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[--But then it grows, still deep, though, until it sounds almost...maniacal. Axel doesn't have words to express what he thinks or "feels" anymore. This whole charade, what makes him him, or not so, has taken all that and then some on Axel's body and mind. He's tired of being tired of this and tired of that, him, her, them, but most of all Axel...is tired of pretending. But can he break away from that? No.
No. What false emotions he's made up for himself are all he has to live by. He doesn't have his occupation, he doesn't have his world, no heart, no clock tower, no Lea, Sora, Isa--Sometimes Axel wonders if maybe, just maybe, what he's made with Xion and Roxas are just as fake as the rest of him.
Lost not only outside but inside, Axel doesn't frown and he doesn't complain. All he does is laugh and smile...because faking it is all he can do.]