[Strangely, for the first time in a long time he felt like a weight had been lifted from his shoulders. Her words weren't exactly what he'd been wanting to hear, but they were enough.
It was a start.
Amid all the confusion she was obviously feeling, there was a glimmer of hope. It was like she wasn't sure which way was up when it came to her emotions.]
You realize this, yet still yearn for our old relationship back.
[Slowly, Zero's hands slid from her hair to her shoulders. Gently pressing on her to indicate his desire for her to remove herself from his person. Just enough that they were able to see eye to eye. One hand reaching for her chin, he lifted it to force her attention solely on him. His steely lavender gaze met hers and locked with it for a moment before continuing.]
Which one do you mean? The one you thought we had or the one we actually had?
[Cruel as it might be to say, it was just the start. He refused to have it get brushed under the table.]
I was suicidal and terrified about what was happening to me. I had no control over my future. I didn't even really HAVE a future. My feelings were unrequited and I just took whatever relationship I could get from you because it wasn't like I would ever pursue it.
[Holding her gaze, he lets that all sink in for a bit before finishing.]
I'm not that kid anymore. I don't want to be that kid any more.
If you want that closeness or bond back, you need to realize it will never be the same as it was. You can't have things back the way they were.
Is that what you want?
[Meaning saying yes to this means he's coming after you 110%]