[It is a relief to know that she isn't weird--or at least not that weird--for falling in love with two people, but at the same time, the whole situation is more and more heart-rending. She wonders if perhaps AR had the correct approach the entire time and she messed it up by not controlling herself better.]
[Miserably.] It could. It might be the only way... Even so, it really isn't easy at all, is it...