[His voice is surprisingly soft when he says it. It hurts to say this - he knows he needs people, but he just can't...]
I don't want to... the last person I got even anywhere close to ended up dying a braindead vegetable. The person before her I abused for years when it wasn't even her fault.
[He's been thinking about this a lot, evidenced by the fact that he's only about twenty pages into his book.]