Well... y'know how I've been taking self-defense training? And how I wanted to patrol?
[Her expression turning absolutely miserable.] I couldn't do anything. I just freaked out as soon as she started stabbing me, and... I couldn't do anything. Not even to save my own life. I was useless.
[I am useless, she wants to say, but she just turns her body away from him to hide her intense unhappiness.]