[when Subaru hears that, it feels a little like his stomach has dropped out of his body. He went a little cold, looking back down and hugging his knees tighter before nodding a little to show that he understood. He didn't, really-- he knew Seishirou-san, didn't he? But-- maybe he didn't. He loved Seishirou-san, he realized that, but it seemed like-- it seemed like everyone knew things he didn't, and...]