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[ breathing, breathing. he just has to keep reminding himself to do that.
it's horrible, but he's been trying hard not to think about her. trying to focus on his responsibilities to the DF, on Zero's proposal and Hiling's proposal, on anything other than Euphie, back again and like this again, in a cell.
every time he comes into this building, he feels a wave of tension, almost a physical reaction to her proximity -- the knowledge that she's here, in a cell, not so very far away from him. that he could easily go to see her. that her face would twist if he did. that she would lose herself if he did.
but soon, soon it will be different. she'll finally be here for real. he'll be able to think of her without a sick pull in his stomach.