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fire_lord_zuko ([info]fire_lord_zuko) wrote in [info]mirage_rpg,
@ 2008-11-08 17:40:00

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Entry tags:complete, day 22, katara, zuko

The Song of Fire and Ice
Who: Zuko and Katara
What: Katara harasses Zuko again... with much different results
When: Night time
Where: In the internet cafe
Rating: R
Status: Complete

Zuko remained alone, in his room for most of the day. Every day since he got to this place, he'd been accosted by the waterbender peasant or her earth goon, usually both. This time, he had other plans. As soon as he'd awoken he took the metal dresser and propped the door closed with it, crossing his arms and glaring slightly in the direction of the door, as if daring Katara to come through it, half expecting any moment to hear a thump of her trying to open the door and then her cheery voice calling out to him as if they were long lost school pals reunited again. He had to give the water and earth bender one thing, they were at least sticking to their little act about him being their friends. It was probably considered a sacred mission by the Avatar... or maybe they were brain washed too, intentionally so, to deliver him to the Avatar, but not really knowing themselves his fate until the end.

Zuko sighed. He was starting to feel more and more paranoid about the whole thing, and as the hours passed on, he smelled food in his room. It'd not been there before, and for whatever reason the planet seemed to provide him with whatever seemed to be on his mind as something good to eat. If he were anything less than a prisoner here, he might have been a bit envious of not having that sort of treatment back home. But what was home to him any more? He'd been away from the Fire Nation for three years... an exile... charged with finding the Avatar, which was a fool's errand at best. And then the next thing he'd known his father had been willing to take him back... only to have himself whisked away to this place.

He was the banished prince again.

"DAMN IT!" Zuko growled and slammed his fist into the wall, sending a bright plume of flame flaring across the wall. If he could somehow find a way back, then the Avatar would be at his most vulnerable. His little water bender not there to protect him, then Zuko might finally have a chance at defeating him once and for all. Then... finally, his father would be proud of him... he wouldn't be the son who always needed help, the weak offspring. His sister had gone mad... now it was Zuko's chance to prove that he was, if not on par with Azula... at least more consistant then her... He could weather the things that she couldn't... if he were only back home. Gritting his teeth he turned and screamed at the top of his lungs in his room.

"If you're willing to give me whatever I want, then why won't you just let me go HOME??"

There was no reply.

A few hours later, Zuko finally decided that he might be free of the water bender, and decided to journey out for a while in the afternoon. He was rather sorry that he had. It was freezing outside, and the whole damned place had changed to be covered in snow. He could just see the twisted smile of satisfaction on the water bender's face when she'd woken up this morning to see something like that. She was probably out in it somewhere praying that Zuko would cross her path. He wasn't going to oblige her though, if he saw the peasant he'd just turn right around back inside and hole himself up in his room. He could survive in there, it seemed, until he could figure out a way home.

Hours later, Zuko found himself wandering through the building, looking for some clue as to how to go home or what this place was. As he wandered in to the internet cafe, he blinked a little and stared around at the computers there. They seemed like magical portals, to places that he couldn't even think of. But when he tried to touch them, they seemed solid. He stared at the computer for a few long minutes, trying to figure out where the light in it was coming from. But what was more strange to him was he seemed to feel a certain... afinity with it. It felt like this was somehow made out of... fire... like some of the 'glow bulbs' as he'd taken to calling them, were in some way related to his element. This felt... more strongly so though...

Pausing at the screen saver, he brought one of his hands close to the monitor and tried to bend it... only to jump back a little as the thing sparked and short circuited, causing a thick black smoke to rise up from it. Staring at it for a moment, Zuko was about to swear again when he heard an odd sound coming from within it. Peeking in to one of the vents on the monitor he saw a spark flickering now and again, and his golden eyes widened slowly. Lightning. These things had lightning in them... that explained why he felt an afinity with it... but lightning was dangerous, something only the most skilled fire benders were capable of meddling with... to weild it in a box... Zuko paused and frowned... how was it even possible?

Moving to the next one he was about to try to bend it too, when he bumped the mouse. It had some sort of odd little tutorial on how to use it. Zuko blinked a little, and then sat down in front of the computer. The keyboard seemed odd, and yet he recognized what the characters would mean, even though they seemed foreign to him. still when he tried typing in a greeting, nothing happened. This was stupid...

Starting to stand up his hand brushed the mouse again, and he noticed the little pointer went somewhere on the screen when he did it. Scratching his head he sat back down, and started to move the mouse around the screen, staring at it. Why would anyone use something like this... On the desktop though, an icon caught his eye... it was a little planet icon, or so it looked like... maybe this was info on the planet... but how to use it... he clicked on it, discovering that the mouse had buttons... but nothing... growling a little he clicked a whole bunch of times, and then something popped up. What was a fire fox? He sort of liked the name of it... but it didn't seem to make any sense.

"Go... Google." Zuko read aloud, not really understanding any of this. Still, there was a little box there... maybe he had to.... click on it? No, clicking on it didn't do anything... evne when he did it a bunch. But when he pushed a button on the keyboard, it appeared in the little box there. Zuko tried to think of what to type. He put in 'How to get to the fire nation'. There were a few results, but Zuko looked over them and there wasn't anything there that seemed to be very helpful. Taking a deep breath, he shook his head, this was stupid. Whatever this box thing was, it clearly was some sort of childs toy, as it didn't seem to do anything very practical... Then again, maybe he wasn't asking it the right question... or maybe the planet wouldn't let him answer that question...

So he tried something else. 'How do I deal with a water tribe girl'. When Zuko hit enter this time he noticed there were quite a few more results than last time, and he blinked at one of the results in the top. It was text in blue which said 'Want to know how to deal with wet girls, our studs can show you how!'. Looking skeptical, he touched the screen again. What did they mean to come in? he moved the mouse a little around, and noticed it changed over the text... maybe...

Zuko clicked on it, and his eyes shot open as a face full of what the Internet was known for suddenly sprung on the screen. Frantically, his eyes searched the keyboard for anything to help him. He tried typing 'stop', but nothing happened. The same happened with 'go away' and 'help'. What if someone saw him here looking at this? Quickly, Zuko stood up and started to awkwardly walk away from the computer...



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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-08 10:25 pm UTC (link)
Katara was worn out, but the day had been a splendid one. She had truly enjoyed learning how to bowl and actually playing the game with a host of new people she had never before met. This time she did something with which she was moderately familiar. She had been penguin sledding in her home world, and snowboarding was sort of like that except you stood and steered with your entire body rather than allowing the penguin to do the navigating. Of course, she had her bending abilities to aid her the same way she did when she was surfing on the ocean. At the end, though, she hadn’t used her natural abilities. She had learned the right way to do it. She had fallen much more often than she cared to admit, and she had gotten soaked through with water until she bent said water out of her clothing.

All in all, it was a blast. There wasn’t a single regret. It had helped her to free her mind. Her worries had faded just as surely as the grape vines had. She was free. She was happy.

She was so free and happy that she didn’t go to see Toph or Zuko after the forced Group Activity was over. At least not right away. They would only bring back all of that worry, especially Zuko. Instead, she decided to go to dinner by herself. She ate her fill of stewed sea prunes and giant sea crab meat with seaweed soup. It felt so good to have a taste of home to go with the snow outside.

Her worries about Zuko began to take hold once again. Yesterday, she and Toph had had to force him to allow her to heal his foot more, but she could do nothing more than that. He wouldn’t allow her to help cure his blocked mind, and he had to be a willing participant for such a thing to work. Katara sighed. He was really unhappy with both of his female friends. Of course, as far as he was concerned, they had no friendship, but the waterbender would never give up on him. I will never ever turn my back on people who need me… The thought wafted through her mind, and it was true. She would never give up, even if her brother wasn’t here to back her up in this ordeal.

Katara went to her own room before seeking Zuko. Some part of her was all too aware that she looked the part of the peasant that he condescended toward, and she wanted to make herself presentable. How did one look like royalty to one who was true royalty? No, she wasn’t ashamed. She wouldn’t stoop to allowing him to control what she wore in front of him. It would bring back none of his memories, for she had never been royalty, and she had never looked the part. Instead, she pulled a comb through her hair, allowing the dark waves to shine a bit in their softened glory. She also combed away the stray locks that had fallen around her face. Her bun was tightened and her hair loopies were smoothed. The rest of her hair was not plaited, but fell down her back as was so common for her since she’d first traveled to the Fire Nation under the guise of one of its citizens.

The waterbender allowed a small, hopeful smile to take hold of her lips. If she was pleasant, Zuko would be less likely to turn her away. She just couldn’t allow pleasantness to overflow into creepily joyful. No one liked a Joo Dee.

She left her room and sought out a golem who led her through the halls of the main building until she reached familiar territory and saw the person after whom she sought. She was glad he was here rather than in his room because she knew he would never allow her to see him if he were able to shut her out that way. It was a little too late that she realized her water skins were in her room, for she had no need to carry around water outside where the entire world was blanketed by it in it’s softly frozen form. Now wasn’t the time worry about that, though.

Katara noticed he was at one of the computers. Tyler had showed her how to use one on her third day on the Planet. She hadn’t been back to this area since. It was all just too confusing, and she remembered the look of hopelessness, sadness, and anger that had taken hold of the blond when he realized he could see how his family had contacted him, wondering where he had gone, but he could not respond to them to tell him he was all right, that he loved them, that he hoped to see them again soon.

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-08 10:27 pm UTC (link)
Maybe this time would be better. She was with Zuko who had no conception of e-mailing, and there wasn’t a way to contact their home world. He was standing, staring at a screen with his back to her when she approached, and her own eyes shifted to the same screen, curious as to what he was seeing. When her gaze focused, her jaw dropped.

Zuko was looking at a display of naked women, proudly displaying their bodies in erotic positions. One dark skinned woman with long chocolate lay in ankle deep water, breasts bared to the public as well as her nether regions. Katara felt the heat rise to her face in embarrassment, for she looked like she could have been of Water Tribe descent if not for her dark eyes, and she barely managed to coherently stammer out, “Z-Zuko? W-what are y-ou… uh… what… is that?” She had torn her eyes away from the screen, but she couldn’t look at him, either.

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-08 11:29 pm UTC (link)
He typed frantically on the keyboard, but the magical thing which had let him get to this page seemed doomed to let him off. He saw an escape key in the upper left hand corner and jammed on that a few times, to no avail. But then, for a moment... for just a moment he let his golden eyes focus on the page, and it caused him to swallow slightly. He'd seen some attractive girls before, and wondered what they might have looked like... de-clothed. But he'd never actually... and this was... like a view into a woman's dressing room or something like that. He could only imagine what Uncle would have said if he'd known there were something here that could magically give you an image of a woman naked...

And to boot, her skin was... she looked like she was water tribe. There were slight differences, but she very well could have been... no... he really really really needed to stop thinking about this now. Shaking his head slowly he turned, and started to walk away when... Katara stood right there in front of him. Zuko's face slowly started to turn red, then redder, then almost as if he were trying to turn into a tomato as he opened his mouth, held up his hands, then looked at the monitor, then at Katara, then at the monitor again. He swallowed, and for a split second thought... maybe... maybe the water tribe girl wouldn't say anything, maybe.. they were all strange heathens there and she wouldn't...

Oh who was he kidding, they all wore heavy coats. They probably never took them off ever...

He saw Katara look away, and he spoke softly. "No... this... uh... this isn't... I mean... I was just... trying to..." His face was still bright red and he stared at the computer screen until his firebending took a mind of it's own and caused the monitor to pop and fizzle and short itself out, and then the one beside it, until the whole row of computers shorted and the lights began to dim and flicker. How the hell was he supposed to explain this to Katara? She'd probably never used one of those things, she would have no idea how easy it would be to click here and then click there and suddenly wind up looking at some naked water bender girl in the magical portal thing. It wasn't his fault! Zuko's eyes looked down, and then suddenly looked back up at Katara... no...

"No... no... it's not like that... I don't..." Zuko's eyes widened as he stared at her in horror. She was probably thinking that he... he liked staring at naked water tribe girls! Ugh, could anything be more positively repulsive then the idea of laying with a heathen peasant tribe who thought that snow was the best thing that the world ever created? Did she really think that he could have been looking at her, picturing her naked... imagining how this curve of her outfit or that curve of her outfit might match up with the slender curve of a woman's hips, the supple swell of her chest. Was she thinking that he might be picturing her without her clothes right now?

And then, to his horror, he did. It sort of... popped in there, and as it did Zuko stumbled back and fell over and covered his eyes. "Gah!" He exclaimed, knowing that the mental image was probably never going to get itself out of his head now... and every time the damned water bender came to harass him, he'd be thinking about that naked woman he'd seen on the magical portal!

Growling, Zuko decided that he'd had enough. Forcing himself up he glared at her, and crossed his arms. "What the hell are you doing here anyway, peasant?" he said, trying to go on the defensive. "I told you to leave me alone yesterday! What's so hard to understand about that, that you keep coming back?"

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-09 01:01 am UTC (link)
Katara continued to look away, her face a deeper shade of crimson than his only because her skin tone was darker. This was quite the predicament, filled with bad timing- her bad timing. She trembled a little from her chagrin. He was just as flustered by this as she was, and she could hear it in his voice. If she could find the courage to look at him, she would see it there in his face.

She remembered how, when Tyler had showed her how to use a computer, she was awed by all of the things there seemed to be to click. She wondered what they had all meant, and she wanted to know what they all opened up to be. Perhaps one of those icons had led Zuko to… those images… to…

The sudden popping noises caused her to jump, and Katara’s sapphire eyes widened in surprise as she noticed smoke rising from many of the computers, an entire row having suffered from whatever occurred. She found it in herself to look at Zuko’s face, and she realized he had done it, though she’d hardly seen him move. It was almost like he used firebending from his mind the way that horrible man Sokka had dubbed Combustion Man had done, only, with less physical exertion. What kind of firebending was this? It made her really uneasy, especially because he didn’t count her a friend at this point.

It struck her that this must be just how he felt when she didn’t trust him when he first joined their group. She was so adamantly against him, and he had been so desperate to gain her trust. Karma was frustrating.

Katara opened her mouth to console him, to let him know that it was okay. She’d seen a computer before. It could have happened to anyone, including her, but he stumbled suddenly. Following her instinctual responses, she jerked toward him to help him from falling, but she wasn’t close enough. The waterbender hurried to his side, reaching out to take his arm, to help him up, but the growl in his throat made her hesitate.

The hurt showed clearly on her face when he yelled at her, degrading her with his tone despite the fact she was not ashamed of her lacking nobility. “I care about you, Zuko. You have one more healing session to go on your foot, and I want to help you remember what you refuse to remember. You deserve to have your real memories back.” Her voice was soft and even a little sad.

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-09 01:50 am UTC (link)
Katara wouldn't be able to feel what it was that ran through those machines the way Zuko did. What he'd done was no different than when her outburst of rage had broken apart the ice cube that had freed Aang. Sometimes, especially when a bender was powerful, their strong emotions lead to more powerful bending, even bending that was unintentional. Zuko of course, wasn't really wise enough to process any of that knowledge though, and instead had just lashed out, like a child who didn't understand, because in a way his mind was back there, back when he was a teenager and didn't understand anyone or anything. The peace that now could sometimes be glimpsed in his features, even if it was fleeting, was gone... if there was one thing that was certain, this wasn't the Zuko that Katara had known recently, but the one of the past, who was at war with himself... for one who wanted to heal her friends, it was probably agonizing for her to see him in that much anger and pain... oddly perhaps like Aang's first ventures into the Avatar state.

Zuko was now on his feet, standing a few inches taller than Katara. A part of his mind tried to resummon the image that had just been in there about her, but he pushed it to the side, he was too angry for it now, and his anger seemed like the perfect place mentally for him to hide. After all, if he kept angry at the world, then he didn't have to introspect, didn't have to examine his own flaws, think about the things in his life that were caused by him. It was far easier to hate the world, after all. He glared at Katara, and his scowl only deepend when he heard what she was saying to him. His hands clenched into fists at his side, and started to tremble as he gripped them tight enough to drain the blood from them.

"The HELL you care about me!" Zuko growled, and some of the lights around them started to waver brighter and then softer as he stepped towards her. There was still a limp in his stride, which would betray the fact that his foot still needed to be healed. It was clear from the look on his face though that he wasn't about to let her do that. She'd forgotten her water skins too, which meant that she wasn't actually going to be healing him at all, unless she managed to find a water source nearby. Then again, there was snow outside, and it was a coffee bar, which meant that there was likely water in the pipes in the sink if she were desperate. Zuko didn't seem to care about any of that, however, nor the fact that it was night time, which meant that the water bender's powers would be stronger. The only way they could get more potent would be if there was a full moon.

"You're nothing more than the Avatar's girlfriend. Why would I believe for a minute you're not just doing whatever it takes to deliver me into his hands? You're constantly by his side, mooning over him, like a loyal little lapdog begging for his affections. It's like you don't even have an independant bone in your body." Zuko's words would likely bite down to the core, but he didn't stop, if anything, he kept going with them even more ferociously.

"And if you cared about me, then why the hell did you try to attack me with the Earth bender?" Zuko snarled as he closed the distance between himself and the water bender. From the looks of things, Katara wasn't going to move. She might not be backing down, but now that the guantlet was thrown down, Zuko sure as hell wasn't going to either. He closed the distance between the two of them until he was close to her, uncomfortably close. Were he in his senses he might have backed away, blushing, hell, even the brainwashed Zuko was reluctant to seem too attracted to Katara. But rather than pausing, he stepped even closer and pushed his finger lightly against her shoulder, and then gave it a light shove inward.

"Don't have an answer for that one do you? You spout on and on about how much you hate the Fire Nation, and how you'd never protect someone who ruled through fear... but when it comes right down to it, you're willing to use force to get what you want. You turn your nose up at us and pretend to be so moral and perfect, but in the end you're no different... you're exactly the same."

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-09 02:36 am UTC (link)
When the lights flickered, Katara did not look at them. Her eyes remained trained on Zuko, though she was confused about how he was controlling the lights. She understood he was angry and irrational, but she had thought that the bulbs of false light were not made of fire. Perhaps they really were made with fire, and she had misunderstood because the lights never moved like a flame.

Katara’s lips parted as he yelled at her. She wanted to tell him she did care about him, that he just didn’t remember. She’d cared about him since Ba Sing Se, she’d just lost her faith in him until he’d finally regained her trust. She didn’t get the chance. He didn’t remember Ba Sing Se anyway, but his words still hurt.

During the time period Zuko actually did recall, the waterbender hadn’t had any feelings more than friendship for Aang. She cared about her friends and family, and Aang had become a part of the latter. She didn’t recall any mooning over the then twelve-year-old. She remembered the opposite fairly well, though.

Still, they way the Fire Lord described it made tears well in Katara’s eyes, for she recalled her short-lived time with Vincent and the betrayal she’d committed against Aang with that little romantic tryst. She found it was difficult to speak. Her thoughts wouldn’t collect coherently. Zuko yelled in her face, and she could only look at him sadly as anger slowly began to fill her, contorting her face into a mask of fury- though the sadness remained.

“You attacked us first! We were defending ourselves from you, the way the whole world could only defend themselves from the Fire Nation or submit to practically being slaves! When I realized that you weren’t going to allow me to heal your foot, we didn’t stop the attack. We had to get you into a position that made it impossible for you to hurt us while I helped you. I did it because I care about you! I care about your health!

“You’ve always been so damned irrational. No, wait. You used to be so damned irrational! You stopped being this way after you became the Fire Lord. You were calm and happy, and now look at you. You’re a mess again- a bundle of indecision and pain because you have no idea what to do. It’s a good thing Azula isn’t here to feed you lies and manipulate you into submission the way she did at Ba Sing Se!”

Katara was fuming. The colour had returned to her face, but this time in the form of rage. He was in her face, but now she was leaning toward him, furious, in his face, shouting. “I wasn’t Aang’s girlfriend until after we all defeated your father and your sister so you could rule peacefully. Even then I was unsure about it. You should remember, though. You were so happy dating Mai that Aang asked you for advice because things became rocky in our own relationship!” Her muscles were tense in her anger, and all the yelling in the world wasn’t helping her feel better. A tear streaked from her eye over her cheek. The words will spilling out of her mouth with great speed, as if the faster she got them out of her, the better she would feel, but she wasn’t feeling better. It wasn’t working, but once she’d begun, she couldn’t stop. “The truth about that was that I wanted to leave-” She stopped mid-sentence, filled with horror that she’d almost confessed such thoughts aloud to someone who knew her and the Avatar, both.

A furious growl left her throat, and Katara’s arm shot backward. A wrenching of metal could be heard as water exploded from the sink in the café, spraying out to flood the area. Her other hand moved to his shoulder to grip him tightly as she glared into his eyes. Her voice was strong, steady, determined. “I am nothing like those who would kill and torture to get their own ways. I have never turned my back on anyone who ever needed me.

“A long time ago, I told you spreading fear and hatred was in your blood, and you proved me wrong a few months later. How can you accuse me of being a killer when you saw me walk away from the man who killed my mother when our purpose was to end his life? Zuko, you know me better than even Aang does. Why won’t you let me help you remember?”

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-09 03:20 am UTC (link)
Though Katara may not have ever mooned over the 12 year old Avatar, intentions are rather easy to mix up. After all, it was Jun herself who had assumed that Zuko had been searching for Katara because she was his girlfriend, and Katara had far less relation then with Zuko than she did with the Avatar. In Zuko's mind, the two were practically inseperable, always flying together on that damned albino bison. Besides, even though she denied it, he saw it in her eyes, whenever he attacked the avatar and she would come to the Avatar's rescue. He could see that burning look of hatred that gleamed, the way that those did when someone more dear to them than a friend was attacked. She couldn't possibly expect him to believe that what she had with the air bender was simply a matter of friendship, and yet, it seemed as if she was... or wasn't, it was hard to understand from her words.

Even so, her own words caused Zuko's face to twist in anger as she spoke to him about what he'd done with her and the earth bender, eyes widening incredulously. Was she so far gone that it really seemed like that was what had happened, or was she simply being brainwashed every nightly now? "I attacked YOU first? I was defending myself... I told you to go away... but that wasn't good enough for you, because it wasn't what you wanted, Katara..." Zuko shot back. "You like to play the victim, but I never asked you for your help, I never asked you to heal my foot, I never asked you to come find me every single day since I showed up here... and yet you have, you won't leave me alone even though I tell you to over and over again. How does that make you not exactly the same thing that you claim to hate? Because you're somehow magically 'right'? You say that you've never turned a back on your friend, and that gives you the right to do whatever you want to, is that it?" Zuko's eyes narrowed, and he knew what he was about to tell her would send her prissy little mind reeling. He wanted to see her face when he did it. "Funny, my father always told us that we were doing what was right too... that we were delivering peace and prosperity to the world, showing them how to live with civilization, rather than trying to cling to their old ways of living in tents... I guess it's true, isn't it Katara, as long as you have a good enough excuse, then you can justify doing whatever you want to, no matter how loudly people tell you to stop!"

Zuko gritted his teeth as she talked about his sister. He never liked Azula, but the fact that she'd gone mad still... struck a chord of pain within him. She was still... family. At least that's what he'd thought. This Zuko hadn't been around long enough to have Azula actively try to kill him, to realize that she truly was the monster inside that their mother feared that she would be. The Azula he knew was cruel, spoiled, and a brat... but she didn't deserve the fate that had been given to her, not in Zuko's mind. So when Katara brought it up his eyes narrowed sharply at her. "My sister went insane... probably because of what the Avatar did to the world... it'd be kind of hard for her to manipulate me now, don't you think? And I was never IN Ba Sing Se... why would I ever set foot in the earth capitol? It'd be asking to be taken prisoner... this scar isn't exactly easy to hide..."

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-09 03:20 am UTC (link)
As she leaned in, he didn't back down, in fact he leaned in a little too, until he was staring her in the face and their noses were practically touching. If someone had stumbled in upon the scene though, what they'd see was anything but romantic. Zuko looked more like he was going to tear off Katara's pretty little head than make that extra step forward to kiss her. But when she brought up him and Mai... he leaned back slightly. And she would see it then, in his golden eyes... something she'd probably longed to see since talking to him the first day they'd met... uncertainty, indecision. Her words were starting to have an effect on Zuko, or rather what she was saying. Somewhere, in the recesses of his thoughts... a whisper of a memory seemed to catch him for a moment. The Avatar was just a kid, and Zuko had known so much, or so the Avatar had thought... he'd looked so weak when he was asking for that advice... and Zuko had laughed at him until the Avatar had looked like he was about to cry...

But as then suddenly he shook his head, and the indecision was gone, her road to his memories blocked. He smirked a little, and then scowled at her. "You must have done something when you caught me asleep the other day... you almost had me for a minute there... except you forgot in that little dream memory you planted in my head, Mai and I weren't happy at all..." Zuko shot back at her. "She hated the fact that I was constantly going out to look for my mother, or something crazy like that... said more horrible things to me than even you..." Zuko smirked, not realizing he was revealing rather intimate details of his life to Katara, ones that she didn't know at all. "Maybe next time you screw with my thoughts, you'll learn to keep your story straight when you do it..."

"You can forget about healing me..." Zuko said, easing off of one leg, about to step away from her. "Now I know better than to let you anywhere near me anymore..."

At her statement that he somehow knew her better than her boyfriend though, he paused, and sneered. "You just don't give up, do you?" Slowly he leaned back in towards her face. "You really expect me to be able to say a few words like that, and be able to screw with my head again? You really want me to believe that... I, Prince Zuko, know you better than the Avatar? Then prove it!" He paused, as if waiting for the heavens to somehow strike him down. He could feel the water at his feet, but he didn't care at this point. He wasn't scared of the water bender, and if the computers were any indication there was just as much fire energy around this place as there was water at his feet.

He started to lean back then. He was tired of her wasting his time.

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-09 03:58 pm UTC (link)
“Zuko, Toph and I didn’t touch you or even make a move for attack before you shot fire at us.” Katara’s voice was soft. “No, I guess friendship doesn’t give me any rights to do that. I was just desperate. I didn’t know what else to do. I just wanted you to trust me. I guess I went about it the wrong way.” Sapphire optics, though humbled, didn’t leave his face.

His words struck a pained cord in her body. She remembered how she and Toph had fought about how “motherly” the waterbender always was, how neither Aang nor Sokka were able to say differently. She’d overheard Sokka and Toph talking, though, and she knew that, despite the grating it had on their nerves, they still welcomed it. They relied on it, and she never really knew any other way. She’d been the take-charge, motherly, caring one over everyone she knew and loved ever since she lost her mother.

Another tear slipped out of her other eye when he told her what his father had been made to believe. Of course, she’d already known that that was the excuse behind the war. The truth of it was the desire for power, the desire to rule over an entire world. “If the Fire Nation had succeeded, there wouldn’t have been a world left to bask in the so called peace and prosperity that your father had planned. Ozai tried to burn the entire Earth Kingdom when Sozin’s Comet came again so that the Earth Kingdom citizens would lose their will to fight. At least I was trying to heal something rather than destroy it. In reality, what harm did we cause you other than bruised pride when we bound you so I heal your foot more?”

Her brows creased together when he spoke of his sister. They had found out from Mai and Ty Lee that Azula had tried to kill Mai, but Ty Lee saved her from that fate by blocking the Fire Princess’ qi. “Zuko, Azula went insane because her world was crumbling around her. No one feared her enough to obey her every command any more, and that was how she controlled everyone. Mai betrayed her to save you, and Ty Lee betrayed her to save Mai. Why can’t you remember that? When you and I saw Azula, she was already gone. You challenged her to an Agni Kai, but because I was there and she couldn’t kill you, she went after me.” Her voice was strong, imploring. Her eyes begged him to remember.

A glimmer of hope flashed in her eyes. “Why would you have been at Lake Laogai then? The Joo Dees and the Dai Lee are supposed to be loyal to the Earth King, remember? Lake Laogai is within the outer wall of the city. Why in the world would any place in the Earth Kingdom, especially the capitol, be safe unless the world was at peace?”

Her hope soared even eve higher when Katara viewed that indecision. She was reaching him. It was… No… The smirk that washed over his face dashed her hopes. “What could I have done? I was too busy removing poison from your body. I didn’t even have the time or energy to heal your foot properly. Besides, even if I wanted to do that- which I don’t- I can’t. I only know how to heal and fight. I don’t have the first clue about how to brainwash anyone.” She was yelling again, but he was louder, and he was talking over her. His words renewed his hope. “Zuko… You and Mai weren’t together until after Azula killed Aang at in Ba Sing Se, and you were so busy hunting down the Avatar that you didn’t have time to hunt for your mother.” Her voice was soft again, and she was trying to be careful with her words.

She was so preoccupied by the fact that he remembered a relationship that didn’t happen except during the time he believed he was in a coma that she almost didn’t hear the enormity of the words he had just voiced. He and Mai weren’t happy. It sent a rush of butterflies in her belly, but she couldn’t say why, and she didn’t understand the feeling. She had thought her story was straight. Zuko and Mai had always seemed as happy as Mai ever could seem. They had appeared to be a perfect, long lasting couple, but she’d been wrong. Another wave of butterflies flittered around inside her.

“No. The Prince Zuko without a real future you think you are is not the Zuko who ever knew me. The potential Fire Lord Zuko knew me almost as well as my brother knows me.” Tears were streaming down her face now.

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-09 03:58 pm UTC (link)
She didn’t really have any of the next couple of seconds planned out. He was just so close to her, and she was so desperate to have her friend back, and the butterflies filled her stomach at such an intense rate that she could have been sick, but she didn’t think. She could not think

Katara simply acted.

In an instant, her hands were each surrounded by their own aura of water, taken from the water that sloshed around their feet. Her long fingered hands were cupping his ears, the water glowing with blue light, and she had leaned up to press her lips against his. It had all happened so quickly, and they had been so close as to be almost touching that he probably would never have had any time to react. She herself hardly had time to process what she was doing. All she did know was that her tears had ceased, but they had marked her face with wet trails despite that lacking puffy redness that tears caused most humans. Her eyes were closed as she kissed him, and she could feel her energy flowing into him as she attempted the same technique she had used on Jet. The only real differences were that she was kissing Zuko rather than standing behind Jet, and they were both standing.

Suddenly, Katara realized what she had done, what she was doing. This was Zuko. This was Mai’s lover. The waterbender was supposed to be Aang’s girlfriend. She suddenly pulled away, heat rising to her face as the water dripped from her hands. Her jaw had dropped open in shock at what she had done, her eyes wide, but she couldn’t speak, and she couldn’t move. She could only watch, embarrassed, afraid of what he might do.

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-09 04:42 pm UTC (link)
"Yeah, I shot fire to protect myself... I mean, why the hell would I want to do that when you two have been so kind to me, stabbing me in the foot and then trying to trap me to heal it..." Zuko shot back at her. Katara was seeing everything her way, and blinding herself to what had really happened. Zuko had just tried to get them to leave him alone... but they hadn't listened to him, because the water bender had been too hard headed... to self involved with what she wanted. She was willing to do whatever it was to get it, it seemed. But her next words almost made his jaw drop in surprise. The water bender had never given him an inch on any argument the two of them had. Then again, it wasn't like the two of them were friends like she said... they'd been mortal enemies. So why was she giving him this, now? Perhaps it was just another trick to get him to believe her...it seemed like she was willing to do whatever at this point.

She was crying, but he didn't care. She deserved to cry, in his mind... let her feel a small taste of the pain that he'd carried around his entire life. The Zuko that he had been was mean, vindictive, and mostly hated the world... he didn't care that what he did was wrong, because it all was about him, and him getting what had been taken from him. What he deserved. The person he would blossom into would be much kinder, would understand far more things about life, having taken every hard road to get to what he wanted, only to find that it didn't mean anything to him whatsoever. So if Katara was looking into those golden eyes for any pity, she wouldn't find any, only cold merciless calculation.

"Azula wouldn't lose her cool like that!" Zuko said, for he didn't believe it. His sister had seemingly infinite strength, and as he was now he was too immature to understand the amount of pressure that was on her was far greater than the pressure that was on him. He was the outcast son, the one that was struggling to regain his father's love... but that meant he didn't have to struggle to keep it either... he could take a breath when he failed... Azula, on the other hand, had to constantly keep the balancing act up of not getting on her father's bad side. "Don't talk about my family like you know them!" Zuko said, in the exact same inflection he would have 15 years ago. "You don't know anything about me!"

He didn't have an answer for why he had woken up in the earth kingdom. That one hadn't made sense to him, but he'd thought it was to hide him... but if his father could get in, why hadn't they conquered it yet? No... there were plenty of reasons why, plenty of reasons! Maybe the earth kingdom had gotten lazier since the Avatar had killed him and ended the war between the nations... maybe they weren't expecting the fire nation to come back or... well, there had to be ways to sneak in there... but then... if the Avatar had killed him at sea, why go so far to hide him there... were there spies in the Fire nation that Ozai was worried about? Why did the idea of spies seem to invoke in him a feeling of dread, like he should be remembering something...?

And in that moment of hesitation suddenly her arms were around him. She was using a technique on him... it was too late. He started to pull back and then she came forward, and shattered Zuko's world with a single action. His golden eyes, even his scarred left eye flew open wide as her lips brushed against his, and for some reason his heart felt like it was racing a thousand miles a minute, pounding violently against his chest in a desperate attempt to be let free. She was giving him his first kiss... and yet it felt... almost nostalgic, feeling another's lips against his own... And yet even in that kiss Katara would feel him slightly... leaning into it, testingly, uncertain... perhaps... scared... if such a word could be applied to Zuko.

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-09 04:47 pm UTC (link)
No, not his first kiss... Jin had been his first kiss.. the girl in Ba Sing Se... Uncle had insisted that he go on a date with her... had accepted the date for him! She'd told him to close his eyes and then... and Mai... Mai had been different. She had come on strong... but cold... it'd always been clear with her that she wouldn't have cared if Zuko had rejected her... she could easily find someone better... except when he had left her that note, she'd come and saved him. He'd thought that'd been the start of things finally going right with their relationship... but there was just more rockiness... Only none of them had ever seen, even Katara... how could she really have believed he was... happy...

Katara!

He blinked suddenly, as he felt her moving backward from him, and he realized that she'd just poured out everything to him, and had only felt him slightly returning those feelings... It wasn't right... there was so much he wanted to say and do and... no! It wasn't supposed to end like this... not his first kiss with someone.

So when Katara stepped back suddenly Zuko stepped foward, his powerful hands grabbing the front of her outfit to keep her from pulling her lips completely from his, and then pushed foward, pushing her until she was up against a wall, and then pressing to her desperately. The kiss was not timid, nor gentle like she might have expected, but rather it was filled with passion. Zuko had always been emotional, and firebenders were notorious for the strong feelings and opinions they had about things... if anything could be said for Zuko, he never committed halfway to something...

And here, now, all of him pressed into that kiss, his head tilting to the side as his lips parted slightly, and he let out a slow sigh. Above them, one of the lights shorted and sent sparks flying into the night, like fireworks overhead as the pair of lovers entertwined with one another... Zuko's eyes opening in awe as the room became dark but for the few sparks, which lit up the water bender's face so beautifully. Why had he never seen before that she felt that way...

Because she didn't.

Zuko suddenly broke away and stepped back, leaning on the table. His head was reeling, and he felt like he wanted to vomit, all of the memories came flooding back to him at once. "Katara..." he whispered softly in the dark, staring at the water, that lightly reflected the moonlight from outside. "I... I'm sorry." Finally he fell to his knees in front of her, not caring that he was kneeling in the cool water. "I've been such a fool. You shouldn't have had to have done... that... to wake me up... I remember now... everything. The Southern Raiders... getting revenge for your mother... the lightning Azula struck me with at the Agni Kai in the Fire nation capitol..."

He felt sheepish and silly, Katara had just been willing to do whatever it took to get her friend back and he'd... kissed her. He'd betrayed Aang and her again. How could he have been so stupid?

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-09 07:23 pm UTC (link)
Katara couldn’t get through to Zuko. He was just as hard headed as herself. How could she ever win his trust? She couldn’t. She had to force her good will on him because he never just allowed her to help him. He was like Toph, never able to admit he needed another’s help. Toph had grown, though. She was older, and, though she was still hesitant to admit she needed the aid of others, she wasn’t afraid to accept their help. Zuko couldn’t even do that much because he was not twenty-one any more. He was sixteen, though only in his mentality.

Her mind had suddenly gone blank. Her body moved as if of its own accord, as if someone were bloodbending her body do their own will, but she couldn’t even think to stop it. Her hands glowed brightly on either side of his head, the a swirling blue aura around his ears. The warmth of his lips sent a thrill through her, and she could feel her energy pouring into him.

Katara hadn’t been certain she had felt him lightly press into her kiss. For all she knew, it could have been her imagination. Her brain was a muddled mass that was quickly turning to panic. Buzzard-wasps had replaced the butterflies as her brain finally began making sense. Zuko had never felt anything more for her than close friendship. Why had she done that? She hadn’t even thought. She’d just done it.

Before she could really step back from him, his hands were grabbing her coat, and for a quarter of an instant she was afraid he was going to hurt her because she was a peasant and she’d kissed royalty. Not only that, but she simultaneously realized she’d tried to heal him while she’d done it, and he might have thought that she was trying to do more damage than he already thought she had.

As quickly as she’d understood that, those thoughts were abolished. Zuko was pressing his lips hard to hers, pressing against her. She wasn’t even aware that she had moved until she felt her back pressed against a wall, and she was only dimly aware of the water sloshing around their feet and the fact that the water had stopped spewing from the sink- more than likely something of the Planet’s doing- though the water on the floor remained just as surely as the computers remained shorted out, though the plumes of smoke had stopped billowing out of it.

Katara’s heart beat so rapidly she was sure she must be causing an earthquake despite the fact that she was no earthbender. Surely Zuko could hear her heart because it thudded overpoweringly loud in her own ears. In her life, she had only kissed three men including Zuko. In her life, something had always been lacking from the kisses she had shared with the Avatar, and something too was missing when she had kissed Vincent. Only now did she realize what had been lacking: genuine, unreserved passion. Only Zuko had fulfilled what had before left her feeling unsatisfied.

This kiss let her in to something more, though. When they had been held prisoner in the Crystal Catacombs beneath Ba Sing Se, Katara had felt a sort of chemistry with him as soon as her fingertips touched his scar, but it had never blossomed into anything. Aang and Iroh had arrived before the waterbender got the chance to heal Zuko’s scar, which turned out to be lucky because she needed that water not too much later to bring Aang back to life.

The sound of glass shattering overhead caused her eyes to fly open, only to be met with darkness aside from the sparks falling from the broken bulbs in her peripheral vision. Her gaze was on his face, his beautiful, scarred face. Her hand reached up to cup the side of his visage, but he was already pulling away from her, horror stricken. She, too, felt sick, but it was only because she realized it must only have been a reaction to him, the way she’d reacted to Vincent after she’d healed him, too.

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-09 07:25 pm UTC (link)
Even her sadness at that couldn’t overwhelm the joy she felt that he suddenly remembered everything. She was on her knees in front of him, quickly wrapping her arms around his, not caring that the water was soaking through her coat, through her leggings. “I’m so glad you remember! It was so hard… even if it was only a couple days. Zuko, I’m so sorry.” She was crying again, but she wasn’t sure if it was from the joy at having him back or the sorrow at knowing he wasn’t hers because he belonged to Mai. “I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to betray you and Mai. I don’t know what came over me. We were fighting one minute and the next…”

She pulled away from him, still kneeling, but her hands were in her lap, and her gaze also found it’s way to her lap. Katara couldn’t look at him. If it had been brighter, he would have seen her face was blushing from embarrassment and shame. Just because Zuko and Mai had problems, it didn’t mean they were as bad as the ones between Aang and Katara. Katara didn’t want to work through her problems with Aang because there was no working through a problem where the lover lacked something in his character that she needed. The issues between the Fire Lord and his future Fire Lady probably were relatively minor.

Katara forced herself to stop crying, and she wiped away her tears. “I’m sorry… I just…. It was stupid of me to…” She couldn’t formulate a complete thought. Everything sounded as worthless in her head as it would if she spoke aloud. How could Zuko ever forgive her for this?

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-09 07:53 pm UTC (link)
Katara was wrong if she thought that Zuko remembered everything... what had happened afterwards was still fuzzy, but he knew enough to believe her, to trust her again. She wasn't lying to him... he could remember Ba Sing Se now, sneaking in with his Uncle, trying to run from Azula who had chased them around the globe, and betraying his uncle, causing the man to be imprisoned in Ba Sing Se. Though Katara was too overjoyed to know it, it felt like there was a crushing weight down upon his chest, like all of the sins he'd comitted in his lifetime were somehow coming back and crushing him, choking the life out of him. Everything he'd done, every terrible atrocity that he'd helped commit, or played part of since he was 15 came flooding back into his mind, and with the more recent events cloudy in his thoughts, it felt like he'd not done a single thing to redeem himself... even thoug he knew somewhere that he had.

He grunted a little as Katara threw her arms around him, and he let his arms slide around her waist lightly, then a little tighter. Her body felt warm, comforting, and he could smell the scent of her the way that he had when he'd been pressed up close to her, letting his lips give in to the desire that seemed to be raging through his body. He wanted to hold her against him, almost too hard... but then she started to mention how sorry she was... and Mai... god... Mai... he could still remember the dream he'd had about the argument... only it wasn't a dream... he really had gone on those trips to foreign lands, looking for his mother, always turning up empty handed. Mai had never approved, and the more he went on them, the more the tension between the young firebender and his girlfriend had grown. They were still technically dating though, even if they'd not spoken in a few weeks... or so he thought. Everything was fuzzy around the time that he'd been captured.

"Betray..." Zuko repeated her words numbly, and as she pulled away she'd feel him hold on to her, catching her for a moment with her face close to his, those golden eyes reflecting the dim light, looking as if he might lean in and close the distance between them once again. But his golden eyes looked away at the last moment, and he released her, letting her look at her hands as his own hands fell to his sides, soaking into the water, which helped cool his face when he brought one up and rubbed at his forehead slightly, almost putting his face in his hands, but then stopping at the last minute. She was still apologizing, and it made him blink slowly as he looked at her, tilting his head slowly like a lizard-parrot, watching her intently for a moment.

"Katara..." he said, his fingertips raising up slightly, and if Katara looked out of the corner of her eye she'd see them move towards her cheek as if to stroke it, then pause, stopping short of her skin the way Vincent's had, as if touching her were some sort of forbidden thing that he could not do under any circumstances. His hand paused, and then lightly moved to her shoulder to grasp it slightly, giving it a gentle squeeze, the same sort of squeeze they might have given each other in front of the Avatar, simple, friendly... comforting. "You didn't do anything wrong... you did what you thought you had to do to save a friend... I'm sure..." he paused softly. "I'm sure Aang will understand that... it's not like..."

He turned his head slowly. "It's not like you wanted it..."

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-09 07:54 pm UTC (link)

Slowly his hand dropped, and he looked at the water. "If anyone should be sorry, it should be me. I was the one stupid enough to let my father brain wash me into thinking that the Avatar was an enemy... and then I tried to attack Toph... and you..." Zuko groaned and slumped as he suddenly had the events of the past few days come rushing into his brain. What would the earth bender think of him? She was the one who always seemed to try to at least stick up for him. Even after he'd burned her feet... And now he'd tried to attack her day after day, when all she'd been doing was trying to knock some sense into him and to get him back to the way that he was... back to the friend that she'd known so long ago.

"You didn't betray Mai... I did..." he said softly. "I betrayed Aang too. You were just doing what you had to, to try to get me to remember... I was the one who..." Zuko paused, and his eyes widened. He hoped that Katara couldn't see his face, though the pause in what he was saying more or less said it all. Katara had just been trying to heal her friend... even though it was in the heat of the moment, Zuko's kiss.... it'd been a real one. Somehow in the span of a few days he'd betrayed his girlfriend AND the people who had given him a second chance all in a single moment.

"I..." Zuko started, half stuttering. "I should go... find Toph and apologize..."

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-09 09:35 pm UTC (link)
Katara could feel the heat of his body as she embraced him. Whether it was because he was a firebender, because he was a man, or because he just ran hotter than the average person, she couldn’t say. It was welcome, though. She enjoyed his warmth, his masculinity, the feel of his hair brushing the side of her face. What was she thinking? She was betraying his relationship with Mai even with her thoughts.

When she pulled away, though, she felt the slightest resistance, and her sapphire eyes caught his golden gaze. What was it she saw in his gaze that burned into her? She wanted to kiss him again, but she refrained looking away from him. She saw a movement from the corner of her eye, but soon enough she realized it was Zuko only putting his hand on her shoulder.

When he spoke, she felt so much surprise strike her that she trembled. Was that… disappointment she heard in her voice? No, of course it wasn’t. Why should he feel disappointment? She was only hearing what she craved to hear, not the truth of his words. She couldn’t lie to him, though, even if it meant he would be free from the embarrassment she caused. Katara couldn’t allow him to feel like he betrayed Aang. That had been only her own doing.

“Zuko, Aang and I have been having a lot of problems. I… I was going to… to leave him. I just didn’t know how. I was taken here before I ever got the chance to figure it out.” Her voice was so soft it was hardly a whisper. She felt like a horrible person for ever having desired to break things off with Aang. She just… needed more out of a relationship than he could give, even if she didn’t know exactly what was lacking. Even now, she had felt a hint of what she had been craving in Zuko’s kiss, but she couldn’t have Zuko, and she still wasn’t entirely certain what it was she wanted, what it was she even needed.

Her shoulder missed his touch when he retracted his hand. “I’m sure Toph already forgives you. I told her that you’d been brainwashed. She’ll just be glad to have the real you back. She’ll be glad that she doesn’t have to fight you any more… I hope.” Toph loved a good fight, whether it be physical or verbal. Katara was sure she’d at least still get the verbal aspects of a fight, if not from Zuko then from the waterbender herself.

She opened her mouth to speak when he tried to tell her that he was the one who betrayed Mai instead of her, but then he paused, and it finally clicked in her mind. Zuko really had… He’d meant to… He had wanted to kiss Katara. The passion she’d felt from him had been real, and it hadn’t just been from the heat of the moment. It was because he had wanted her. The Water Tribe femme was too dumbfounded to speak, to tell him the truth. It wasn’t what he thought.

His stuttering about Toph returned her ability to speak. “Zuko… I… When I… kissed you… it wasn’t just to bring you back to yourself. I actually had no idea that would work. In reality, it shouldn’t have because… you and I… never… We never before… well… kissed… I had just intended to… um… to heal you… not to actually kiss you. It just sort of happened…” Her words that came out so slowly suddenly poured forth from her mouth like a waterfall of word-vomit, “Youwerejustsoclose, andIsortofreleasedasuppressionof…” She took a breath to calm herself. She was trembling, and her face was burning as if a fire had kindled right beneath her flesh. “I didn’t do it so you would remember…”

Katara’s brows were knitted together in worry, and the rest of her skin felt hot, like the blood rushed to the surface of every part of her. She stood up, and the water dripped from her coat. A long fingered hand extended toward him to help him up. “Come on. Let’s get out of here.”

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-09 10:16 pm UTC (link)
However bad Katara might have been feeling, Zuko was feeling a thousand times worse. This was almost as bad as when he'd betrayed his uncle in Ba Sing Se. When he'd betrayed HER in Ba Sing Se... What did she think of him now? That he was some ladies man, like Sokka, chasing after every cute girl that he laid eyes on? Well, Zuko wasn't exactly sure that was true, but the man did seem to have no shortage of women who were interested in him, and he didn't seem to do a lot to discourage it, except when it came to Ty Lee. Then again, the two of them did seem closer now that Ty Lee was a member of the same order as Suki, his current girlfriend was... at least, that was how it was when Zuko last remembered it. It was kind of hard to keep up with his love life, and Zuko didn't really pay too much attention to it, even when Sokka brought it up... except that odd time when he'd said something about his girlfriend becoming the moon spirit...

As she didn't even look at him as he held her almost close, it felt like a dagger was being shoved into his chest. He didn't even really know why he'd done it in the first place. It wasn't like there was some sort of deep seeded romance there, he just... sort of went with what she did to him. It had felt... good... right... and in the heat of the moment, it'd felt like it was something that he should have done, something that was... meant to be. But now she couldn't even look at him... he was so stupid that it made him want to blow open one of the walls, and take off running as fast as he could. Then again, he knew that with all of the snow outside the Water bender would catch him like a hawk snagging a field mouse.

Katara mentioned that she and the Airbender had experienced problems in their relationship, and Zuko flinched slightly. Katara herself had brought up the fact that Aang had come to him to ask for advice on what to do about Katara, and it was true. Zuko could remember how nervous the Airbender looked whenever he was around Katara, how his fire bending forms would suffer whenever he was concerned about her. She was the center of Aang's universe, and to think that Katara was going to break up with him... well, it was going to shatter the Avatar's heart. Zuko had thought about it in the past, and wondered if the Avatar could take it. Over the years, Aang had matured, but he still was under 18, he was still uncertain of himself, how he fit into the world. Katara was his pillar of strength... if that got taken away from him then...

Zuko just kind of numbly nodded as she mentioned Toph. He felt extremely bad about it, but he imagined she'd figure out some complex way to give him a wedgie or something along those lines and call it even. Toph wasn't the type who seemed to hold grudges for very long, probably because she seemed to think that emotions were rather icky messy things... and didn't like to seem too weak or mushy. Then again, it had been a while since he'd seen Toph, maybe she'd decided that holding a grudge was really something that she was into now... Zuko didn't really like the thought of having an earth bender mad at him... that was the sort of thing that would wind up getting him buried alive for a few weeks or something equally horrible.

As Katara sputtered out her words, she would see Zuko's eyes widen slightly, and stare at her. What was she trying to tell him? A part of him wanted her to tell him how much she wanted him, how deeply she felt about him. But was that just because he'd thrown himself at her and didn't want to feel stupid for being rejected? And if she did, well, then he'd have betrayed Aang again... he'd be the one responsible for destroying their circle of friends, like a cancer growing on what had once been their healthy group...

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-09 10:16 pm UTC (link)
Instead, what he heard from Katara felt like she'd reached down, formed an ice spike, and shoved it into his chest point blank. At the most inoportune moment, some of the lights flickered back on, the Planet reparing the damage that Zuko had done to them, and she would see his face. He looked like a small wounded animal that she'd just kicked in the side with all of her strength. Realizing that she could see him now, his golden eyes glanced down, feeling ashamed, and he took a slow deep breath.

"Yeah... I mean... of course you didn't mean to..." Zuko said, trying to sound like he wasn't hurt. He didn't take her hand, but slowly rose on his own. "I..." he paused and looked away. "I'm sorry again... it's late... I should probably go..."

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-09 11:17 pm UTC (link)
Katara knew as soon as the words were out of her mouth that they were all wrong. This whole thing was a bigger mess than what she had caused by bursting a pipe in the sink. In five years, why had she never felt the same way with Aang as she had felt with Zuko within three minutes? She almost imagined she could still feel the heat of his lips on hers, the warmth of his body pressed tightly to her, the… No! She had to stop thinking about this. She needed her head clear. She needed to tell him…

Despite knowing how badly it would hurt Aang, Katara knew she couldn’t stay with him. He was two years younger than her, and his airbender mentality just didn’t fit right with what she needed. If only the airbenders were still as numerous as they had once been, the Avatar could find a nice woman among them who fit him better. On Ji would have even made a nice girlfriend for him if only the waterbender hadn’t allowed something to grow between Aang and herself. Maybe now that she was gone… Aang could find that girl again… if she wasn’t still stuck in a relationship with that bully… What had his name been? Hide. That’s right. Aang had told her plenty about that little suck-up.

Katara couldn’t save everyone, and she had learned that well in her nineteen years. She couldn’t save her mother. She hadn’t been able to save Jet. She couldn’t save Aang. At least if she left him, he would be able to move on. He wouldn’t get that wounded look on his face when he knew his so-called lover was procrastinating for reasons beyond him when it came to marriage. He’d even gone so far as to carve her a new betrothal necklace. It had been beautiful, but she had never worn it. That had hurt him a lot, she knew, but she’d made the excuse that she couldn’t just replace her mother’s necklace, and she didn’t want to follow the stupid customs of the Northern Water Tribe anyway. There weren’t marriage customs among the Air Nomads, though, because they didn’t marry. It had left him with emotional wounds she couldn’t heal because she was unhappy with their relationship.

The lights flickering back on, repaired in the darkness by the powers of the Planet, Katara was brought back to the present. A stab of pain wound through her when she saw the look on Zuko’s face. I caused this… I hurt everyone I touch these days… What kind of healer was she? She wasn’t any more. He had been right. She was just as bad as the former leaders of the Fire Nation. She was a destroyer. Tears leaked from her eyes again.

No! She refused to believe that. Katara was destined for healing. She was not a destroyer. She helped people. The waterbender just needed to be able to explain herself properly. That was all. When he stood, ignoring her hand, she allowed it to fall to her side. Sapphire eyes scanned his face, seeing the same hints of sadness she had heard in his voice.

“Zuko, no, I didn’t… mean it that way. I didn’t intend to do it, but it happened without my really thinking about it. Just because I hadn’t meant to do it, that doesn’t mean I didn’t… want it.” She took a step toward him, suddenly aware that the water was no longer sloshing around her feet. The Planet had taken it away. The floor was dry. She paid it no mind. Her fingers brushed across the left side of his face, tenderly touching his scarred flesh as she had done five years ago. These days, she would never offer to heal that scar. It was a part of him, and she liked every part of him. He was beautiful to her. She’d always just tried not to think about how attractive he was to her because she was with Aang, and he had seemed so happy with Mai. Was it just time that had changed things?

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-09 11:18 pm UTC (link)
Katara wanted to take away his frown, that almost perpetual line of worry between his brows. She realized that things had changed between them from the instant he had told her he was going to help her find her mother’s murderer. Things had grown between them, and they’d become closer. He’d helped her find her mother’s killer, and he had chosen her to help him take down Azula. They worked well together. Why hadn’t she ever really seen it before? Because she was blinded by Aang as he was by Mai. Two pairings that never would have lasted another couple of years.

Her fingers glided down his cheek to his neck where her arms slipped around his shoulders and she embraced him tightly. “Please, don’t be upset.” She said softly.

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-10 12:42 am UTC (link)
"It's okay, Katara..." Zuko tried to tell her, but it was clear that Katara wasn't about to be interrupted. Still, Zuko didn't meet her gaze as she spoke to him. He felt awful. In that one moment it had all seemed to make sense... everything that was wrong about his relationship with Mai. Katara would understand... he realized. She would understand him wanting to find his mother, willing to risk everything to see her face again, to be able to bury his head in her lap again or sit by her side in front of the pond in the palace and feed the turtle-ducks. While he knew what he was doing was risky, he also knew that Katara would have stood by him... probably even gone with him if he'd asked her to. She wouldn't have mentioned how stupid it was, because she knew what it was like... to lose a mother. And she knew that if there was a way to bring her mother back, Zuko would have gone with her, through anything that was thrown at them, to get her back.

As Zuko blinked he realized that the water suddenly had vanished, in a heartbeat. And the rest of the place seemed repaired again. He could feel the buzz of electricity in the computers once again. Then again, the fact that they were working almost made him flush. How the hell was he going to wind up explaining that one to Katara and not looking like a fool? Thoughts, however, seemed to seep out of his mind as he heard Katara's words, looking down at the beginning of them. Why was she telling him again that she'd not meant to do it? He'd heard her the first time, it's not like he was deaf, or something. But then, as she continued, it felt like electricity was shooting down his spine, like he was trying to redirect lightning thrown by a fire bender.

Was Katara saying that she... wanted it? His golden eyes slowly looked up to her own, staring at her, not really believing what he was hearing. He'd betrayed her... and though he'd made it seem like it was no big thing when he'd wanted her forgiveness, the truth was, he was still surprised when she'd wound up forgiving him. And the more he thought about it, he could understand why she'd been so reluctant, and had been even more surprised that she'd been willing to give him a second chance, let him make amends for what he'd done to her. And after that, she'd been the one he'd been most afraid of offending, the one that he'd wanted to offend least of all, for fear that the slightest trespass would revert everything that they shared together... and now, with the prospect of her... was he really willing to risk that? Willing to risk losing someone who he could trust to have his back, more than anyone?

True, he would have trusted any of them with his life... but when it had come down to it, he'd picked Katara to go with him. The reason why was that he knew that Katara would do anything to save someone she considered a friend. She was like him in that aspect. Aang, even Sokka might hesitate if it was a choice between a friend's life and an enemies, might hesitate to trade a strangers life for their own, or someone they cared about... but Katara wouldn't hesitate, and neither would he. There was an odd comfort there, like the two of them were two sides of the same coin....

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-10 12:42 am UTC (link)
As her fingertips touched him, she would feel Zuko shudder lightly beneath her touch, not out of revulsion for her, but for the scar that was forever blazened on to his face. Anger flared slightly in him. How could he have ever been so stupid to think that the father that would do something like that to his own child, who would burn his face, scarring it and drowning it in horrible agony for months... how could he think that someone like that even knew how to love someone. He recalled suddenly standing up to his father, the look of sheer rage in the older man's face as he'd heard his son telling him that what he'd done wasn't right... Ozai didn't like to be stood up to, because deep down he was a bully, a thug... someone who was afraid of people with real strength, like Iroh.

Still... he let Katara touch him... perhaps the only person in the world before or after that he'd let touch the scar that marked him. Even Mai didn't really touch it, as if afraid it somehow might spread to her fingertips like a disease. As her fingers slipped from his cheek, a breath came from his lips that he hadn't realized he'd been holding. Slowly one hand raised up to his chest and he realized that his heart was thudding violently in his chest. He barely managed to get it out of the way as she threw her arms around him. He was sure she'd be able to feel it pressed up against to him as close as she was. His hands lightly touched her sides. He took a slow breath, and then lightly shook his head.

"I... can't... Katara." His voice sounded like it was about to break, and as he stepped back his eyes refused to meet hers. "You don't... understand... what it's like, to betray people who care about you... how many times have I done it? How many times did I betray you and Aang... only to have you turn around save me... offer me compassion... I promised you I wouldn't do that to you again..." He tried to smile a little, remembering how she'd plainly told him that if he ever did something to hurt Aang again she'd make sure he didn't have to worry about what his destiny was anymore. Slowly, he stepped away and looked at her, afraid that he was hurting her too much with this... It hurt him too, but that... he could find a way to deal with... at least he thought so...

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-10 09:10 pm UTC (link)
Katara saw the subtle shift in his demeanor as she confessed the truth to him in a way he couldn’t mistake. His beautiful, golden eyes moved to hers. The surprise and disbelief were visible, written all over his face. She didn’t say anything. What else could she say? The truth was finally lying out before them both.

Had he ever known before now that he wanted her? She hadn’t thought she’d wanted him until they’d kissed, but now that she thought about it, she had been suppressing things concerning Zuko for the sakes of all involved. Aang and Mai would be hurt. What would Toph think? What would Sokka, or Suki, or Ty Lee think? Sokka would support her as he always had, but he would be upset for Aang’s sake. There was no telling with the other three. Would something like this tear them all apart?

It was probably due to those thoughts that Katara didn’t kiss him again. Instead, she touched his face, and she embraced him. What more could she do? What if those same thoughts plagued his own mind? What if he was confused about these things? It was completely possible. The waterbender wasn’t even one hundred percent certain about this. She only knew that she had felt some sort of satisfaction that had been lacking from her life until Zuko had pressed himself against her.

That desire to kiss him was still there, but she wrapped her arms around him instead to suppress it. She could feel the lightest of pressures of his hands on her sides through her coat, but there wasn’t much more, and she knew then she’d done the right thing. Kissing him then probably would have been like when Aang had kissed her after seeing that strange moment of Katara’s Ember Island player telling Zuko’s Ember Island player that she felt passionately about him. They were all so young then. She remembered how Zuko and Katara had slid away from one another then, and she remembered feeling an awkward tension between them both because of that.

The waterbender wasn’t overly surprised when she felt the negative movement of his head, and she felt him gently push her away. Despite the lack of surprise, she felt a sadness creep into her, dragging her down, threatening to drown her. Her eyes couldn’t meet his, either.

He was right, though. She had never betrayed anyone in her life, unless her short-term fling with Vincent counted as betraying Aang. Now she was betraying Aang all over again with a different man. That was the difference, though. Aang was still a kid. He had grown up a lot since she first met him, sure. They all had, but Aang was two years younger than her, and his ideas about how a relationship should be were still a bit childish, even after so many years of being with him.

Zuko was still right. No matter what excuses she made, he would still be betraying Aang. She could say that Zuko hadn’t stolen her away because she was going to leave the airbender anyway, but Zuko would have just picked up where Aang left off. She was sure that Mai would see it as the waterbender stealing her Fire Lord, too. It certainly wasn’t a great way to repay her for risking a painful death at Azula’s hands to save her love, despite the first betrayal.

Katara didn’t want to think about this any more. Thinking about this only made her eyes water, and she didn’t want to cry in front of him again. She didn’t want him to see the pain she felt. It never would have hurt this much if she’d never realized what not having Zuko would mean, but she had experienced that kiss, that small taste of fulfillment, and she couldn’t just go back, but she couldn’t force Zuko into anything, either. She wouldn’t. It would only end up that she hurt Zuko along with Aang. What would that solve?

The waterbender was a fighter, though. She had to deal with this. If it made Zuko happier not to have her, what right did she have to say anything different? It did make a difference, though. It made Aang happier to have her, but she couldn’t be in that relationship any more, and it wasn’t for lack of trying. She had tried, but all of her trying was futile. Aang just couldn’t offer her what she needed because it wasn’t a part of who he was. His passion was about as intense as a cool breeze compared to Zuko’s volcanic fire.

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-10 09:11 pm UTC (link)
Katara tried not to think about that again. It was… hard, and it was painful. In light of not thinking about her relationships difficulties, she remembered the lesser problem for which she had come here. “At least let me finish healing your foot. It’ll only take one more session.” Trying to make a joke she said, “Or I can just go get Toph, and she can help me hold you down again.” Her words sounded just as half heartedly amused as the smile that moved over her lips looked. Katara had never been a good actress.

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-10 10:08 pm UTC (link)
Zuko could feel it as he pushed her away, and in his stolen glances at her he could see that she was looking away from him, those deep blue eyes, like the ocean, not daring to look at him. Was it because he'd kissed her, or because she wanted something more from him now? How was that even possible? The more he tried to wrap his brain around it the more it didn't seem to make sense at all. They'd scooted away from each other when the ember island players had suggested that she found him alluring... the thought back then had been almost revolting. She was a water bender... and he was a fire bender... they were completely opposite elements... yet there was a side to her that was distinctly fire... a willpower that was alluring... she never gave up, regardless of the odds.

Mai, on the other hand, seemed bored with life, and had disconnected somewhat from it years ago. He'd liked Mai because she'd been calming for him, seemed to be mellow to his bursts of anger... but as he learned to calm himself, develop his own inner peace, her apathy began to grate on him more and more often. She seemed to care about the most random things, and not care about everything else. One Minute the two of them would be joking about how silly and stupid life was, not caring about anything, and the next he'd accidentally hit on the one thing that she'd cared about but not told him, and she'd turn away from him, leaving him to wonder what her problem was. It had gotten to the point of infuriation.

But it was his mother that had been the last straw. He hadn't talked to her since then. She'd been right, of course, his trip had been in vain, but it wasn't because his father was manipulating him... or so he'd thought at the time. Now he didn't know what to think about anything... but Mai had said things... things which Zuko couldn't forgive her for. Saying that about his mother, implying that he should just give up, that his own mother had abandoned him... it was too horrible to hear. Probably because deep down, he was afraid that it was the truth. She'd left in such a hurry, swearing that she'd done everything for him. Ozai had made it sound like it was true but... there was no way to tell lies from truth with his family...

No... he couldn't... he couldn't let his feelings make him do this. It'd be a betrayal to his uncle, who he was relieved to remember was still alive and well in Ba Sing Se, but more importantly, it'd be a betrayal to all of them. Somehow it felt like he was back in the Dai Lee prison, and forced to choose between good and evil. He wasn't sure about Katara, if she was what he really wanted, but he was sure that trying something, here... would be a betrayal... to Aang, and to her. And yet a part of him, knowing that she wanted it... longed for it. Katara was the one member of their circle of friends that he related to the most... the one that he understood, the one that understood him the most...

When she offered to heal his foot again, and tried to mention Toph, a smile touched his face but it was clear that it wasn't what he really felt. He felt awful. He was awful! The Avatar had done everything for him, had given him a second chance when even Katara wouldn't... Even after he'd chased him all over the world, hunted him at every corner. He slowly shook his head, but it was clear that it wasn't because of what she was saying, it was something inside of him. Dammit, why did Katara have to make things so fucking complicated?? No, that wasn't fair to her, it was his own fault... or life's fault... or someone's fault! Zuko felt hot, like he was about to pass out, a rare feeling for him given his firebender nature.

"I... you don't need to heal me... I'll be fine Katara... I just need time..." He said, and tried to push his way past her to get to the doorway.

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-10 10:08 pm UTC (link)
But Katara's arm stopped him and caught his sleeve, causing him to spin around and look at her. He could see the look of determination in her eyes, that look that she got when her emotions were leading her... when she behaved almost like she was fire nation. It was that look, he realized with a start, that was what made her so freaking sexy. Growling a little he took her wrist and pulled it firmly from his sleeve, staring at her as he held on to her wrist, standing so close to her that he could feel the heat of her body...

And then he was pushing her up against the wall again with a hungry kiss. Somewhere in the back of his mind the logical side of him told him that this was wrong in every way possible, and that he should stop... but hormones, lust... desire, Zuko didn't know what it was anymore, but it brushed away those thoughts like a giant sweeping an ant from it's path. She would feel his lips press firmly to hers, his hand coming to grab her other wrist and pin her arms on either side of her as he forced her against the wall again. If it was possible, this kiss was deeper than the first, if only because now he knew what he was doing, he resigned to the fact that he wanted it... badly.

This time he let his body press against hers in a way that left little to the imagination about how much he wanted her at this very moment, and his kiss opened up to a deeper, more passionate one before his hands finally let her wrists go, his golden eyes staring into hers as he broke from the kiss by just an inch, his breath misting against her lips as he stared at her hungrily...

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-11 12:40 am UTC (link)
Katara’s eyes had found his face when she managed to make that small joke, but she could see in his smile that he wasn’t truly feeling it. Neither had she quite frankly. She’d only been trying to lighten some of the tension that layered so thickly in the air between them that it would take a Sokka’s space sword to slice through it.

Her frown deepened, the narrow line between her brows becoming more apparent. Why did he have to be so difficult? Even now that he knew she didn’t have any motivation to hurt him, no reason, no way, he denied her help. It was infuriating. She just wanted to heal his stupid foot for crying out loud! Was she going to have to force him into it every single time?

If he wanted time, he could have it… after she healed his foot. When he tried to brush past her, her fingers shot out and closed around his sleeve. Katara’s face, her body language, told him she was going to do this. He didn’t have a say. He might as well stop being so difficult.

When he spun around to look at her, the same determination showed in his face, in his golden gaze. He even looked a little angry. Did her face reflect anger? She’d heard that growl before, and she’d felt his tight grip around her wrists as well.

Suddenly, before she could even think, his lips were on hers again, and she felt her back hit the wall a little harder. Her coat cushioned her quite well, though. She gasped into the unexpected kiss, but her brain couldn’t even register the thought that he had told her mere moments earlier that he couldn’t do this, that it was betrayal. She couldn’t recall what betrayal even was at this point. Katara could only feel his toned body pressed against hers, making her wish she had removed her coat immediately after coming inside because it was only a barrier that disabled her from being closer to him.

Her fingers had hardly moved to his shoulder when that wrist was in his grasp, and both of her arms were pinned to the wall behind her by his strong hands. Slender digits curled into fists, nails digging crescent moons in to the waterbender’s palms. She felt as if she was on fire, overheating in her coat as her own lips pressed back into Zuko’s.

Never in her life had she experienced the passion of a firebender, especially not from one as emotionally charged as Zuko, especially not from Zuko. She drank it in to herself, savoring it, craving more. Katara’s hear beat erratically beneath her breast.

When his lips finally parted from hers, she didn’t feel the loss of him. His body was still pressed firmly to hers, sandwiching her between the man and the wall. When her wrists were released from their bonds, her eyes opened. She hadn’t even realized they’d been closed. She’d been so lost in the kiss, in his heat. Katara’s chest rose and fell with the heavy breaths she took. Her sapphire gaze bored into his, reflecting the hunger in his golden optics. Without a second thought, her hands slipped over him, one to curl around the nape of his neck, the other to cup the left side of his face. With a small murmur, her lips pressed into his, her own body pressing back against his, despite the fact that he was already so tightly knitted against her.

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-11 08:35 pm UTC (link)
Zuko's head was like a hive of buzzard hornets as he stared at Katara, too many thoughts running through it to pick a particular one that was coherent. Even as he pulled away it was slow, his nose lingering along her cheek as if there were some force that she was exerting on him, half of him feeling like she was blood bending to keep him close even while the rest of him knew that was silly, that Katara would never do such a thing to him. No, it was something inside of him that wanted her, that looked at her and had the desire to claim her, to take her and make her his own. He'd never thought about it before, or perhaps he would have been here years ago... and like a djinn, it seemed a lot harder to get it back in the bottle now that it had been released into the world. His hunger for her was almost making the air thicker around both of them, or so it felt.

Still, he couldn't force himself on her, even if right now it felt so strongly that the thought did cross his mind. That wasn't Zuko though, he'd never do something like that... but he could see even in the water bender's eyes that something was wrong with her too, or perhaps it was something right. Something unspoken had been spawned between them, and despite the fact that he was a little afraid of rejection, afraid that Katara would slap him as soon as her hands were released, he could see in those blue eyes that there was little chance of that too. She was feeling what he was feeling... perhaps more so, as she'd not seemed to be so quick to call what they were doing betrayal... God, the betrayal... what WAS he doing?

But then Katara was on him, her fingertips sliding into his hair, her hungry lips pressing against her own, her body seeming to slide along his own like it was made to fit it. If there was some desire that Zuko had caught, it seemed to have spread to the water bender as well, or perhaps the other way around... but none of it really seemed to matter in that one moment. Zuko unleashed his passions upon her, a pent up sexual tension that seemed to have been building for longer than he could have thought possible... they'd always been at each other's throats, after all, there'd always been a mutaul respect, but a distance between the two of them... but now it seemed that whatever was seperating them as merely the dam to a great river that was now exploding...

Zuko wanted her.

He didn't think about the fact that the two of them were playing with fire, or that he might go too far, too fast with the water bender. What Katara longed for in Zuko also made him reckless when it came to passion. His love was like a fire in a dry field, it burned bright, but also wild, threatening to blossom into a forest fire at the slightest wind that might give it chance to. And Katara's kissing him back had only fanned those flames into a bright blaze. Mai had been different, she was rather cool and calm for a fire nation citizen, and it reflected in everything she did. She would easily douse the flames of Zuko's passion if she wasn't in the mood, or thought that things were going too far too fast. Not only that, but she did little to encourage them, instead being more the type to lay back and enjoy them rather than reciprocate the desire in them...

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-11 08:35 pm UTC (link)
Zuko broke the kiss for a moment and grabbed the edge of her coat and tugged almost roughly, pulling it up and off of her head and tossing it to the side on the ground, discarded and unneeded for the moment. After all, the air in here felt stifling, at least to Zuko... he imagined she felt the same... and he wasn't about to ask. As soon as it was no longer between them he came in against her with another crushing kiss, this time letting her feel far more of his ripped body, the firm rack of abdominal muscles that had been honed to perfection, the warmth of his body. Despite the cool temperature outside he wasn't wearing a full coat, but rather just had the light vest barely covering his chest, that would be deliciously easy to pull off.

Katara would feel the heat of one hand pressed against her water bender rhobes, only to feel the hand press and slide inside of it, pressing hard enough to slightly tug the front of it open, his warm fingers sliding around her side to her bare back, feeling her, his other hand resting precariously closely to her belt... if she doubted that Zuko found her alluring, there wasn't much doubt any more... but perhaps now it was too much... or perhaps for one who had only been in relationships that were restrained, it would be not nearly enough.

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-12 01:03 pm UTC (link)
Katara was on fire, as if her insides were flammable and Zuko had provided the flame to the kindle. She had been alight with heat faster than a grassfire on a dry, hot, summer’s day. She felt so warm that she was surprised she wasn’t sweating, though part of her was glad for that, too, because it might have been a slight mood killer for all she knew.

The release of her wrists only made it possible for her to touch him, to glide her hands over his warm skin, to curl her fingers into his hair. Her lips were on his again in an instant after feeling his breath caress them. She had felt the minor hesitation before she resumed their kiss, but she couldn’t think about that because right now he was pressing even tighter to her, wanting her as much as she wanted him.

It no longer mattered who had begun this. The passion had spread to them both, infecting them like a delicious disease, swelling in them both. Katara could feel heat pooling where she had very rarely, and never this strongly, felt it before.

The waterbender couldn’t recall ever seeing Zuko this passionate with Mai, and she knew Aang had never been this way with her. The Avatar had always been timid, slow, and gentle. Whatever passion he had was too delicate, leaving her unfulfilled.

Katara almost protested when he pulled away, but, before she could, she realized he was jerking her coat up and over her head. She shivered, for her coat had made her feel overheated, but the sudden rush of cooler air around her, though her remaining warm clothing kept her from freezing- along with Zuko’s body heat.

Having acquired a greater freedom of movement now that her coat had been removed from the picture, one of Katara’s hand removed itself from his face to slip down his neck, over his chest, to his well toned abdomen. She had never before been able to touch him like this, and he had never before been able to touch her in this way. In truth, she couldn’t recall anyone touching her this way. No one directed such an unbridled passion on her person, ever.

She trembled when she felt his hand slide around to her back but not from the cold, for his hands were as warm as the rest of him. Katara felt as if she couldn’t get enough of him, as if she wanted- no, needed- more of him, all of him.

However, a tiny sense of doubt, a tickling of fear and uncertainty, began to sift it’s way into her mind. How far was this going to go tonight? Would it lead to the ultimate act of love? Did she even love Zuko enough to go through with that? Her body wanted it, sure, but could her heart handle that- could her head? The waterbender didn’t want any possibilities of regret to waver through her mind the first time she gave herself so completely to someone, but at the same time she was afraid if she stopped what they were doing, she would lose him.

Katara’s heart still pounded rapidly, and her chest rose and fell with heavy breaths, but she knew she had to be true to herself, no matter the cost. Wasn’t that why she was going to leave Aang? Wasn’t that why she had kissed Zuko, returning his passions?

Gently, she pulled her lips from his. “Zuko?” Katara said softly, her breath caressing his lips, but she turned her head a slightly to the side, so he couldn’t just recapture them and resume what they were doing. Her brow furrowed with worry. “Zuko, I think… we should… wait, slow down a little. I’ve never… well… done anything… like this before now, and I’m a little scared. I just… I’m sorry.” She pressed her cheek against his. Her breathing was almost back to normal, but her heart continued it’s fast paced rhythm.

The waterbender slipped her arms around the firebender, embracing him tightly for a moment, hoping he didn’t take this too badly. It wasn’t quite a rejection, after all. She still wanted him, she just wasn’t sure about taking things farther than she was ready to take them, especially on the first night that they had discovered the passion they had for one another.

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-12 07:47 pm UTC (link)
It felt like the waterbender was making him go crazy. In their embrace he could smell her skin, feel the heat of her against him, and for once... once it seemed that as much as he wanted... he was wanted. While Katara might have been having a tingling in her brain about the possibilities of it all, Zuko didn't. As his uncle once pointed out, when it was something that he really wanted, Zuko often rushed in without putting enough thought into it. Zuko had gotten quite a bit better about some things over the years, but his relationship with Mai hadn't exactly been free of it's obstacles, and love was one of the things where the fire bender still had the most to learn, it seemed. None of that seemed to matter with Katara though, in this moment he felt wonderful, unafraid of rejection, free to let his passion blaze as brightly as it wanted to. The fact that they were in a cafe, that someone could walk in and see them only minorly buzzed in his mind. Toph would be the only one he might care about seeing this, and with her feet she would likely be able to see it through any closed doors anyway...

As she pulled from him she would see a look of pure desire and need in his eyes as he stared at her. It was a good thing that she turned her head as well because his lips did seek out her own, even after she called his name... only her turning her head sent out the message that his attentions were no longer wanted. Of course, not exactly the message the water bender was trying to convey, but it was the message that was sent, all the same. The fire bender looked at her like a small animal might if she beat it, the way that he had looked at her when he'd tried to join their team, and she'd come and threatened him after all of the others had accepted him. Confusion, pain, and uncertainty was there... in a single moment the water bender had doused the raging blaze inside of the fire bender and turned the heat of what they'd shared to a frozen iceland.

Not that it was her fault, exactly. She knew about his past... but he was far too proud to ever voice the ways that it affected him. Some of them he didn't even realize himself... like the fact that he was afraid of those he cared for abandoning him. It took years after his mother had left for him not to instinctually keep people at arm's length, even Mai. And even when he let her in, there was something that felt weird about it. Sometimes she would wrap her arms around him and it'd feel so strange... like a foreign custom he didn't know. His father certainly wasn't the hugging type, and he'd rather hug a red bellied porcupine than to try to embrace his sister, Azula. It'd probably be the safer choice, too...

Mai hadn't made things any better. Romance with her had always been cool... and under control. It frustrated him, because it felt like he'd gone back to his days of novice firebending. Especially when he saw others on the streets, kissing and holding hands and wanting one another. It came so easy for them, and for him it felt like it was nothing but work... he didn't know what Mai wanted, and if he made the slightest misstep in what he did or what he said she would soon become as frigid as a water tribe camp. Though Zuko couldn't really be sure of it, he was pretty sure that whatever they did was conditional as well... Mai would let him so far and then stop, seemingly disinterested. When he'd stormed off and fumed about it, Azula had caught him once, and given him some advice that, as was typical with Azula, didn't help in the slightest.

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-12 07:48 pm UTC (link)
'Oh Zuzu, girls aren't interested in making out. We've got way more important things on our minds...' she'd said, the edge biting into her voice as she looked at him as if he were stupid. 'If you want a girl to get... physical... you've got to learn to play by her rules. Give her what she wants, when she wants it... and maybe, if you're lucky, at the end of the day you'll get something...' She'd walked off with her token smirk, leaving Zuko scowling in disbelief.

And despite the water bender's smile, suddenly Zuko felt like he was right back with Mai, desperately thrashing because he didn't understand what it was that she wanted, and had no idea why it was that she didn't want him as much as he wanted her. He'd started to back away from her as she threw her arms around him, which caused him to pause, uncertain. She'd feel it in her hug, the looseness of his body that was there when he'd slid against her now replaced by something rigid, uncertain... as if his body was expecting that she might find some way of attacking him in the embrace.

"Okay..." Zuko said, softly, looking down, sliding his arms away from her and then gently putting his hands at her waist, not even holding her as he had a moment ago. He just waited for her to let go of him at that point... mentally hoping that it was quick, because as his body cooled the icy realization of what he'd done dawned heavily on him. He'd betrayed his friends, all of his friends... for something that he thought was there... but it was turning out just like things had with Mai... What he wouldn't give for Uncle Iroh and some tea, right about now...

As she let him go, he scratched the back of his head and looked away from her. This wasn't the Zuko that she knew, this was the awkward Zuko that had poorly tried to explain himself in front of the Western Air temple, who'd stumbled over his words... and was uncertain of himself. It would be a bit horrific to think of, but in a way she'd reduced the Fire Lord to the same sort of nervousness she'd hated in the Avatar. "So..." he said, trailing off a little.

"It's kind of late... you know... I should probably walk you back to your place... and... find out where Toph lives, so I can apologize tomorrow..." he said, not really knowing what to say now.

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-12 11:39 pm UTC (link)
Katara couldn’t look at him as she pulled away. She knew that the hunger and need in his eyes would drive away the last of her will not to do this so suddenly. The waterbender also knew that she didn’t want to see the hurt in his eyes when she denied him the harvest their actions had cultivated. She was terrified that doing this would make it so she would lose, not only any shred of romance they might have shared but also the friendship they had together. The former would never be as hard to bear as the latter, but she couldn’t just allow something to happen when she wasn’t sure she wouldn’t feel regrets.

The waterbender really had no idea that the Fire Lord had abandonment issues. She only knew that when he was very young, his mother had had to leave after she had committed treason in order to protect her son. She also knew that he had been desperately afraid his uncle would not forgive him after the incident at Ba Sing Se. Katara had never met the man except for seeing him when he arrived with Aang to save his nephew and the Water Tribe girl. Then she had seen him again as he fended off the Dai Lee so she could escape with Aang. From that and the things she had been told by all of them about Iroh, she knew he could be a forgiving man. If Katara could forgive Zuko, his uncle surely would do the same.

She hadn’t wanted to, in the end, be like Mai had in his relationship with her, but how could she just spread her legs and take it when she’d only just discovered he felt passionately about him, when she had only just realized that she probably had liked him after all of these years, but hadn’t released it until now, when it was possible because neither Aang nor Mai were here to make things difficult? Zuko was as new to her now as the passion that spilled over from him into her. Never before with anyone had she ever felt such intense desire, so it was obvious that she’d never before committed to the ultimate act of love. Unlike Zuko, she thought things through as best she could. Right now she half wished she didn’t, but she wasn’t the floozy that- unbeknownst to the waterbender- Meng had jealously dubbed her ((at least Katara hoped she wasn’t one)).

When Zuko pulled his arms away from her, only his hands remained lightly at her waist, and she could feel the stiffness in his person. It made Katara wish she could call back the words and just… go through with it. At least he would be happy, and just because she wasn’t certain she wouldn’t regret it, didn’t mean there was a chance she might feel happy about it, too.

Her sapphire optics stole a glance at his face when she retracted from their- or rather, her- embrace. Beautiful as it was, it showed the hurt and discomfort the situation had caused, what she had caused. She couldn’t take it back, though. What was done was done. She could only try her best not to lose him altogether.

“I guess you’re right.” She said softly as she adjusted her robes, and found her coat that had been tossed aside. Katara pulled it back over her head, and she straightened out her hair a bit. The fact that he was willing to actually walk her there rather than just leave gave her hope. Remembering the water that had soaked into their clothing when she replaced her coat, she bent the water out of the fabrics and sent it over to be deposited into the sink from whence it had originally come anyway.

She couldn’t think of anything to say to him while they walked, eventually ending up outside, headed toward building E. She knew the way well after three weeks, and she sort of led. It occurred to her only once they’d started out into the cold that Zuko wasn’t wearing anything nearly warm enough. Fire Nation clothing tended to be lighter and thinner, most likely because it was an warm series of islands. She decided she would give him a warm shirt or a coat before he had to trek back toward residential unit A on the other side of the main building. For now, she walked close to him to try to keep him at least a little warmer than he might have been otherwise. The other reason behind that could have been the selfish reason that she wanted him close to her, too.

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-12 11:39 pm UTC (link)
When they arrived in front of room E one oh four, Katara slipped the key from her pocket and into the lock. Just as she cracked the door open she turned to Zuko, blue optics studying his face. “I still need to finish healing your foot, and don’t give me that excuse that you don’t need me to heal it. After tonight your foot will be as good as if the wound had never been there. I’m sure you don’t want to keep the wound for sentimental reasons, either.” Her voice had a bit of a demanding tone with the slightest touch of a sharp edge to it. He might as well just let her heal him. “Besides, you need a coat before you go back outside anyway, so you should just come in.”

Katara pushed the door open and stepped inside, holding the pelt that covered the door from the inside aside, waiting for him decide. She hoped he would at least try to be reasonable. She didn’t want to have to fight about this. Her heart continued to flutter any time her thoughts wandered toward what they had done earlier, and she knew a slight blush tinted her cheeks a rosy colour every time she felt her heart quicken.

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-13 12:19 am UTC (link)
To say that things felt awkward now, would be like saying that Azula was a little twisted.

Zuko noted the way she avoided his gaze, which only made him feel worse about the whole damned thing. Why did girls have to be so confusing anyway? Why couldn't they just... make sense? It seemed like they purposely decided to be mysterious and make things as difficult as they absolutely had to, all of the time. Was it too much to ask to have a girl who was straightforward with how she felt and not confusing as hell day in and day out? Zuko was beginning to wonder if he shouldn't have tried to make a move on Ty Lee... she was about as honest as they came... but not so much with the intelligence or wit... that and she grated on his nerves like sand paper. Maybe he was just really... awful at relationships... that seemed to fit, as dismal as it sounded.

He held the door open for her as they walked out, noting that there was really nothing to say between them anymore. As Katara strayed closer to him, he kept the distance between them. And if she looked now and again she would see steam rising off of him. Iroh had taught him several advanced tricks in their time together, and one of them was how to bend fire through his entire body, rather than just his hands. It'd come in handy when Katara had frozen him in a solid chunk of ice during their fight at the North Pole. Given that he could melt a solid block of ice around himself he didn't bother to even worry about the cold, and if Katara had mentioned being worried about it he would have snickered lightly. He could keep himself warm enough, it'd just take more energy. What worried him though was that his energy wasn't coming from the pure source, but rather the anger inside of him. Probably because he'd thought he was the person he WAS, not the person he'd become... but switching energies... didn't happen overnight. Right now though, it was pretty easy to be angry at himself... so he didn't worry about it too much.

Zuko looked away from her as she stood in her doorway, staring at him. He didn't really know what there was to say. 'Gee, I'm sorry I was stupid, again, betrayed you all... again... and you didn't even really like me that much?' A frown spread to the corners of his mouth but didn't really blossom into anything that was visible one way or another. Even so, Katara had spent enough time around him to know when he wasn't happy, and there wasn't an ounce of doubt that what he was feeling right now was anything close to happiness at all. He really just wished that he could get this over with, so that he could go back and... do... something. He wondered if anyone here knew how to play Pai Sho. Ever since he'd become fire lord and had taken to visiting his uncle, he'd been trying to learn the game... something about the idea of playing it... seemed, comforting right now. Once step closer to Iroh, he supposed.

"I'll be fine, Katara..." He said, almost a little too harshly, starting to turn away when he caught the look in her eyes. It looked to him like she wasn't going to take 'no' for an answer on this one, regardless of how awkward he felt. This time though, her inner fire didn't really seem the slightest bit attractive at all. Sighing a little, he stepped past her into her room.

"Fine..." he said, sounding about as enthusiastic about it as if she'd invited him into a vat of prickle snakes.
Zuko stared at the tent that made up her room in silence. It was a water tribe tent, and it made him feel instantly uncomfortable.

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-13 12:19 am UTC (link)
Despite the peace that he had helped usher in throughout the land, Zuko had never returned to the water tribes. He'd always been busy enough to excuse himself from visiting them, but the truth was deep down he knew they didn't want him there. He'd come as a conquerer each time he'd been to either of the major water tribe villages, and even though he knew that they would welcome him, there would be that look in the people's eyes... some scars, like the one on his face, never healed properly, and like Katara, he'd begun to realize that like Katara, many people associated the attrocities of what the fire nation did with the title of 'fire lord'. He remembered the earth kingdom village, and how they'd looked at him when they realized he was fire nation... it wasn't something he particularly wanted to repeat.

Still, he reminded himself, this wasn't the water tribe village. It was just a room. Sighing a little he walked in and lightly lowered himself onto one of the furs, slipping off his shoe and then crossing his arms lightly so Katara could work her magic. The sooner she was done with it, the sooner he could be out of here...

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-13 06:44 pm UTC (link)
Katara deserved this. She knew she did. She was beginning to wonder more and more if she hadn’t ended up making the wrong decision. Perhaps she should have just gone through with it. Would it have only made things worse in the long run, though? He wouldn’t allow her to stray to near to him, and her eyes did detect the steam radiating from his skin in her peripheral vision.

The waterbender found herself wondering how upset he was. It was obvious through the time they’d known each other that he was definitely not happy, but the group had split up to do their own things once peace had been restored. Aang and Katara had gone to the Earth Kingdom to help villages recover after a visit back to the Southern Water Tribe to see Gran Gran and to see how much things had improved. Sokka had stayed in the South Pole a little longer than Katara and Aang before going to Kyoshi Island to see Suki before Toph, Sokka, Katara, Aang, and the Kyoshi Warriors ((including Ty Lee)) all grouped up to help the recovering villages. Zuko had taken his position as Fire Lord with Mai at his side. Though it had seemed strange that they had never married, Katara had never realized it was because they were having problems.

In reality, the waterbender hadn’t seen Zuko in almost year before she and Aang went to the Fire Nation capitol to gather more of the supplies the Fire Nation was providing to help in their effort to repair the damage that had been done. They had picked up in their friendship right where they had left off, but Katara felt like she didn’t know him nearly as well as she once had. Was he even the same person any more? Yes, of course he was, though age had matured them all. It was just a little harder for her to remember the degrees of anger that simmered within him when he was feeling less than joyful. It was obvious that, however badly he felt, it was horrible, though. He had a very expressive face.

Katara didn’t smile when he agreed to allow her to heal him. She only stepped aside to allow him to enter, and she closed the door behind him. Before doing anything else, she set about rekindling the fire in the center of her room. The wood was always restocked right in the fire pit every time she came into her room, even if she hadn’t had the fire burning all that long. She got to her knees and struck the flint rocks so the sparks would fall on the dry wood and ignite with a bit of urging. It took almost no effort, and she knew that the Planet must be making it easier on her. She didn’t mind, though, because she could tell Zuko didn’t want to be here.

She disappeared through a door to enter the bathroom where her main source of water happened to be, and she bent the water into a little bowl that had popped up. She took that bowl back into the main room and sat upon one of the pelts in front of Zuko’s foot. With a wave of her hand, the water streamed out from the bowl to envelop his wounded foot, the water entering into the wound with its characteristically blue glow. It was healing quite nicely, and there shouldn’t be a scar by the time she finished.

Now that he was willingly permitting her to help him, she wasn’t as hasty about this. She allowed her qi to extend from herself into him, using the water as a guide. She could feel him healing easily, and she could see it with her own eyes as she helped the skin repair itself and work to seal up the wound. It had been much worse on that first night, and, as little as she had helped his foot at that point, it hadn’t been difficult to fall into step with the healing process again. She didn’t speak as she worked because she wanted to make sure he healed just right. She wanted to make sure there wasn’t a scar. The reminder of the battle between Toph and Zuko that day would be nothing more than a memory to fade to the back of the mind without a visual reminder to bring it to the forefront of his mind.

In all, it probably took ten minutes to finish the healing process she and his natural body had begun. She had healed him like a pro, but she had been gentle and focused about it like someone who truly cared about her friend’s well-being. She streamed the water back into the bowl, rather than allow it to drip onto the pelt. Wet fur really wasn’t very comfortable upon which to lie.

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-13 06:45 pm UTC (link)
Her teeth captured her lower lip for a moment, nibbling the flesh nervously as she set the bowl aside. “Zuko,” Katara said at last. “I know it probably seems like I only did what I did tonight on a whim, and, at first, maybe it was just a whim, but I realized that I really do like you.” Her gaze flicked up to his face, judging his reaction. “I only stopped because… well… I’ve never done what it… felt like we were leading up to doing, and I’m not sure that I’m ready to go that far yet.” A deeper blush tinted her cheeks.

Katara was all too aware that he probably continued to feel like what had happened was a betrayal, not only to those involved, but to those who were linked to them both. She didn’t know how to make that better for him. She wasn’t sure how to soothe whatever pain he might be feeling.

“Even if you decide that your actions were just a bundle of hormones controlling you…” This was harder to say than that with which she had begun speaking. “If you realize you really don’t… want to be with me… I don’t want tonight to have made it impossible for us to resume our friendship. I don’t want to lose you altogether.” Katara’s jaw clenched and her eyes looked away. She wasn’t sure she wanted to see his face if he really did decide he didn’t want her after all. It had been hard enough when he had told her he couldn’t do it in the first place, but, after he had seemingly decided he could, she had been the only to reiterate that she couldn’t go through with it, though she had meant sex rather than anything at all.

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-13 09:15 pm UTC (link)
Zuko had an expressive face, but he was just as observant as he was expressive, at times. He noticed the fact that Katara didn't smile, and felt a surge of anger and humiliation run through him as he walked into the hut, or room, or whatever it was. If she wasn't happy that he was coming in then why did she look so demanding? He half wanted to get up and walk out, but he knew that then she would insist that he stay. This was starting to feel EXACTLY like it did with Mai. She wasn't happy when he did what she wanted, and she wasn't happy if he didn't What the hell was he supposed to do then? How was he supposed to know WHAT to do, if she wasn't happy either way?!?! So rather than break the silence, Zuko tightened his arms as they were crossed and stared at a little roll of... well, something. He didn't really know what it was, as he was woefully not brushed up on his Water Tribe culture.

When Katara went to start the fire, it started easily but she would notice it flared to life almost too quickly, responding to the foul waves of energy coming from the young firebender. He was in a foul mood, and the fire was perhaps the most telltale gauge of it, for it burned hot, but not out of control, a slow blazing fury that could be seen as the fire light reflected in his eyes. He didn't follow her with his gaze as she walked into another room of the tent, which could have been taken as a sign of trust, but it looked more like a sign of apathy. He was clearly angry, and as she sat in front of him he looked away at something else... anything else other than her. The water was cold on his foot and she would hear him breath softly, just a slight showing of the initial shock, but then forced himself to show nothing as she worked her skill upon his foot.

He stared down at it once she was done, admiring the work a little. There had been a few water bender healers who had moved to the fire nation in the interests of seeing new lands, but most of them did it for purely diplomatic purposes, and didn't stay long. The fire nation had gotten good, very good at medicine during the war, having had to learn how to patch up it's injured soldiers... but there was no substitute for the healing that water bending could provide. Even so, the old prejudices held strong... fire nation didn't trust those from the water tribe, and rarely got along with them. Likewise, there were too many horrors that the fire nation had done to the water tribe to have it ever be forgotten by those.

"Thanks." he said softly, his voice betraying the genuine gratitude there, but also the fact that he had no idea what else he could really say to her at this point. They were in the same tent but it felt like she was on the other side of the world from him.

"I get it..." he said icily as she tried to explain herself to him, though it was false. He didn't understand what she meant at all... Zuko thought that he did though. "Mai used to do the same thing..." he said, breaking the cardinal rule of never comparing a girl you like to your ex. Or current girlfriend, he hadn't really decided what she was... no, he had to think of her as his ex now... because regardless of what happened with the water bender, he'd burned that bridge completely to the ground at this point. "You think you know what you want one moment, and then you change your mind..." the last part came with a biting sense of sarcasm that betrayed the fact that his previous girlfriend had toyed with him quite a bit.

"It wasn't a bundle of hormones for me... but it doesn't matter." Zuko said with some finality as he finished standing, and started to head towards the door. He was tired of the bullshit and the games. But most of all it felt... exactly like it did at the Ember Island beach, when he'd wandered along it after Mai had broken up with him... at that moment where Azula, Mai, and Ty Lee had all looked at him so accusingly and kept asking him who he was really mad at... now, unlike then, he knew the answer to that question... but what he didn't know... was what was right, and what was wrong... even then, he'd had some small moral compass. Now, he just didn't have a clue.

"We can still be friends." he said flatly as he started to head for the door. "Goodnight Katara."

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[info]k_waterbender
2008-11-16 08:34 pm UTC (link)
Katara didn’t really have a reason to smile. It would have only looked as if she was mocking him if she tried. He was upset, and that much was obvious to her. Why should she smile when she knew she was the reason he was unhappy? His unhappiness made her question her own judgment, and that only served to make her even less likely to smile. Why should something like sex be such a big deal? Why should it anger Zuko so much, and why should it make them both feel so horrible? It was sex!

Her sapphire gaze did not drift to his as she worked. She concentrated on the healing process only. This enabled her to regain a sense of calm, and she cleared her mind of worrying thoughts that mind hamper the healing she provided for his foot. The soft sigh that left his lips did not go undetected, and it soothed her mind further. He wasn’t above reacting at least to that, and his sigh hadn’t held anger, just surprise, as far as she was concerned.

Katara almost smiled when he thanked her, but she refrained. He may have been grateful, but he was still upset, and he still didn’t know what to say. Instead, she tried to speak, to explain herself, but that didn’t seem to lead anywhere good either. Suddenly the ice had returned to his voice, and she felt herself despairing again. Hurt washed over her face when he so readily compared the waterbender to the knife-wielding future Fire Lady- or so she had thought the woman would become. She actually showed her emotions. She actually enjoyed life. She actually felt something. How could Zuko compare the two of them?

“I never changed my mind! I never thought I was ready for that! I’d never even experienced a real desire to do that before you… before we… kissed. It just all happened so fast that I hardly had any time to really react, let alone think it through!” She was angry, and her words sounded angry.

Katara’s jaw clenched, and she turned her head away, her gaze away, from Zuko. His words rang with finality, and she felt her eyes well with tears, but she couldn’t say whether they were from hurt or anger- perhaps both. She felt a painful twisting in her gut when he said they could still be friends. Yes, she didn’t want to lose him altogether. She wanted to have him as a friend if nothing else, but the way he said it made it obvious there would be nothing else, nor any attempt at it. It hurt, but it also made her angry. Was all of this really because she wouldn’t sleep with him?

“Is sex all you even care about!” She shouted, her brows cinching as she looked up to stare at his back. She moved to stand on her feet. “You won’t even pass a second glance because I won’t spread my legs and let you take me?” She was furious, but her voice was also a dead giveaway that she was hurting. She fought back tears. “I can’t believe that’s all you would want out of a woman! I’m not sure I’m ready to just hop into your bed, and you couldn’t care less. I thought you said it wasn’t just a bunch of hormones for you!”

In all of the years she had known him, he had seemed a lot deeper. Had time turned him so shallow? She really hadn’t gotten a chance to really talk to him when she and Aang visited. She’d seen him, and they’d greeted one another warmly enough, but it was so hard to really hang out with him. He was so busy, and the Avatar and the Waterbender had been there mostly for the business of organizing resources to send to the Earth Kingdom villages.

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[info]fire_lord_zuko
2008-11-16 09:51 pm UTC (link)
She'd done a wonderful job on his foot, it felt almost as good as new... if only what Zuko was feeling inside felt as good. But it didn't, it rather felt like Katara had drived a cold dagger into the center of his chest and then twisted it. He really just wanted to leave at this point. He'd said his peace, he'd let the water bender know how it was that he felt, but even as he put his hand on the door he could tell that she wasn't going to let him go until she got out what she needed to say. Internally he winced at it, because he knew well enough the sort of thing that it would be. Something making this about him, and what was wrong with him. Mai would do the same thing, tell him that he was either hot or cold, but never anything in between...

And then the words came. Katara weilded them as deftly and as sharply as she did blades of ice, and with his back turned to her, Zuko's eyes closed tight as he took a slow deep breath, and endured. Fire wasn't really much of an enduring element, it was instead the earth benders who were the calm ones, steady and unmoving like a piece of granite. However, Iroh, in his later teachings had tried to instill the fact that there was some of each element in all of them. Even though he was a fire bender, he was not simply made of fire, but of all of the elements. And if there was one thing that Zuko did, better than anyone, even most earth benders, it was figure out a way to endure, for his life hadn't given him much choice on the matter.

Even so, he could feel his temper starting to eat away at him as she pelted him with hurtful word after hurtful word was slung from the water bender's mouth. Was that what she really thought of him? That he'd just want some girl to... just spread her legs for him? Even vocalizing it in his mind made him feel dirty to be thinking about it. Without realizing he was doing it, Zuko's hands slowly became fists, gripping tighter and tighter with each word that she said, even though he didn't say anything in response to it. Why should he? He'd already said that it wasn't just about hormones for him, and yet here she was treating him like she thought he'd somehow betrayed her all over again in Ba Sing Se...

Maybe... maybe deep down that's what she had been expecting all along.

True, the two of them had patched up their differences, but even afterwards, they'd never been terribly close. She'd forgiven him, started treating him like he was more than just a burden on their team, more than a spoiled brat prince... but... he'd never asked what she'd really thought of him. The fact that she was willing to treat him mildly human had been enough that he'd not really thought about it. Now that he was though, what was to say that the water bender didn't always think of him like this? Some stupid self centered fire nation royalty who just thought he could get girls into the sack easily... he hadn't even been planning on that, and here she was treating him almost like she was surprised he wasn't trying to force himself on her.

Then as she said he couldn't care less... something broke. Her last words were drown out by the fire in the center of her tent suddenly exploding into a geyser of flame, not enough to burn her, but it blazed violently enough that she would feel the heat threatening to lightly burn the exposed areas of skin if she didn't take a few steps back from it. It stretched to the roof and easily would have set it ablaze were it not for the fact that this was controlled by the planet, and ultimately it made sure that her house wasn't burned down.

Without a word Zuko opened the door and stormed out, slamming it behind him. Only then did the fire die down, to small glowing embers, barely lighting the water tribe girl's room.

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