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I don't want to be indebted to anyone. [which is part of the reason he goes off alone all the time at home.]
[That came out harshly, and he sighs, not having meant it quite that way.] And I don't want anyone throwing their life away on me. [He has one mission to accomplish after all, and if he accomplishes it who's to say if he'll have any magic at all?]