not everything is gonna be the way you think it ought to be;
[ wesley had been content with death -- ghost wesley, his constant companion in hell. at least, it seemed that way. maybe the ex-watcher had been pretending he was okay with it for angel's benefit, to make what needed to be done a little easier, but there hadn't been much time to debate wes' sincerity before he went and tricked gunn into beheading him in order to reset time.
the what-ifs were going to kill him before anyone wielding a freshly-sharpened stake did. ]
I don't know. [ honestly. new. at least he's giving it a shot instead of clamming up and shutting everyone out? an angel who pushes people away and tries to deal with his shit by himself leads to the kind of man he became after wolfram & hart had dru resire darla. he doesn't want to be that person again. ] ...no. I'm not, but I will be. Eventually.