[ Not to disrespect Conrad in any way, but he has to scoff at that. ] I have never met such a person. I do not believe such a title is befitting anyone who was embroiled in the conflicts from home. [ He certainly didn't delude himself into thinking it ever applied to him. His role was minuscule at best, but the impact for him was everlasting. ]
[ He sighed, putting a hand to his face. This was giving him such a headache, both literally and figuratively. ] Every time I try to think back on what treason I have committed, my mind is blank. I do not know if this regression is natural -- or a result of whatever influence was placed upon me -- but it always troubles me.
I only wish to be rid of this. Is such a request selfish? [ He looks to Conrad, not expecting him to necessarily understand, but at least offer him some input. All this working with only his own views and opinions cannot be healthy, but he cannot stop what is already in motion. ]