"I gotta be honest, I never really thought about that kinda stuff." Still focused on the curtains rather than eye contact but if he's honest that actually helps him think. "Gettin' rejected for who I am scares the livin' shit outta me. So intimacy sounds like a pretty big thing, even if it's just feelings and stuff."
There are some things about himself he's very self-aware of after all. He looked 'em right in the eyes back home and said almost those exact words and it kinda sucks but it feels good in a weird way, too. Knowing what your darkest parts are.