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I knew... that time, that it was not you at all. You were different and I could not sense you.
At that time, I did not even know how I was able to tell something like that. I thought it was merely instinct. [But, actually, it was because... of what he was turning into. He understands that now.
Except, that time—] But, that wasn't enough of a reason. I did not have an excuse of why I did it.
[After what happened, it was all right for him to take the blame. It was better if it was him, rather than Lyle. He knew the eternal regret of killing someone precious to you.
As it haunted him, too. Even if he didn't show it, his immense guilt and pain, he wanted to remain strong for them. For Lyle, especially. He carried all of these with him in his fight. Each one just fuels his desire further to fight for true peace and protect those in his reach.
Saji asked him the same question that he was asking himself. Was there really no other way? Why did it have to come to that?]
Though, I know now. At that time, what really happened... The reason why I could not sense you. I was not mistaken. You truly were not there.
[That's why...] It was not your fault at all. So please, do not apologize for it.
Right now, you can make your own decisions without his influence. You showed him that, you showed it to all of us.