[he's alive. but it's no different -- it's no different than Master, he's here but there's nothing left to go back to, oh God, there really isn't anymore. it's too hard]
[he lowers his head, the tears spilling down his cheeks but he's barely even aware of them]
...Don't go. [choking on even those simple words; they feel torn out of him] You can't leave me again.