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[SOBS That's why he's here. He knows he can't do it alone and every single time something happens, he blames himself. Though he is the only one not required to have a partner, he still does. Even if it's just to keep an eye on him and make sure he's trustworthy. Not even his own hunters trust him, waiting for him to lose control and betray them.]
That's what I wanted to talk to you about. Pulling a smaller group together that have experience dealing with these things and getting them organized a little tighter so these type of things can hopefully be prevented instead of trying to constantly do clean up after.
There are eleven vampires and only one of me. When it was three...four...five, it was easy. I could monitor them all. Keep an eye on little things like who or what they were drinking, how often they partook, observe their interaction with others and those closest to them. I know it's my fault for not asking for help sooner. I've let things get by and because of that someone like Conrad has paid the price. I just...I can't do this alone. More keep coming and I'm the only one monitoring their behavior and I can't be everywhere at once.