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Alma, I don't know how many more times I can say this... You're completely right. They didn't care. And the things they did to you were terrible. I would never tell you that you should go back to them.
But you keep making it about the Order when I'm only talking about myself. Lenalee and Lavi and I are no more "the Order" than Kanda is. The Order doesn't dictate who we are or what we think. And whether or not the Order is good has nothing to do with whether or not Exorcists killing akuma is good.
I don't care about the Order. I care about people. Including you. That's how almost everyone feels.