[That, and Jun has gone through so much that the magic mantra of 'everything will be alright' is stuck on permanent loop in his head. This applies to everything, Allen. EVERYTHING.]
...I remember reading in novels--really bad pulp novels, about a spies and some such, before I knew any better. They claimed...it got easier, after the first time.
...It never does. Doesn't matter that it was mostly demons, during the Lockdown. So while I'm here, if I don't have to kill anyone else...I'd like that.