[Helix was incredibly upset, beating himself up for being so incapable of being around people or handling them. He wracked his brain over everything, trying to understand where he went wrong or what he could do. But he couldn't make heads or tails of it. He couldn't find answers and just ended up frustrating himself even more for being so stupid.
And then He heard Aidan leave and he was so sure that that was it. Aidan couldn't stand him anymore, couldn't put up with his shit and just left him for good. He could only think the worst because this really feel like everything blew up in his face. He'd never seen Aidan so angry before.
He said he wasn't. But he so clearly was. Did he honestly lie to him?
He'd tried what he could, was honest, tried to explain, tried to get Aidan to understand but he couldn't. He just made him mad again. It was all his fault. Everything was his fault and he was destroying the relationship before it even got started.
He let him go. What could he do? He deserved it for being such an asshole. Or at least that's what he thought.
So hours later he really wasn't expecting that door to open again. His heart near jumped into his throat when he heard Aidan wandering around the kitchen. The relief he felt was indescribable but his heart ached so much he almost broke down into tears again. He was shaking, confused, he didn't know what to do about all of this. He really felt helpless.
So when he was offered food it took a good long while for him to even find words. But he lost his appetite, he felt so sick to his stomach.]
I'm... not hungry.
[It was a good thing he was still so close to the door because there was barely anything to his voice. He was too scared. Too scared to screw this up more by opening his mouth. There was no hiding how upset he was.
He waited in silence, listening for movement or anything on the other side of that door. It wasn't until Aidan made a move to leave that he spoke up, desperate not to let the other get too far away.]
I'm such an incredible fuck up. [A period of silence just to be able to breath. Trying to hold it all in so he would make as much noise while he cried.]