[private]
I feel...okay. [She laughs a little.] Meaningful answer, huh?
[She pauses for a minute.] Last time we were apart for weeks and then, I don't know, I missed him and Cross was giving me this look and I just... [She shakes her head.] I was an idiot.
Now he's pissed at me which is...helpful in that dangerous kind of way. And I feel like I'm in a different place. [Which is going to get different-er by the time the night is over.]
I want to start trusting myself again. [Which is definitely not all about Tyki. Her students. Piotr.] I'm working on it.
Maybe someday you'll trust me again too. [Because she didn't miss that things were different.]