[ ...it's difficult to describe, this sensation; ordinarily, he knows he would have felt nothing at all, but now he has... just the oddest feeling, as if he briefly lost track of the clock. he doesn't consciously remember anything, but he feels the hole in a way he wouldn't have before.
and when things come back into sharp focus, Suzaku goes very still, staring at the barrel of, yes, his own gun. he feels Lelouch's geass rising up like a wall in that unguarded moment -- but it's not difficult to stop the reaction. he isn't, has never been, afraid of guns.