[He could tell. All of this must have been too much for her. He wanted to spare her from seeing him in this state…]
…Mommy did it. She died this way too. She didn't stay with me. I…I have to do the same thing, neechan. [He gripped a little tighter in the hug]
I don't know if I'm scared…but…I just feel like…like I know that I want to do this…its so strange…
[Releasing her, he took a few steps back and looked at her briefly before turning away. He didn't think he'd be able to face her with what he was thinking.]
If I use my isolation, then you won't have to see me when I… [he wiped at his face] …when I die.