[Oh, that's just -- well it made sense. Still, he had doubts now that he'd fit their requirements. He didn't think it wasn't all that surprising, considering he's sure he only got into the Shinsengumi because he was friends with the boss. Man, he already felt a little like a failure.
And he doesn't know it, but he already acted inappropriately around Suzaku.
Keep is guard up. Always keep his guard up. Words he lived by. And he's already in prison, taken from his home, which meant he had nothing to lose, especially after already losing the most important person to him. Things can't get any worse than they already are.]