Yeah well, I had to improvise. [ And he paid for it, in more ways than one. Though he is glad that Sasha seems to understand some of what he did, and why. ]
[ Slumping a bit. ] I can't go back on that, now. I mean, if she shows up, that will just have the same effect. Only here, if she ends up feeling sad, or hurt, or angry at me because of all that -- or even worse, if she feels all those things because of what happens in the future that I no doubt have had some part in, then I just won't be able to face her. [ Not to mention how deep those feelings really ran, from what she had said to him that day in the hospital... ]