[Setsuna paused and then slowly turned to face Neil, letting him see this hurt him as much as it was hurting Neil. He wasn't like the others, to understand his emotions. He had been trained to shut them down, to be the perfect little soldier. That emotions were nothing but hinderances and to place his faith in a God he came to realize did not exist, had abandoned them at the crucial moment.
He wanted Neil to be happy. He did. But it was hard for him to articulate that and still make the other understand that though he wanted that happiness, he could simply not accept someone that, to him, would become transient. Because he knew one day he would go back.
Even more, it was hard for Setsuna to understand that beyond CB there was life. He could not find it, but he knew that Lockon would not and could not cling to what had once been. He knew that and had come to terms with that. But neither could Neil expect Setsuna to cast his own ties aside, because he still had work to do, and neither could he expect Setsuna to blindly accept Lacus. Setsuna need time, and lots of it. Ali had shattered the natural trust a child would have in people, and as an adult, it remain fragmented and buried.
This felt like Neil was digging it up and breaking it. It was a cruel dig the other had just made, even if Setsuna didn't understand it as such and took it more as a slap - again.]
We're both moving forward, in our own ways.
[Somehow, he knew that and managed to say it.]
I see now yours just no longer includes us.
[And he knew it shouldn't. Lockon... Neil was dead. And this... he wanted to keep the image of the man he knew, and it was hard seeing that changed. He had wanted Neil to stay the same, the man from his memories that had been a strong stone in the CB organization. He knew he couldn't do that anymore, and maybe this... was for the best that way.]