kind. Subtle expressions, the art of encouraging or defensive body language, politeness versus sarcasm versus teasing versus the completely serious... all of this was lost on him.

That may be why he responded so well to Laura's direct question. There was no colloquial, wasted greeting to take too seriously ("How are you?" "...Well... not good. Actually, I'm hungry and lonely in a world where no one is taking care of me and the North Celestial pole is not making itself readily apparent. And you?"), and no frivolous, wasted small talk that L disliked so much. It was a question, to the point and straightforward.

"I am trying to establish our position relative to the surrounding stars and use that information to determine our position in the galaxy," he answered, making the answer both as simple and as complete as he was able to match Laura's style of addressing new people. He glanced up at her, both their pale faces dim in the deepening twilight. "Your cigarette smells like cloves... I hate cigarettes, but the cloves are not so bad. Do they in any way preserve your health?"

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[info]spitandviolets
2009-01-26 11:31 am UTC (link)
Fortunately for L, he had probably met his social match. Laura had been a wonderfully loving, caring, vibrant person. She had loved long conversations and fruitful silences. All of that had been stripped away. Now she just loved long conversations about nothing in particular. There were none of those easily mistaken cues from her. The dead girl was a blank slate as far as impressions went. If anyone thought anything of her, it was more likely than not that they had imposed their own meaning on her. It was an interesting phenomena, though she could still manipulate responses enough to get someone to think various and sundry things. At this time, however, there was no need for manipulation.

His response was baffling to her. She'd managed to graduate high school but had not gone much farther in the education system. She wasn't dumb, but she was not particularly intelligent at the same time. That was why she hated philosophical questions so much, and moral debate was just as bad. At least now that she was dead she had something to add to the questions of life, death, and the afterlife. First hand knowledge and experience was always a winner.

"I don't want to know our position in the galaxy. It would be easier to figure out where we are if we just had a GPS or a map of the United States. We can't be too far from West Virginia. I didn't walk that far or that fast." No questions. Just comments and answers, and blunt ones at that. She liked the way that he spoke, though. People weren't usually so direct. Maybe that was why she had felt his aura so strongly, had seen it so brightly in the darkness of the empty world. It was sad, in a way, people existing as flickers of light in between everything else. She couldn't remember if they knew that they were alone. Then again, he was looking towards the heavens. Many people tried that in a desperate attempt to prove that they weren't all by themselves. "For some, the idea of some other life existing somewhere in the universe is more comforting than existing in a world filled with people. It kills the loneliness."

Another long inhale was taken from her cigarette, and she held it, considering his comments about them. "You shouldn't like cigarettes. No one should. They're deadly. Then again, there are lots of things in the universe that can kill you, most of them unexpected." A pause, and she exhaled the rest of the smoke. "I don't think I really need to worry about my health. And I don't know what you mean about preserving it."

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[info]meticulous_soul
2009-01-26 03:39 pm UTC (link)
Tilting his head thoughtfully, L regarded her in his usual scrutinizing way. Either she was in denial, or she had no idea that she was now, inexplicably, on a different planet. Perhaps if she knew, she would feel differently about his fervent interest in figuring out where in the observable (or not?) universe they were.

"You are from Earth?" L asked, biting his lip and feeling unsure of how quickly the news should be broken to someone currently unaware. He decided that bluntness was the best policy. "Because... you can tell by looking... we are not on Earth, at this time." he pointed at the sky, making a right angle with his thumb and forefinger and closing one eye, looking at the first visible celestial bodies. They were a pair of softly winking planets, bright enough to see before the sky was completely dark. "And so... perhaps such thoughts are not wasted, concerning life elsewhere... because here it is, and here we are."

L had no way of knowing that the woman he was conversing with happened to be deceased. Therefore, her statement about her health wasn't entirely logical to him. There were only a few reasons, that a person would not care about her health. "Logically..." he said quietly, watching the smoke leave her lips, "such an attitude concerning your own well being could mean that you are either apathetic about life and indirectly suicidal by default, or depressed and merely saying so because you wish for someone to intervene and excercise control where you no longer can. Less likely, but still possible... if those statements are false... then you are either invincible, or... you are dead." he chewed his thumb, looking somewhat disquieted by his reasoning. Maybe he was eating too much sugar, and not getting enough sleep.

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[info]spitandviolets
2009-01-26 08:03 pm UTC (link)
"I am from Earth," Laura responded, looking down at him. Not wanting to feel that much taller than him, she seated herself on the ground. She paused a moment, allowing what he said about them not being on Earth to sink in. Well, this wasn't entirely a surprise. She'd been on the earth, under the earth, somewhere in between the cosmos and the earth, and now she wasn't on earth. While upsetting in the sense that it was frustrating, it wasn't horribly startling. Pulling her cigarette away from her lips, not taking a drag this time, she bit her lower lip gently. "Huh. Figures," was her only real response to this new knowledge.

"Well, if you're not where you're supposed to be, the only thing you can do is accept and make due with where you are." A pause. "You're already doing that." She motioned to the star charts with her cigarette, the burning tip making another, closer star in the setting night. "Where on the Earth do you come from? You must know it to ask me about it." She looked around. "When is this? I mean, what's the date and time here?"

The cigarette had burned all the way down to her fingers, but Laura didn't even notice or flinch. She sat there for a few moments, not doing much of anything. As she went to look down she noticed that it was at the end, and she promptly dashed it out. "You have listed all possible and logical options as far as I know. That means that one of your guesses has to be correct. Which one are you going to go with?"

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[info]meticulous_soul
2009-01-27 09:59 am UTC (link)
L couldn't help doing a double take, at Laura's calm response to what sounded horribly improbable to anyone who thought logically. He bit his thumb thoughtfully, watching as she took a seat nearby. Perhaps she was used to her world changing often, unlike L, whose physical world, at the very least, had been carefully controlled. Not that living in a world like this was much different.

"Yes... I am," he agreed, returning to the star charts and marking the two planets, along with a few surrounding stars that were beginning to appear. "I live my life the only way I am able; by logic. Earth's logic was my law, and if I am no longer on earth, I can't dwell on how that came to pass, but adjust my laws to agree with this planet's." L had been asked where on Earth he had come from by several other people, and had declined to answer with only the stubbornness a paranoid genius can accomplish. However, with this woman, he felt able to produce a more honest answer. "I moved around a great deal. I do not know, where I was originally from. You mentioned West Virginia; am I able to infer that that was your home? As for the date and time, well... I have seen 'Day 30' marked and referenced. That is all I know, and that it is the evening of my first day here."

L stared, momentarily struck dumb, at Laura's dangerously short cigarette. He had seen people smoke, many times... he knew that they always discarded the object before the hot part could get so close to their skin. That seemed to narrow the options down even more; did she not feel pain? It ruled out depression or apathy, since those could not numb a person physically or keep them from flinching. "It is still hard to say... but... I believe that there is a 98% chance that you are either invincible or dead, judging by your non-reaction to the cigarette burning down just now." L wished that there was more light; he dearly wanted to get a better look at the woman, by now.

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[info]spitandviolets
2009-01-27 01:21 pm UTC (link)
Laura noticed the changing of the world much more now that she was dead. Though she couldn't feel warmth, she could feel humidity, she could feel rain, and she could feel the toll that they took on her body. It was, in fact, a little too warm for her liking. Decomposition would begin occurring at a faster pace in a few days, which wouldn't be pleasant. She could almost feel that wiggling sensation starting up again in the bottom of her left lung. This time, it seemed, there would be no easy out. She'd continue decaying until she couldn't even pass for human. Then she'd have to isolate herself, make like the zombies of old. Uck. Zombie. She hated that word. The connotation was mean, nasty. Zombies liked brains. Laura never wanted to eat anything ever again.

"Do you realize how illogical Earth really is?" she asked in that dull, flat tone. "If you think that Earth is, was, logical, you're probably better off wherever it is that we are now. Earth is full of random events controlled by constantly prying and poking hands. No one is safe from the pull of fate, no matter where they are living at the moment." Her hands slid up and down her arms, trying to force some friction warmth into her icy skin. The setting sun was reducing the temperature, which was good for her bodily state, but the mental toll that being cold all the time was taking was staggering. Some days it was all that she could think about.

If Laura had known that he was feeling comfortable with her, more comfortable than with most people, she probably would have laughed one of those rare, sparkling, tinkling laughs. They didn't come often anymore, but when they did they made her seem almost alive. She was deceased. How could anyone be safe around a walking, talking corpse with superhuman feats of speed and strength? Then again, he was safe. Laura wasn't the kind of person to let bad things happen to people 1) if they didn't deserve it and 2) if she could prevent it. While she wasn't as prejudiced about killing and death anymore, she also realized that life was precious. Truthfully, she just wished that they'd notice it. People spent so much time being dark and nasty to each other that they forgot to see the good things. Her Puppy, for example, had lost the light...and it was mostly her fault.

"West Virginia?" she breathed out, eyes turning away from him, searching the horizon. She looked confused for a moment and slumped over, a hand stroking her cheek. "I remember... something... A farm? And there were long dinners and lots of family." Pausing, Laura rubbed her temple for a moment. Images flooded her mind. "No, that wasn't me." Sitting up again, she looked over at the stranger who didn't seem so strange anymore. "I don't know what it's like to not know where you're from. I don't know what it's like to move around a lot, either. I lived my whole life in Eagle Point, Indiana. That's in the United States. It's a small place, and there aren't many people who know or care about it." For someone who was talking about the place from which they had come, there was an awful lack of affection or sentimentality. Her manner of speaking was like a laundry list, a distant and forgotten one. "The farthest I ever went was Anaheim, and that was only for a weekend convention." The faintest hint of a smile touched at her lips. "I was a travel agent, and I never went anywhere."

She was unphased by his deduction. "98% is pretty high," she acknowledged, giving a little nod of her head. "Isn't it possible that I just have nerve damage?" Laura wasn't in the habit of lying. There was no point anymore. Only The Living had secrets. The Dead had only truths. Still, she was enjoying his company on some level. He didn't have high expectations for social interaction, and she liked that. Interacting with people was hard. The fact that it was dark also helped; they usually got caught up on her appearance in the light. On her best days, Laura looked unwell.

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[info]meticulous_soul
2009-01-27 11:22 pm UTC (link)
L leaned forward worriedly when Laura's hand flew to her temple and she slumped forward slightly. He reached out a hand to steady her, touching her arm... and long before it occurred to him that her arm was ice-cold, he realized that he was touching someone. It was a gesture he never initiated, and despised when someone else did and touched him, and it was for that reason that he recoiled suddenly.

Of course... retrospective observation nudged him, and then he realized that, yes, she was in fact icy cold. L associated one of his hypotheses, invincibility, with life and warmth and continuing energy, improbable as it was to be impervious to harm. On the other hand... coolness could only be associated with one thing, if he was going to follow that line of reasoning. He was distracted by his thoughts on the matter, only able to half-hear Laura's half-hearted history.

L understood that he was typically very nervous and uneasy around people. Though Laura would doubtless find it strange, one reason L felt more comfortable interacting with her was because she was deceased. Even before he had consciously reasoned it all out... it was as simple as knowing that the living have nothing to fear from the dead. L was not afraid near Laura, even of touching, and therefore...

"How... Do you move around like that... if you are dead?" L asked.

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[info]spitandviolets
2009-01-27 11:59 pm UTC (link)
The touch almost startled her, if she really was startled by anything. He didn't seem the type that went around comforting people. It was probable that he was too busy doing something logical, not that it was a bad thing. She wasn't very intimate anymore, though it wasn't for lack of want. She wanted to touch people, wanted their warmth. She'd been too lazy to pull away from him. She sat there as he touched her arm. It was a kind gesture, one of the few she'd experienced since passing. Most people didn't want to touch her, especially if she had that nasty cough going. When she felt his hand touch her icy flesh, it was as if he had seared her. She sighed contentedly, trying to lean towards him more, but found that he wasn't there. That wasn't wholly surprising, was it?

Looking up at him, she studied his face. He didn't look disgusted. The curiosity was a bit more interesting. A shade of a smile spread across her lips, and she studied him carefully. Most people got nervous. Had he actually seemed to relax?

"Huh. I guess you figured it out. Looks like I'm going to have to kill you now." She paused, smirking. "Just kidding." A shrug and she reached into her shirt, pulling out a shimmering golden coin on a chain. "Magic," she responded, motioning to the coin. "I can't take it off, I won't let anyone take it off. It was given to me, and without it I will go back to lying in the grave. Or, at least, die wherever I happen to be."

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[info]meticulous_soul
2009-01-28 12:36 am UTC (link)
L was very interested indeed, especially since it had been confirmed that he was correct in his hypothesis. The newcomer was, in fact, a dead woman who walked and talked. To L's intrigue and relief, she did not seem to be a ghoul or zombie with malicious hunger of some sort, though she seemed to be missing something integral to human nature. It was, perhaps, similar to what L himself was missing.

Sadly, L was very poor at distinguishing teasing from serious remarks or threats. When Laura said, with an apparently straight face, that she would have to do away with him, he paled to a ghastly shade of grey and skittered backward. Clearly, he was someone who was used to fearing for his life, or had been doing too much of it lately, at the very least. When it became apparent that she certainly wasn't serious, L relaxed and drew closer again, watching her take out the coin and explain its ability to keep her among the living.

He should have been surprised, or cynical... but L trusted his senses and his intuition, and both had shown him stranger things today and in recent memory. At any rate, it made the woman that much more interesting to him, but something was still the matter. "Ah... I do not know your name. What would be all right, for me to call you?"

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[info]spitandviolets
2009-01-28 01:02 am UTC (link)
Watching him flinch and move away, Laura felt something akin to compassion. What would make someone so frightened? She hadn't even moved a muscle. Why would he think that she was serious about killing him? Then again, some found it difficult to distinguish truth from humor. She thought she'd been showing a great deal of emotion compared to her normal range. Maybe it was less obvious than she'd thought it to be. Her brows furrowed and she studied him. Was he the sort of person who needed protection? She couldn't figure out why. He was just a person. Extraordinarily intelligent, yes, but he didn't seem to have any other remarkable traits.

"I'm not going to hurt you," she said, gazing into his face. "True, I'm not going to hide the fact that I am responsible for at least four deaths, but two of them were accidents and two of them were to save someone that I swore I would protect. I don't kill people for fun. I won't make jokes like that again if they offend you. It's hard for me to remember what offends human beings."

Her fingers stroked the coin for a few moments before she put it back into her shirt. It was never good to advertise something like that. People liked taking shiny things that didn't belong to them. That would be a disaster for her. "My name was Laura Moon," she replied. "I suppose I still go by that. I wouldn't know what else to answer to." She shrugged, leaning back on her hands. "What do you like to be called? Or are you one of those people who would rather not say? I'm not sure how comfortable humans feel about letting people that they're trapped someplace strange with know about them."

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[info]meticulous_soul
2009-01-28 07:00 pm UTC (link)
L held very still, crouching on the ground and setting his long hands on top of his knees. He held eye contact with Laura for a few seconds before his eyes flickered away and had to stare at a point just over her shoulder. "I know that you will not hurt me," he said after a moment, in a calm voice. "You have no reason to, do you? It is just that I take things very seriously... not that I am offended, or something of that sort." his teeth scraped gently against the callouses skin of his thumb. "I don't get things like teasing, and so I am not like most humans. I am a poor example of typical humanity to measure against, actually."

Her name caught L slightly off guard. Laura was not the first "Moon" he had known. 月. Light. Friend, adversary, tonic, poison, like mind, Judas... so many words came to mind when L thought of him. It made his head hurt, to think that he belonged back on earth with the people who were dedicated to catching a horrible mass murderer. "I like your name," he said quietly. "I would tell you mine, but it seems that I do not have one, here. In a way it is wonderfully liberating."

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[info]spitandviolets
2009-01-28 09:36 pm UTC (link)
"Poor example? No, you're not a poor example," Laura started, leaning forward a bit to look down at him. Not wanting to stay at her higher vantage point, the dark haired woman took a seat on the ground only a few feet away from him. She tilted her head and her neck cracked. "You are not like most humans, I will give you that. You're a better example of humanity than most humans. Your light, when I first noticed you, it was different somehow. You don't flicker like a sad, withering candle in the emptiness of space and time. Your light is much, much brighter. It burns like a lantern. It isn't a bonfire, like my Puppy's light was to me on Earth, but it's different. You're not poor or typical. You're somehow extraordinary." She paused, fingers stroking over the grass. Its light brush against her skin was distant, as if it were a thousand miles away. "Evident, obviously, in the fact that you haven't run from me. The fact that I'm dead but sitting here talking to you doesn't seem to bother you. I can't imagine what you're thinking or feeling. I won't even pretend to. I don't really remember what being human is like. Don't worry so much what I think about you or your humanity. It doesn't matter to me. You're only the second person to sit down and have a real conversation with me in the... well, it's about nine months, I guess, that I've been undead."

Some would think that the speech was meant to be inspirational. Anyone who got to know Laura better knew that she wasn't really capable of being a morale booster. She spoke truths, hard and brutal. Sometimes they were interpreted as cruel and unusual, while others they came across as compliments. Whatever she said, it was as much fact to her as the idea that she was not a living person.

Laura tried to catch his gaze again. "If I have a name here, you certainly do." Her head turned to rest her chin on her palm. "I go by what I was called in life. Couldn't you go by what you were called on Earth? If you don't like that one, you could pick something else. It's going to be difficult for me to find you at any given moment if I don't know who to look for. Appearance and familiarity are only small factors. I still have to pick you out of a void. Having a name to associate with a face makes the process easier. The more I know about someone, the easier it is to find them. That's how I always knew what Puppy was doing."

She leaned back on her hands, realizing that she was staring into his face. Being dead, Laura had a bit of a staring problem. She rarely remembered to blink, and that bothered people immensely. "Why do you like my name? There isn't much to a name. It's just a label. It doesn't mean much unless you manage to make your name your identity. Obviously I didn't manage to do that. My name doesn't mean much to me anymore." She fell silent, somehow out of things to say. That was the longest winded she'd been since she'd explained to Shadow how she had died.

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[info]meticulous_soul
2009-01-29 07:43 pm UTC (link)
L jumped slightly on hearing Laura's neck crack; he was slightly skittish already, and while hearing a living person's neck crack wasn't so bad, he worried about Laura's neck. Could it come... detached... if she... he decided right away to avoid that train of thought if he could. Which, of course, meant that he'd be boarding it again shortly. L was by no means an especially empathetic person; in fact, he was somewhat lacking, when it came to that aspect of relating to others. "Mechanical" and "robotic" were words that were attributed often to him, and for good reason. But he couldn't deny that there was something very sad, about the fact that Laura was so often alone. Every living creature on earth died alone... but certainly death itself should not be so lonely. Everyone died, after all. It did interest him that she said she was able to "see" people a certain way, almost like an aura reader... and it put him in a pensive mood, to think that his "light" burned more intensely than most people's. He would have guessed the opposite, since he felt so often tired and faded.

"My name in life... it was so seldom used I have almost forgotten it, but..." he made a right angle with his thumb and forefinger, staring. Could it do any harm, to say so here in a world where it meant nothing? "They called me L," he sighed, feeling like he'd suddenly been given form and meaning, as if he'd been a ghost a moment before and was now composed of flesh and blood and soul. Truly... having no name was freeing, but only in the same way death was freeing. Laura would probably know something about that. Which was why she was the only person here, so far, who had something to call him by. "Please do not tell anyone else, Laura Moon."

L, too, stared, just not into other eyes. In many ways, he and Laura resembled each other, though L looked more like someone consumptively ill than a walking corpse. Now that his eyes had adjusted better to the dark, he was able to get a better look at Laura. Her appearance wasn't horrid... in fact, during life, she must have been quite pretty. Bone structure didn't change in death, not immediately, anyway... "I guess I like your name because it reminds me of someone I found very interesting," he replied absentmindedly, glancing up and seeing no real moon to observe. He wondered if this planet had one, or more. "A name is an identity... it means a lot, to some people. What was your dog's name?" L did not realize... he did not understand, that "Puppy" was a nickname for Laura's husband and not a literal pet name.

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[info]spitandviolets
2009-01-30 01:34 am UTC (link)
L was actually interesting to her. He was so different from normal people, and he seemed to see the world much as she did. For a moment, Laura tried to picture him as dead. Somewhere inside of her, where that living, beating heart and soul still resided, the thought was too sad. In what world could someone like L die? He was a thinker, he was rational, he was worth something. People like herself died all the time. They were cannon fodder, people who hadn't actually lived for a single moment. People like him were worth something. They didn't die in car accidents that could have been avoided if only common sense had and booze hadn't played a role.

"Your name in life?" she echoed, arching a brow at him in the dark. "You make it sound like you're like me. You're alive. That I'm sure of," she paused, trying to commit the name to her sometimes floating memory. "L." It was simple enough, but she liked it. It had a certain ring to it. "If you told me again that you didn't have a name, I was going to call you Julian. Wasn't far off, was I?" Leaning forward, she kept staring at him. "I won't tell anyone. If there is anyone that you can give a secret to and expect it to be kept, it's the dead. We only care about secrets and truths. They're all we keep."

If someone asked Laura, she would tell you that death was an incredibly liberating experience, mainly because people didn't expect anything out of you anymore. Anything you did was amazing. There was no more disappointing your family, no more letting the boss down at work. People didn't dare speak ill of you. Her mother, who had never approved of a single thing that she'd ever done, since she wasn't her older sister, actually said kind things about her. She lamented not having any grandchildren from Laura. It was sad that people didn't like you in life as much as they did in death. Contradictorily, people didn't want you around when you were dead. Shadow had been cold at best every time she'd showed up to see him. The closest they'd been was in that graveyard in the middle of nowhere. It seemed so long ago, but it really wasn't. Time didn't mean anything anymore. It was hard for time not to matter.

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[info]spitandviolets
2009-01-30 01:34 am UTC (link)
She wondered what he saw when he looked at her. The people in Florida had seen another night-shift freak, one that probably had lung cancer from the amount of cigarettes that she smoked and the nasty cough that she had possessed at that time. Most people weren't like L; they didn't consider the fact that she must have been striking before death touched her flesh, making her icy, and painting its dark circles under her eyes. In fact, Laura was still exceptionally good looking. She cared about her appearance. She still wore makeup, still bothered to do her hair, still bought nice clothes. She brushed her teeth frequently but the smell of mothballs wouldn't go away. That was why she smoked cloves. The heady cigarettes really knew how to cover up odd smells, and it hung to her clothes and mixed with her perfume. It was Laura's smell, and even when it mixed with decay it wasn't fully terrible.

"Someone special," she said, watching his mouth as she spoke. "I had someone special. My Puppy was special to me. Puppy's name was Shadow, but he wasn't a dog." It was odd to talk about Shadow in the past tense, but she had seen him dying. He didn't have long. "He was my husband, but he was too good to me and for me, so he became my widower." She turned away from L, looking up at the sky that he was studying. What was he looking for? "Shadow Moon went to prison for me, and I murdered his spirit in return. I did the only thing in the world that can kill a man and make him a zombie. A veritable, walking, talking zombie. The truth is that I can't even feel remorse for it. It's not a regret. If I had lived, I could regret it. Now, the circumstances of my death are simply fact. I was a terrible person no matter how much I told myself that I wasn't. I loved him, but I had a horrible way of showing it. I was human; I gave in to temptation. I paid the price, and so did he. I suppose, since he's a widower, and the vows said 'til death do us part, that he's single now, and I'm single now. Funny how you never think about that when you're alive. We never think about who will love us once we're dead, and who we'll date and marry in the afterlife since lifelong contracts are non-binding." Though she was speaking about someone that she seemingly loved, her voice was still cold. It was as if she was reading from a script, a bad actress auditioning for a soap opera.

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[info]meticulous_soul
2009-01-30 09:15 am UTC (link)
All things considered , L had a different personal for the people who lived and the people who had not died. He hunted down and caught people who lived. Drug lords, prostitution rings, swindlers... murderers who were greedy and took other lives because theirs was not enough. There was much about living that L had never experienced, and when he referred to the time in "life", he meant that he had once had a real name, with more than one letter. He had once been a child with a mother, and she had been God to him, and they had cared for each other and been made real by their unconditional acceptance of each other. After her death and his near-death, L had become a different person, been utilized for different things, and entered an era so different from his life as a real child that he had considered it something else. It was where living stopped, and purpose, annonymity, and being alone without loneliness had begun. And it was all too easy for him, to imagine himself dead. He had come so close. "Julian..." he said softly, with a small, rarely used smile. He never would have thought that he could be called by anything other than his code name. Connecting his gaze with hers for a brief moment, L thanked Laura for her promise.

Most people assumed that, distant as L was from emotions and understanding others, he would have no interest in stories about love and devotion. The opposite was true; like many curious people, L was captivated by what he had yet to fully comprehend, and every word Laura spoke was absorbed attentively by the young man. He had never been married, or even in love... in fact, he couldn't recall ever having been attracted to anyone. It wasn't that he was neutral in gender identity, but more that his sexuality had yet to develop beyond a child's. L was, in carnal matters, at least, completely innocent. Therefore, he wasn't exactly sure what to make of Laura's relationship with her husband. "I do not understand... Temptation. Or how his spirit could die because of you," he admitted. "But you are not a bad person."



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[info]spitandviolets
2009-01-30 02:14 pm UTC (link)
"Julian might be a stupid name. I don't know why it comes to mind. I have... trouble... sometimes. Thoughts, in my head, and I don't quite know where they come from."

Laura, unfortunately for him, was dead, and the dead were not interested in holding back the truth, nor were the dead interested in putting things delicately. Death made you blunt, and that was all there was to it. Your story was a closed book, and nothing was too personal to tell anymore. It also took away your memories of innocence and the unknown. To her, the idea of someone not knowing carnal pleasures, not understanding temptation was not an option. Laura knew for a fact that there was a higher purpose, something greater. She couldn't remember what it was, but it was there, and she had seen it. Everything was fact, hard, cold, and important.

"I'm not a bad person," she echoed, picking at her fingernails. She had to be careful; if she broke one, it wasn't going to grow back. Not really. They may have gotten a little bit longer due to tightening of the skin, but that was about it. "I am not a bad person because I don't qualify as a person anymore, L. If I were a person, I would count as bad. I didn't have many wicked ways when I was alive, but when I messed up, I really messed up."

"You must understand that no one killed me," she began, telling another one of those from-the-script stories of hers. "My death was my own doing, as much a suicide as there could be. Karma, really. We all pay for our crimes." It felt odd to talk about her death. She had only told Shadow about it, and it had broken his heart. He had told her he didn't want to hear about that kind of thing. She had felt bad that she didn't realize he wouldn't want to know the gory details. "My husband was the driver for a bank robbery that I encouraged him to take part in. We lived small, simple lives. We wanted money, like everyone else, and we both knew that we'd never have much the way we were going. It seemed fine then. He wasn't involved. He was just the driver. Shadow ended up taking the fall for everything because he punched one of the robbers. The guy was trying to take a larger share of the profit. Both he and his partner gave up Shadow for easier deals. Neither of them, though, know where the money is. No one ever will without me."

Her voice trailed off for a moment. Laura could see the trunk as clear as daylight. Both she and Shadow were dead, and it was still buried. No one would ever have that money. All of this, her life and death, really had been for nothing.

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[info]spitandviolets
2009-01-30 02:14 pm UTC (link)
"My husband was sentenced to six years. My best friend's husband, Robbie Burton, was really great to me. He looked after me, made sure that I was getting along okay. He was a great friend to Shadow, and a great friend to me. We started sleeping together thirteen months after Shadow went away. It went on for two years. Audrey Burton was my best friend. We spoke every day. I still remember how it felt to hold back my emotions, my guilt and my sorrow, every time I was talking to her. She never suspected a thing. The four of us were best friends. Why would she? Robbie and I had sex in just about every room in the house that I lived in and on every surface. We did not on the bed. It made me think of Shadow too much. That was his. That was where he belonged, and Robbie wasn't Shadow. I loved Shadow; I did not feel anything for Robbie.

"We were in the front seat of his car when we died. It was a few days before Shadow was supposed to be coming home. Sentenced to six years and he only served three. That's my Puppy. Out on good behavior. I should've known. I was supposed to be telling Robbie that it was over, but I was drunk, and I wanted him just one last time. It's all hazy from there. The last thing I remember was a truck going through the car and over my body. I spent a moment thinking that I was going to die, and I remember waiting until I got to the hospital to actually pass away. It just seemed more polite, you know, dying in a hospital instead of bloodied on the side of the highway. Then there was nothing. Just emptiness. I wasn't scared. Death is incredibly dispassionate."

Laura reached out, slowly, as not to scare him, and her hand touched his arm lightly. She couldn't resist. "I'm cold, L. I'm so cold. I either feel the cold all the time or not at all. But I can't feel it as cold. I feel it as a deep, empty nothingness. I'm scared of nothingness. Only people make me warm." It was the closest to emotion that Laura Moon seemed to have. Her fingers brushed his skin lightly before withdrawing her touch. She felt bad. Human beings didn't like the icy clamminess that she bestowed upon them with her touch.

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[info]meticulous_soul
2009-01-30 03:28 pm UTC (link)
"Julian is not a stupid name. It is just not mine," L said, his dark eyes liquid in the growing dusk. "Just as Simone and Lucy are not yours. As for thoughts..." he chewed his thumbnail, thoughtlessly, since he knew that it would grow back, "I suppose they occur to everyone, often unbidden."

Hearing the word "suicide" struck a sensitive chord for L; his own mother had committed it, with the decisive control her life had lacked. The rain, and sleet, and ice... the cassette tape of church bells that had soothed him as a restless toddler in the car that night, and then the sharp turn, the crash, the plunge... he'd lived, and she'd died. One of the last things L had contemplated, before he'd been whisked off to this new world, was suicide. He'd stood outside in his shirtsleeves, high above the city that was far from home (but closer to heaven), feeling the November rain turn his skin cold. He had dreamt of bells the night before, and felt a sense of dread. Of knowing that the end was near, and wishing, like his mother, to control it. A few steps towards the edge of the building, and over... but Light had shown up before any of it was a conscious intention, and then he had been drawn to Mirage without warning. He knew enough, to know that not all crimes were paid for, and that not all victims were avenged. It sounded to him like Laura's situation was a bit of both. While he cared little for money, he knew that it corrupted good people... and so the meaning of "temptation" in Laura's context became a bit more clear.

Then, hearing about Robbie... another person, like Shadow, who had died but did not exist as Laura did. A car crash, and alcohol... and the etiquette of dying. His mother had not considered such a thing, nor had he before being brought here. It just seemed as though a person's body was not their problem anymore, once dead, though Laura clearly refuted that misconception. Uncertain of exactly what to say, following Laura's scripted-but-true story, L bit his lip. "You look very good, for having been run over by a truck," he ventured earnestly.

L knew that Laura would touch him before she actually did, anxwas therefore able to keep from flinching. It was indeed cold, but as the living expected nothing from the dead, Laura's touch demanded nothing from L. He shivered slightly, wondering how to proceed. Would Laura's body hold up to an embrace? Her fingertips against his sensitive forearm were like ice... But they felt just like fingertips, otherwise."So... the dead can fear things..." he mused aloud, after she withdrew. "I would not have thought."

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[info]spitandviolets
2009-02-01 12:00 am UTC (link)
Laura smiled. She actually smiled. She hadn't remembered feeling that light in a long time, and the sight was something to look at. When her lips curved upwards like that, Laura actually looked like she could really pass as living. There was something about her blank, cold expression that didn't fit her face. L's comment, that she looked very good for having been run over by a truck, was what had done it. Laura hadn't stopped to think about that. She hadn't been grateful for it until just this moment.

"You know, I never stopped to think about that before. I wasn't exactly run over by a truck. I'm not actually certain what happened to kill me. I think my neck may have been snapped by the drive shaft, or maybe I just had massive internal wounds. I mean, I was almost laying down in the front seat. Robbie's knee probably came up and did some damage. Maybe my head got crushed by the steering wheel. I wish, now, that I'd gone to look up my own death certificate and autopsy report. I'd love to know my cause of death. But I do look pretty good, don't I? I mean, I haven't always looked this good. I'm sure part of it is the reconstruction work that funeral homes seem to be able to do these days. Maybe parts of me are metal, and I just don't know it. I all feel the same: as I said, I feel cold. I do decay, and I am not capable of really healing from being damaged. You see, I got to drink from Urd's spring just before I was taken here. It seems to... well, restored me to the point that I was at when I was freshly dead. You'd probably not be so kind with your words if you saw me after nine months of walking around. The cough alone, and the wriggling feeling in my lung, is enough to put anybody off."

Her mood slipped a bit when he made his next comment, however, and when she saw his reaction. Well, she couldn't say that she hadn't, somewhere inside, expected it. People didn't like to be cold. Nobody wanted to be touched by her. Curling into herself a bit, rubbing her arms still with her own hands, she felt bad about the shiver. Was it that horrible? At least she was able to realize that she was cold. It was a terrible curse, though, being wholly unable to feel warmth other than that of human beings. Her mind flicked back to killing those two men. Wood and Stone, perhaps? Was that their names? She couldn't remember exactly.

"The dead," she chuckled, nodding slowly. She didn't know why hearing him call her that made her feel odd. Maybe, just for a moment, she had felt more like a person than a corpse. "I suppose it is strange, the idea that I'm afraid of something. Maybe afraid is the wrong word. Or maybe it's just one of the things that I can almost feel. Maybe it's that it unsettles me, the idea of nothingness. Perhaps fear is too strong a word."

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[info]meticulous_soul
2009-02-01 12:43 am UTC (link)
L rather liked faces; eyes put him off, but the way the other features worked together... He could see and appreciate Laura's smile, for its beauty and genuinity, and he couldn't help but return it. Even to him, it was a natural social response. Simple reciprocity, mimicking and returning what was given to you.

Wouldn't everybody like to know their cause of death? Well... L supposed that the realists would, anyway. Some might have preferred the faithful, humble, human approach, simply letting fate guide them to the grave. He listened to Laura's frank talk of how it might have happened, not inferring the connotations of her head in Robbie's lap because L was a detective, and he discarded what was not important. His reception of the tale was neutral; he had heard grisly things, in his time, and could be considered a study of contrasts. Understanding violence and evil deeds while remaining innocent to the realities and perversions of sexuality, he was a wise child and an ignorant man. "You look very good," he agreed readily. "I would not guess that you had been dead for long at all... Perhaps a week, at most... maybe even a few days... Is Urd a type of preservative?" unaware of the true meaning that held for Laura, he found the whole process somewhat fascinating.

He was able to notice, even with his somewhat blunt understanding of emotions, that Laura seemed crestfallen after he involuntarily shivered. It struck L as bitterly, ironically funny that he was as inept with someone like Laura as he was with the typical living person. Was shivering at the touch of a contact-lonely corpse considered some sort of faux pas? It was both absurd and made perfect sense. Who would not feel bad, if their touch was received so shudderingly? "It is not you..." L was quick to tell her. "I am not used to being touched by anyone. It is a very strong sense... touch... and it can be too much, at times. When I am thinking very deeply, I am easily overwhelmed with sensory stimuli." it was not an apology; L was not the type, to apologize. But it was an explanation, and hopefully one that Laura would accept.

"No... afraid is apt... I am afraid of nothingness. It is why... it is why I am here tonight, observing and searching for life and meaning in the coldest places in the universe. The spaces between stars are as cold as they look," he signed quietly. "It makes the stars mean more, perhaps, that they can sustain such heat and power in that darkness..." he paused thoughtfully. "Though... unsettling is a good word, too."

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[info]spitandviolets
2009-02-01 10:44 am UTC (link)
"A preservative," she echoed, nodding, carefully considering the question. "Do you know anything about Norse mythology, L?" This was going to be difficult to explain. It seemed that in L's world, full of logic and rational thinking, there was little room for religion or magic. For a long time there had been no room for such things in Laura's world as well. Now she knew for certain, and now she believed. "In said mythology, there are three figures, the Norns, that spin the fates of men. Urd, the oldest, watches over fate and the past. Verdandi, the middle child, represents the present. Skuld, the youngest, represents the future and debt. These three women decide the fates of all of the creatures on the earth, not just of men. Not even gods can go against their power. In addition, they live by the Well of Urd and they tend to the World Tree, the ash known as Yggdrasill. It is their job to keep the world tree from rotting. These three powerful beings currently reside in West Virginia on Ash Farm, where my husband died hanging from the tree on that property."

"It seems that the Norns who live in West Virginia still have access to the Well of Fate. When I went to find Shadow for that last time, I was in pretty bad shape. Spending time in the South was not the best decision that I could have made. It seems that heat and humidity advance the rate of decay on a body. Let us simply agree to say that I was not in a very good condition, and the constant thirst that I experience was ruling me. I went into the house where the Norns lived, and they gave me a drink of the sweetest water in the world. It was like drinking liquid ice, as absurd as that sounds, because it froze my insides and rid me of all my rot and ailments. Temporarily, I became less dead. I had warmth, I could bleed, I had breath. As it's the water of the past, it did not provide life, but it reversed time so that I was freshly dead instead of nine months deceased." Looking up at the sky, Laura shrugged. "It would be nice to have that kind of thing around all of the time. I don't think I'm going to get that lucky, though. The Norns are in West Virginia, not here. I may look good to you now, but I apologize for you having to watch my slow, disgusting decline."

Folding her hands into each other, Laura nodded, studying the sky. "You don't have to explain. It's fine. I get carried away sometimes. I don't think that you humans realize how warm you are. You're a constant 98.6. I'm subject to room temperature. Now I know how the butter dish at home used to feel." Her eyes traveled down to him. "Ironic, though, that you and I should meet. One of us can't stand touch because it's too strong, too overwhelming, too powerful. One of us can't feel most touches at all. Though I suppose that's not the only way that you and I are polar opposites. Though it's good to know that you're thinking very deeply. I didn't peg you as shallow, but some people don't bother to think critically for their whole lives.

"We do have a fear of nothingness in common, so maybe we're not that different. You found what you're looking for, maybe if it is a bit closer. I know for a fact that there is life and meaning in the universe. There is a higher power. I am certain of that fact. I can also tell you that, tonight, you found out that there is also death, and undeath, and a lack of meaning in some places. The universe is a funny thing. I wish that you could see what I see. To me, the stars aren't interesting. To me, humans are the heat and power in the cold, empty, darkness."

Rising to her feet, Laura nodded towards the resort. "Since I can't go home, primarily because I'm dead, secondarily because I'm on a planet that is not Earth, should we head in? I'm comfortable with living outside, but I can't picture you doing that. Maybe I can find someplace to stay. Not like anyone here knew me when I was alive."

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[info]meticulous_soul
2009-02-01 12:52 pm UTC (link)
L nodded, resting his chin on his knees as Laura gave him a thorough rundown of the three Norns. Like many academically attentive people, he knew something of religion and mythology, but they were, along with other "humanities", not particularly thrilling topics to him. Life seemed too short to live on faith and fiction, and as theories emerged with scientific enlightenment, he accepted them dutifully and continued to crunch numbers and solve international puzzles. To hear Laura speak of the "myths" with such conviction, however, was different even from listening to the staunchest religious zealots. The thing was... up until extremely recently, L had tossed aside the supernatural due to lack of convincing evidence, but he had witnessed the existence of a Shinigami, a notebook with the power to kill humans, and now he was engaging in conversation with a woman whose time had technically expired. A logical person, believing his senses and experience, had no reason to doubt Laura's story. "Perhaps... if that water helps... some might be present on this planet. Or brought here," he suggested hopefully. Her advance apology for decaying in L's presence was not commented on; L literally had no response. Not a single book or website on social skills (he had read many) mentioned such a delicate situation. When it came right down to it, L didn't want Laura to decay whether he had to witness it or not, and his unconscious mind had already begun to suggest creative methods of slowing degeneration. "The planet provides for others in special circumstances, after all."

For a moment, L tried to imagine Laura as melting and softening in a butter dish. It was an unpleasant image, one that would put him definitively off butter for the next month. It also made him want to refridgerate Laura, naturally. "I am trying to overcome that tendency of mine," L said, shifting and plucking distractedly at the white cotton of his shirt. "When I was small, it was much worse. But humans are social creatures, and touching is something we are supposed to do, so... I'm trying to learn to enjoy it, and so long as it is not unexpected, it has reached a point where it is not so bad." he raised one shoulder self-consciously, and wondered what Laura might mean by "polar opposites." One of them had a pulse, and the other didn't, it was true... and humans seemed to be L's dark places while they were Laura's stars. He did wish, truly, that he could see what Laura did... and then wondered if it was wise, to wish such a thing.

"It seems to be a fairly common trend, that if you are here, you have a place to stay," L said, standing and folding his star charts. "There are many from different worlds. I knew no one on arriving, and it is likely that you won't meet anyone familiar, either, but... I like your company. So please don't feel alone, OK?" Steeling his nerves, L reached for Laura's cold hand. It took him a moment, for his mind to adjust to the sensation of being in contact to that extent with someone, but he was OK. He'd be all right. He'd done much, in his life as L, and it was not an insurmountable feat for him to successfully survive contact of a physical nature for a short walk back to the resort. Laura would not hurt him; he knew this, now, and it was a feeling he could get used to.

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[info]spitandviolets
2009-02-01 04:30 pm UTC (link)
Laura nodded and shrugged a little. "Norn water on this planet? I wouldn't say it's impossible, but it's highly unlikely. If this planet is that powerful we all have something to fear. A planet that can replicate the power of gods? Why? How? I can't imagine it being able to provide for so special a circumstance, even if it is able to help others who have special requirements."

Though he didn't know what to say in response to her apology for decaying, she still felt that the apology needed to be made. Laura had been a very polite, considerate person in life. She didn't like making things inconvenient for anybody. The fact that her death had inconvenienced Shadow still sent a pang through the very core of her. He had intended on coming home to a party, or at least to her. He'd come home to her, but she wasn't there.

"Though I am no longer human, I suppose there are some things that I have yet to leave behind. I dislike the judgment of others, and I like to touch people. They're for different reasons, though, so maybe humans really are just a subspecies of whatever it is that I've become." Her eyes narrowed as she looked at the ground. "I really, really dislike being called a zombie." She paused, grumbling inside about never having acquired a taste for brains. "You shouldn't need to overcome things simply because it's what humans do, though. You should want to do it because it's what you want. If you're not a very physical person and you're okay with it then leave yourself well enough alone. You should always do your best to be the best representation of yourse-"

Her voice stopped when he took her hand. It may not have been the most intimate embrace that she'd ever experienced, but his reaching out to take her hand was the first voluntary physical act she'd experienced in a long time. Not wanting to frighten him, Laura tensed her grip slightly, her fingertips lightly giving his hand a squeeze. It was black out, but Laura could see just fine. He looked uncomfortable. Still, if he was trying to overcome his... discomfort with physicality, who was she to deny him the chance? She might be good practice for a real person.

In that moment she also realized that it would be easy for L to be the target of less savory individuals. He was delicate, that much she could see, and there were cruel predators in every world, no matter what. Laura was not going to hurt him, nor would she allow anyone else to do it. When he was standing next to her, though he still had a slight slouch to him, he was taller than she was, and that was slightly surprising. He had seemed so small when he was sitting down. The notion that she could snap his neck with her bare hands, one handed if she wanted to, really bothered her. Humans were so delicate, and this one was exceptionally so. How could the universe, with all of its gods, allow a monster like herself to walk among them?

"I feel alone, L," she said, looking ahead as they walked. Her eyes were watching for anything dangerous. Not even a stump or a rock in his way would be allowed to hurt him. "I'm the only being I know who's died and is still walking around. There's not a one, other than Jesus, who's a god so it doesn't really count, that I can name. Alone is a natural state for someone like me." Shrugging, she bit her lower lip. People here would notice that she looked unwell, but she could go anywhere. There was no husband to protect or former family and friends and acquaintances to hide from. "Lonely, though, that would be a little bit more difficult. I cannot name anyone besides me who's died and come back, but I can name somebody who likes my company. That seems better than finding someone familiar who doesn't even want me around."

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[info]meticulous_soul
2009-02-02 06:12 pm UTC (link)
"If it is providing for others, it should provide for you. That is just logic," L said, after a moment of thought. "After what I have seen today, with the effort and care that is taken to see to individual needs, I do not think that you would be brought here and allowed to..." he paused, wondering how to put it. Decompose? Fall apart? From what L knew of Laura, it was apparent that she valued etiquette, though she was deceased, and he refrained from putting it bluntly or (equally insulting, he thought) softening it with a euphemism. Instead, he let it hang awkwardly like a question mark without a sentence to precede it.

"Zombies are mindless, yes?" L asked, knowing enough about the lore of the walking dead to understand that there was something distinctly, well, absent about the common term for them. "Unable to learn or comprehend... and you don't seem like you match that description. You touch people to be warm, while zombies hypothetically touch them to take them apart and partake of their flesh. So... in conclusion, you are more human than you guess. Desire is a very human thing." L himself had yet to fully grasp desire, but he had read about it. It left him with a fist-sized hollow feeling in his chest, and an ache between his eyes, to read about desire. Fame, fortune, and most of all, love. Those things were desired in abundance, but seldom granted and even more seldom appreciated if they were.

Holding Laura's hand became easier as they walked. Though L would not describe himself as "adaptable," circumstances often force a logical person to change pace and adjust, and that was what L had been doing since arriving here. Watari had saved him the trouble, of doing it on a day-to-day basis so he could better focus on his work, but without cases and phonecalls and stacks of files, L was free to more fully explore the art of changing to match circumstances outside of his career. It took some concentration, but was well worth the effort; he seemed to have made a friend.

Unfortunately, Laura was correct in her assumption that it would be easy to take advantage of L. His body, while stronger than it looked, was fine-boned and frail, and his mind tended to close itself into a box and focus in a narrow, piercing beam on whatever he was thinking about, leaving him, at times, careless. Part of Watari's job had been to make sure that accidents didn't happen and that he wasn't used, hurt, or cheated purposely by others. So much could happen, to a man who cared more for numbers than money and preferred insects to people. Even in recent memory, there had been extremely close calls; Earth was a scary world, for someone with L's tendencies. However, this planet seemed like it moved for its inhabitants, a definite departure from Earth's natural policies.

"If you can name someone who likes your company, maybe you will not feel alone always..." he suggested, noticing her steady vigilance as they walked. "It's a very unusual thing, to move about once dead... but 'alone' means that you are isolated, not unique." he mimicked the squeeze she had given his hand on hers, recalling that it had seemed reassuring. "'Alone' seems to be based more on who you have, rather than what you are... and by that reasoning, neither of us are alone."

They were at the resort, now, and sure enough, a golem was waiting with a set of keys to Laura's room.

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[info]spitandviolets
2009-02-02 07:14 pm UTC (link)
The only topic on which she was not blunt was herself. The idea of being undead was not a charming one, and it was a touchy subject for Laura Moon. She didn't want to be dead, she didn't want to be undead. Since being alive was not an option, she was still a bit uncomfortable in her skin. The way Laura would have put it was 'decline.' His lingering question mark, however, was satisfactory. "Zombies," she retorted, "are the opposite of me. But I am not even going to pretend to get into a discourse with you on the nature of desire and what it is to be human. Philosophy was never my thing."

When they reached the resort, Laura looked around. Well, this was nice. It was nicer than the hotel in Anaheim, or Shadow's little dive in Eagle Point. That room had been so odd, mainly because she had expected to find him at home and instead found him in a hotel. Her eyes quickly scanned the plaque that was located in the courtyard. Huh. Interesting rules. So that was how things worked around here? Fair enough.

"Excuse me for lacking your faith in logic. No matter how likely a pattern seems, sometimes it fails. I cannot help but wonder what this planet, though, has in store for me. It seems that death does not exist here. People don't kill, and, in my mind, logically, that means that people don't die. Do people age? Can people die by natural means? Why would a planet such as this, that seems to provide for its inhabitants and love their lives, willingly introduce death unto itself?" Her mind was suddenly flooded with thoughts. Was she to serve as a constant reminder of mortality in an immortal world? Someone less apathetic may have been driven to contemplate taking him- or herself out of the equation.

Laura, however, knew better. It seemed that she had found a purpose, and maybe it was because she was searching very hard. She may not have known about Watari, or that she was correct in assuming that he was as easily taken as Richmond by Grant, but she did know that evil would not befall him. Not on her watch. He needed her, she projected onto him, to keep him safe. He was a thinker. She didn't know much of anything about anything. Truly, Laura couldn't even do basic accounting. She only wrote well because she read often. Thinkers, however, needed someone to protect their brains. If he was going to be the brains, well, she was going to be the brawn. Anywhere he wanted to go to discover things, she'd get him there. If he was in trouble, she'd know it. Her eyes closed and she focused on his name and his face. His light came to her mind much faster, and his location quickly followed in her mind. She may not have been able to find him blindfolded from the bottom of the ocean...yet...but she'd at least be able to know if he was in danger, or if he needed help. Of any kind. Granted, that would probably lead to a few embarrassing incidents involving him not being able to reach something on a high shelf and herself not being able to do much better, but it was invaluable. Being able to find those under her protection was the reason for Laura's strangest, least explicable gift.

Her fingers reluctantly left his, the gentle twine of their hands escaping her like sand passing through the gaps between her fingers. The wind blew; Laura smelled faintly of perfume, decay, and something strangely chemical. Hair hanging in her face, she didn't bother to move it. Her eyes studied his face.

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[info]spitandviolets
2009-02-02 07:14 pm UTC (link)

"Yeah," she murmured, taking a few steps towards the golem. Back to him, she kicked at the ground. "Alone. Isolated. I don't seem to be that anymore, do I?" She motioned up at the resort, shrugging a little.Reaching up, she took the keys from the golem. "I can find it, thanks," she murmured, and the creature nodded its reply.

"So, I guess I'll see you around, then. Thank you for finding me. I'd probably still be wandering in the forest if I hadn't met you." Turning her head back, glancing over her shoulder at him, Laura gave a little wiggle of her fingers at him. "You and I, we're not alone." She began walking away. Just before the door closed behind her, Laura turned back to face him.

"L?" she asked, her voice almost expressive. Her eyes stared at him, almost desperate to look at him, silently asking something but just what that question was remained completely unclear. "If you need anything," she said. She wasn't about to tell him that she would always be there, that she would know if he needed something, that this planet was way to small to keep her from coming to his aid. Instead, she let it linger like his earlier comment. There was a momentary pause. After quick consideration, she realized she didn't care about using her abilities in front of him. Turning, she disappeared into the evening shadows inside the building, using her superhuman speed to get her gone and away before she could hear his answer.

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[info]meticulous_soul
2009-02-03 08:26 pm UTC (link)
L mused a great deal; though he hardly considered his idle speculations philosophy, his words were occasionally profound. He didn't see it that way, preferring to leave the "philosophy" to the great minds, but when it came right down to he, he possessed one of them, just tending to focus it on different things. "I have... no real idea, yet, of how all of that works," he said, referring to the phenomenon of aging and death on this planet. "I haven't yet witnessed anything of the sort... all I know, so far, is what I have directly observed or been told. People may not kill, but who knows how such a rule could be enforced? And there could be predators, illness... accidents can always happen..." it was a depressing thing, to run through possible causes of death on a strange planet. "Perhaps suicide...?" he trailed off, the concept unsettling to his mind.

Laura's hand left his, and he was aware of being separate again. It didn't take as long to get used to it, as it did to being part of a set, but it was still a change. "No. I am disinclined to think that you are alone," L said, biting his lip, tugging at a strand of his hair to fend off the feeling that he was the subject of scrutiny, for a change; usually, it was the other way around. Unaware that he had a new, self-appointed bodyguard, but strongly aware that he had met someone he actually cared to spend time with, he smiled hopefully when Laura said that she would "see him around."

And then, after starting a thought that needed no completion for its intended meaning to be clear, she had vanished, leaving L with only his thoughts and the golem's eerily human eyes. Feeling like he'd grown slightly as a person, L looked forward to seeing more of the woman called Laura Moon. She was her own tragedy and L's friend, and he did want to see more of her.

OOC: End thread, I believe. It was really a good one! :D

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