"Because I don't--" Deserve it. "You just shouldn't."
It was hard to say why this was such a hard concept for him to wrap his mind around. This was a repeat of when Aidan tried to get through to him and help him. He just didn't know how to handle it at all. People always turned a blind eye, no one ever once gave him a second glance on the street. No one cared. Some would stare, sure, some would ask but they were being nosy or just wanted something out of it. He was used to selfish people, not selfless people. He certainly didn't want sympathy or pity. In the end it was just easier to be ignored.
But when someone showed genuine concern. When someone gave him kindness and really wanted to help him... it just felt so fake. Part of him wondered what they'd really get out of it, what they'd want from him in return. He definitely didn't want to owe any debts. It was so easy to assume it was false because no one wanted to help him... usually.
Until now. Until he met a few people in Marina and Aidan had started it all before then. It still spun his head around like no other. The idea that there were more people with their eyes open to the world. That generally cared about others, even strangers, and wanted to do some good with no expectation of repayment. It was so alien and unusual to him that it confused him every time.
It was just easier to handle if they didn't care because he didn't know what to do if they did.