She never died. [Only she did, but he doesn't know that yet.] She was in Paris all along. Hidden... kept safe from the man who tried to kill her in the first place. JJ and Hotch arranged it - they knew all along and I... I came to JJ's house for ten weeks straight, mourning the loss of a friend and I never once noticed that something was wrong.
[He can't blame JJ anymore. He did, and maybe he still wants to a little, but he can't.]