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[ that is not ideal!! ] [ but he takes a deep breath, and then murmurs ]
...Prince Schneizel promised to make me the Knight of One, if I would assassinate His Majesty. [ this is -- true. he's only leaving out the part where it was his idea. but immediately it weighs on him, what he isn't telling her -- how miserable he was, how low he was, how desperate he'd been and how he would have done anything to somehow 'make up for' the horror he'd committed with FLEIJA. now he knows better, knows there's no such thing, but this was his worst moment (one of his worst moments), and glossing over it feels very strange. ]