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That's selfish, isn't it? That person could have lived, if you decided to do something differently. Some people might think that you did the wrong thing, since you chose to take both of your lives, rather than save one or the other. They could hate you for it.
But your intention wasn't based on the desire to hurt people, was it? You were just doing what you thought would be best, even though you had no way of knowing what the person dear to you truly wanted.