[he doesn't want to lose that stupid asshole again. he's the worst person in the world but he's the closest thing Allen has to family and if it weren't for him who knew where he'd be now? after years of dealing with him--
[--longer than he knew Mana, he realizes, and squeezes his eyes tightly shut]
I swear, if he... if he dies... I will. I will find him wherever he ends up in Hell and make him so sorry... [he doesn't know what he's saying]