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Martha Jones (notrosesshadow) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2017-04-19 20:56:00

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martha jones, spencer reid

Day 424 | Private Voice to Reid
Closer to 9 or 10 PM

[With the exception of Jack, Martha hadn't talked to many people about this. Things had been weird between her and Gaeta in the end. They had talked about becoming closer and then never had. It seemed to happen a lot when she tried to get closer to people here. It was enough to give her pause before calling Reid. She considered a moment before scrolling to his name and dialing.]

Remember when you said maybe I should talk more instead of holding things in? I'm holding things in and I suspect you're holding things in. And maybe we should... hold things in or try to let them out together.

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thisiscalm
2017-04-20 09:04 am UTC (link)

[ He didn't expect so many people to reach out to him today. Okay, so Martha's the second one to call him out specifically but that's still more than he expected and it makes him wonder if he should feel worse about Kitty disappearing than he does. It's complicated. Hashing it out with someone who wasn't so close to Kitty might help. ]

Sure... that sounds like a pretty good idea. Want to meet up someplace for, uh... coffee or something? [ It's too late in the day for coffee, isn't it. ]

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	notrosesshadow 2017-04-20 09:49 am UTC (link)
	[Is it too late for coffee? Probably. But she's okay with that.] Yeah... yeah, coffee's fine. See you at Bean Crushers? [Since apparently that's where all her heart to hearts are now.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2017-04-22 01:58 pm UTC (link)
	Okay. I'll be there in a few. [ And he will be, looking pretty much the same as he always does these days. Perhaps a little more tired, a little more stressed. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notrosesshadow 2017-04-22 09:19 pm UTC (link)
	[Martha looks run down. Tired. She sits down, cup of coffee already in hand and gives him a wan smile that quickly fades back to neutral.] You holding up okay? I know you and Kitty were broken up... [Her voice trails off because, yeah, they were broken up. So maybe she was being too invasive.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2017-04-23 09:38 am UTC (link)
	[ He orders a coffee before turning his attention back at her with a tired smile. ] I don't think it's really set in yet. She was always here, you know? Since long before I arrived. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notrosesshadow 2017-04-26 01:39 am UTC (link)
	[Martha's eyes widened a bit.] Yeah, I guess I knew she'd been here a while. I don't think I really realized how long. It feels like there are some people who are just always going to be here you know? And when they go... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2017-04-26 07:47 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. I know exactly what you mean. [ Here, but even more so back home. Always thought Gideon would be around and now he's been gone almost as long as he knew him. ] It feels like I should feel worse about this than I do. I don't know if it just hasn't sunk in yet, or... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notrosesshadow
2017-04-26 07:27 pm UTC (link)

[Funny enough, here it's more apparent than back home. The Doctor never stayed places long. But here, there seemed to be a core of people who just... were.

She took a sip of coffee as he continued on, pausing and raising an eyebrow when he trailed off.]

Hasn't sunk in is a distinct possibility. What's the possibility for 'or'?

[She could come up with a phrase or two to finish that sentence, but she didn't want to put words in his mouth.]

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thisiscalm
2017-04-28 07:43 am UTC (link)

Or we really had drifted so far apart in the end that I'm never going to feel sad about her being gone.

[ Relieved, more like it, which feels petty or even downright awful. There was a lot of endless drama and after that failed conversation with Chekov Reid felt more than ever that they were done for good. No chance of friendship. Even less so after she disbanded the Defence Force days after he brought her some complaints and suggestions, ways to make it better. ]

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	notrosesshadow 2017-05-09 10:17 pm UTC (link)
	That's also a distinct possibility. How does that make you feel? [Okay. Perhaps she's playing counselor now. Partly because the prison does need one and she's the most qualified, and partly because she's still working her head around her own issues.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2017-05-11 07:44 am UTC (link)
	[ He sees what she's doing and honestly, as much as he hates psych evals he can understand the need for a little counseling right now. ] I don't know. Weird? We used to be so close but lately I've barely recognised her as the same person. It makes me question why we were even together in the first place. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	notrosesshadow 2017-05-12 06:59 pm UTC (link)
	[Martha raises an eyebrow. There's plenty to unpack there. Do they focus on why he fell for Kitty in the first place? Do they focus on why he saw her as different? Martha deliberates for a moment.] Do you remember what is was about her that made you fall for her? Way back when? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thisiscalm
2017-05-14 06:32 pm UTC (link)

[ There's a pause here, because he actually has to take a moment to think about it, dig through all the endless fighting and misunderstandings and downright betrayals of her cheating-without-cheating or spilling his status as a drug addict to the dome at large behind his back. There's a lot of resentment at this point, which makes it even harder to handle the people calling him today.

At least Martha seems to get it. ]

...She saw me. Not a lot of people did. I don't know why, but she wanted to spend time with me, get to know me. Before that, I uh. I hadn't had a girlfriend? Not even close.

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	notrosesshadow 2017-05-15 02:09 am UTC (link)
	[Martha shifted when he said 'she saw me.' It had been that way with Tom. He saw her when others didn't.] That would do it. At least that's what did me in too at one point. How long did that last? The good? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thisiscalm
2017-05-16 08:22 am UTC (link)

[ Yeah, he noticed that. It's kind of nice, knowing he's not the only one who gets hooked on something so simple. ]

Until I disappeared. Coming back... a lot happened back home. I was gone for a year and a half. [ Emily coming back, JJ getting married, Maeve. A lot. ] I don't think either of us handled it as well as we could've, but... I started to notice things. I'd ask for time and space and she'd agree and then not follow through. I started to realise that a lot of things, ever since the beginning... it had been on her terms.

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	notrosesshadow 2017-05-16 02:45 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sorry Reid. That must have been a difficult realization to come to terms with. I can understand why you're feeling more or less apathetic about her departure. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thisiscalm 2017-05-19 07:01 am UTC (link)
	[ He nods, gives her a crooked smile. ] Maybe in a couple of weeks it'll mellow out. Right now I don't really want to think about it. [ And since this is so not just about him in the least. ] What, uhm... what are you holding in? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

notrosesshadow
2017-05-19 02:10 pm UTC (link)

[Martha knows the end of a conversation when she hears one, and so she nods and takes a sip of coffee. When he asks her about her own issues, she sighs.]

I'm not even sure. Felix Gaeta seems to be gone, and as I was trying to explain to Jack earlier, we had such a weird relationship? friendship? we had such a weird something that I feel like it's not supposed to hurt as much as it does?

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