[ Yes. yes, yes. She did. She didn't want to die -- not like this, never like this -- she thought that she could handle herself but somehow things ended up -- ]
[ Why couldn't she be stronger? Why did she have to feel so useless? Everything, everyone, she hated everything. Standing on the precipice like this is making the memories rush over her. ]
[ She hated Marina, hated the First for having left without her, hated Shinji for being so sympathetic for no stupid reason, hated the blood trickling down her arm, the cut on her cheek, Acumen for not saving them, herself for not saving herself -- and especially the guy standing above her and smirking -- ]