[They're nothing alike in Ianto's mind. Spike has hurt and killed more people than he could probably ever count but if he had been the one to capture him that night Ianto thinks it would have gone differently. A quick death, not hours of careful dissection. That never seemed like Spike's style and that's the critical difference in his mind. It's not the death that he has nightmares about after all. It's everything that led up to it.]
I know you'll protect me. But just seeing him, just knowing he's here, it makes me feel sick. This place is too small to avoid him forever, one day I'll turn a corner and he'll be there and that terrifies me.