[studying Kaname carefully (but not too carefully, because that attractiveness is not at all dampened by anger), Conrad nods in return as Kaname sits. He hesitates, all his fears about discussing this returning again, but he offered to trust, and if he wishes to keep their cordial relationship, he must keep his word.]
Road targeted me because Lavi warned me about her and I believed him. He's...[well, what was he anymore?] He's a friend. She stabbed Lavi in retaliation and when I confronted her she told me that if I went to see her, she wouldn't hurt anyone else. And I went. Lavi warned me of the danger, but I couldn't refuse the chance.
She spun her illusion around me so flawlessly. It was perfectly real, how alive they were, how solid, just the same as in life. I couldn't tell the difference. Julia had that same scent about her, and Vash's eyes shone just like always. Yuuri's hand was just as gentle against my arm. [he looks down, swallowing but forcing himself to say the rest.]
Julia was first. Then I had to choose between Vash or my little brother. And then... [can't say his name this time, please let Kaname understand that.] I couldn't stop it, I couldn't help them. She made me watch them all burn.