Joahan.
You need justice to make your hopes a reality. Then, what will ground you this time, Badr?
That can be of use. You shouldn't have snuck around if you were just planning that. Anyway, I think a permanent solution will be a hard choice even if it's a different hard choice than the ones I've made.
When Itzal used his soul to forge the Crystal, he split his magical energy and soul in many pieces that combined with the will of the world became the guardians as you know them now. Of course, a thousand of years has changed them, and I don't really think of them as a part of me-- anyway, his heart and memories were inside of the Crystal of Darkness. The world's unbalance made my soul reincarnate, I think, but I know precious little of what happened before I was born again. Maybe it was an evil plot, maybe it was the will of the world. I have no ways of knowing.
In any case, I made the seal in an attempt to protect you so you could have a life of happiness here. I... Suppose that things didn't turn out quite as we planned, but it was our only choice.