[The lock on the door barely has time to click into place before he crumbles, silent tremors grabbing firm hold of his body. It's not just this, this is just the latest thing in a long string of events that he never got a chance to process properly but the metaphorical cup has finally been filled passed the brim and now he can't stop crying.
He stumbles into the dark room, finding his way to the foot of the bed by whatever light that shines in through the window. Once there he sinks to the floor, back pressed against the wall and head bowed between his knees and then he just lets go, fingers twisting in his hair.
He's scared. He's scared and alone, a million miles from home and it's only just now starting to sink in. What he's done. What he got himself involved with. The possibility that he may have put way too much faith in Helix, that no matter how much you want something the world isn't that easy to change. That he won't see his mom again, ever. Won't even get to call her or send her a letter, won't get to tell her he's alright. That he's sorry.
That he's no longer sure if it was worth it.
After what feels like hours, but probably is something closer to minutes, he claws his way back to the surface, stubbornly sniffling and wiping furiously at his eyes. Enough. He may have needed that but crying isn't going to change anything. It's not going to fix anything and although he's not sure if he's capable of sorting this mess out he should at least stop bawling about it.
And change his clothes. Too much snot.
It's around now that he realizes that he left his backpack out by the door, and as much as he'd like to just stay in there until morning and sleep the whole thing off he knows that's not an option. At the very least he should go get his things, and whatever happens between here and there... that's up to fate.
And so Aidan sneaks out into the living room again, door creaking some on its hinges. He doesn't need a mirror to know he looks a mess, eyes puffy and cheeks flushed and so he bows his head and slinks off, despite being fully aware that Helix is right there on the couch. It's cowardly, but it's all he can handle right now.]