That's not it. He was never like this before. We don't have fun together anymore, he just lies to me and...
[he shakes his head. he doesn't want to badtalk Axel. he doesn't want to be in this situation.
but this isn't what friendship is like. he remembers what it was like when they were friends, and even if that time was just a lie, that's what he wants again.
...he wonders if Axel would treat him less like a kid if he'd kissed him back]
That's great for some people. But he used to be my friend, and now he's trying to be my mom. And I don't like it.