[He wishes that he were the kind of person who could accept sympathy and compassion - now more than ever, because WV seems so genuine. But he knows that he doesn't deserve this compassion, because he planned to use that situation to his advantage in such a terrible way. This is meant for someone like Waku, Daichi, Nakama herself. Not him.]
I thought it might be hers. [Because that's something to cling to, something that isn't him and his failures.] You're right, she was a good person. I'm glad she had so many friends here.