[private]
... [He's quiet for awhile. He's still upset, because even though all of this has part of his mind screaming to apologise and make up and just go cling to his father, the quieter part is asking why, why, if all this is true, did Kaito end up hurting him so badly? Why did he have to be the outlet for all the anger? Why did Kaito have to destroy everything he loved? He's given Kaito so many chances...why did he deserve another?
He knew his brother better than anybody...his mind is working out answers that could be true, might be true. And still that quiet part asks why Akito ever thought that it was okay. That being hurt was fine.
...Akito hates this new part of him that's questioning everything he knew]
...Onii-chan... [He doesn't know what to say...no, he does] I believe you...I never didn't...I just don't understand... [Maybe he never can...but he just...he just wants things to go back to the way they were...when they teased one another; when he could go curl up against Kaito even though the other would pretend he didn't care that the light was afraid of something, while secretly comforting him; when things...weren't this complicated]
I d-don't know wh-what t-to d-do... [Complete break down is imminent. And Akito hates the fact that Kaito's not here as he cries into his legs and hates everything]