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[ and he can't help that pang of jealousy he feels when she mentions spike. he knows more about that relationship than she knows. more than he ever wanted to, but spike's got a big mouth he has trouble keeping closed, especially when it involves tormenting his grandsire. he doesn't comment, though. best to just let her believe that he's thinking of smelling him on her when he brought her that amulet, of her declaration of spike being in her heart. ]
Dealing and also... She was familiar. A part of me wanted that. The familiarity, the days long gone when nothing mattered, because I didn't have the ability to give a damn about anything or anyone. Dark place was pretty dark.
[ which was awkward to admit, let alone to buffy, but after four years, it's about time he said that to someone. lorne reading his aura doesn't count as opening up to someone about the darla debacle. ]
It's why I picked it. Would've given him my last name, too, had I thought about the whole birth certificate thing before I handed him over to Cordy and Wes to do all that complicated modern doctor stuff in those baby books that I couldn't take care of after sundown. [ he stumbled through what he was allowed to enjoy of modern fatherhood. ]