It doesn't matter. [the smoke hangs heavy in the shut up room, stifling as Ritsuka breathes it in.] Soubi. I don't want to avoid this anymore. [frustration squeezes tight in Ritsuka's chest, and tears prickle his eyes as he speaks] I know you're lying to me. And I thought I was okay with that, so I tried not to push you, but something happened to you, and it must have happened to the Ritsuka you know too, and you won't tell me, and it feels like someone took my memories all over again, and I hate it. [he swallows back his tears over the lump in his throat, and his voice breaks when he speaks again] Why won't you tell me?